Defeated

I concede defeat. I can never finish a novel in time for the NanoWrimo. With the getting sick part of the last week, I ignored the writing. Thus no fruits to bear.

Haha. Actually was sick and I couldn't bear the idea to write anything coherently. But laziness is also a part of it and it took me a lot of time to finish a chapter.

I wonder if my story would be continued. I guess it would, but it would be spun slowly. Spanning centuriesssss!!! Ehem.. a bit melodramatic. Nah.. if I have the idea and the free time, I'll submit myself to it and perhaps more chapters will be borne and perhaps an ending.

But now.. I am playing Sims at home. So let the story be for a while. I guess I will try it again in another 2 years time. Why not next year? *winks* Next year on November is gonna be a busy month for me. ( And that's if the current story had finish in 2 years time)

So that's that.

Moving on to new chapters. I couldn't be arsed to comment on the current political rumbling goin on, the eventual price hike for almost everything we see, touch and consume or the entertainment but I do want to say the Hindraf rally.. well.. I don't know what I think about it. I agree on some of the memorandum sent, I found myself disbelieving in others but I maybe ignorant on that matter and I wonder how many people really knows the purpose of the rally. If not a whole lot, it defeated the whole shenanigans.

Ok. Moing to another topic plak (Ala ADHD style) .A bit of a time since I commented on books. So let's touch on those plak. So I just had finish Deafening. And it was beautiful.

Beautifully written of course. The plots and characters are a little too recurrent on many of World War 1 books written, but it doesn't make it a whole less enjoyable.

I am still wrapping my head on all the reason of World War 1 and World War 2, and does the veterans of the World War 1 feels all their efforts awasted when WW2 arrived?

It's hard to say if World War 3 can or did erupt or the matter of when? Some say the new War will be war of econonomy (gahhh.. people had been doing that for centuries, hand in hand in with war of bloodsheds). Some say the Post 9/11, its kinda like a war. I think it is on a bigger and grander scale. Who knows. If it will happen ,we might even don't know it. Since we would be blown up to smithereens by atomic bombs before we realized it.

Truly dreadful thoughts for Friday. Yours truly.

p/s: Am wasting company time reading the WW1 diaries and memoirs. Interesting.

Gile Malas

I hate to go to a meeting at 7pm. I hate to go to a meeting when it is my off day. I hate to go to a meeting where there is no free food. I hate meeting.

Gah!

Planning to go to KLCC jab lagi. Lots to buy, but the big "M" is ever-lacking. So nothing to buy, in summary. Nak tengok wayang, but the time yang sesuai cuma cerita Bee Movie, Beowulf and whateva movie yang Magical Emporium tu. I would feel like choking to death if I saw that movies alone. Wait, Beowulf adalah tidak sweet and senseless. But whatever, the graphic don't appeal to me.

Nak siap2 la nih. Sangat malas. Eh... kenapa blogger tanak add smiley dalam function die. Duh, blogger. Come, on. Improve more.

Senseless. Fine.

25 Candles

Yeay! Birthday today. Boo! Sick today.

Lazy to make a long post. As so... nothing particular to say pon. Thank you for the well wisher even though 90% of your guys birthday I usually forgot. I know, I know I need to make more of an effort to remember. So thank you all, it means a lot to me.

Got a brand new CPU for my birthday present. Hehe.. so no complain from me anymore on how my DVD writer do not work or my computer sucks. Its a small CPU, and the specs, gosh... I am at loss when it comes to specs of computer. All those numbers are confusing to my little pretty head. But its pretty fine, before ni dulu nak main Sims pon tak larat, so now I think my Sims can dance around in glee without my computer hanging.

My officemates also dengan baiknye telah membeli pizza dan membelanja diri ini for pizza. Thank you, opismates. Tak sesia keje tonight. :P

My tunang last night treated me for some Japanese food at Kiku Zakura. He have the photos so probably he will post it at his blog or his photo blog. The food is something like you get from Yoshinoya, but better (duh.. of course considering the price )and have more range. My tunang said it was delicious. He ordered the salmon. Mine not so much, since perhaps I ordered beef. Adalah sangat full bile balik, sampai sudah nauseous. Gile mentekedarah makan sampai nak termuntah. Tapi sedap. Huhuhu.

Oh.. well.. that's all for the birthday post then. Happy Birthday to me and thanks again y'all.

Gile malas nak keje.

Cheap Books! Cheap Books! Come and read Cheap Books!

What did I do last Saturday morning?

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I bought these..

I read Suanie blog early Saturday morning when I was working, mentioning about the Pearson & Penguin Warehouse Book Sale at PJ. Since its a bit near from workplace, I decided to go after work with the fiance. The Warehouse book sale is quite big and it had a lot to offer for everybody. It came to a point that I was so tired (with not sleeping due to night shift) from scanning rows and rows of books that I had to just randomly stand at some spot in front of the table, take a breather and Tada! found what I was looking for.

All those above are what I bought. All around 16 or 17 books and spent almost RM200!! 3 of those 17 are my fiance's photography books. The book cost around RM10 - 15 and the hardcovers one usually at RM20. This is the most I ever spent on books at one go (excepting text books of course). A good bargain and I am not regretting it one bit. Very happy in fact. Early birthday present from moi to meself. Yeay!

The list is.... panjang. Malas plak nak type. But as you can see bought 2 Gaiman's work, got 2 of the Adrian Mole diaries series, manage to find one book that I had been searching for years and thrown in some Classic books to ease my guilt on buying those guilty pleasure chick lits. Wanted to get familiarize with Woolf works and try to see if I would like another work of Kazuo Ishiguro.

Stack of books. Sangat happy, so played around with the books after got home. Crazy!

There's a lot of chick lit (a lot of it from popular authors too) , and mystery/thriller too, Cromwell and Patterson, few of Clancy I see strewn about. However, I refrained from buying Patterson and Cromwell (except Women's Murder Club series) but I just couldn't resist that Predator book. A bit bummed tho that I can't find or they don't have Michael Crichton books.

You can still catch the Warehouse sale since it is there until 21st November. The address is Pearson Malaysia Sdn Bhd, Lot 2, Jalan 215, Off Jalan Templer, Petaling Jaya, Selangor.

I get giddy in trying to decide which books I want to read first. Yeay!

Oh, the weekend before this I went to another Warehouse Book Sale at Low Yat Plaza (next to it actually). Not as big as the Pearson one, the books are cheaper but most of it are those by unknown authors. Its get very dizzy and headachy in trying to find the books you want to buy in a Warehouse sale (since there is no such thing called organization), much less unknown books by unknown authors. So at the Low Yat one, I only bought 3 since it is just too tiring to read all those summary. The books I bought there are currently on my Currently Reading list and reading Deafening so far, it's quite good.

Will not have to spend on books for at least another 3 or 4 months. Reading galore ahead!

Am. So. Behind.

Its November bitches. Ehem.

November is a very special month for me. Becoz its my birthday. Hahaha. Its like a month long celebration. Cewah. Macam sangat special.

Actually not. But I do kinda like it when November came. (The anticipation of presents kut.. Hehehe. Sungguh materialistic)

But my birthday.. not till few days yet.. (uiks.. agak hampir jua), but that's not this post is all about.

No sirree. I am writing because of NaNoWriMo. I sign up. Yeps. Yeay for writing. Boo for procrastination. Knowing me, I haven't started anything yet. My word counts is so pitiful I am embarassed to announce it to you guys.

But its the thought that count. Ha! Right? No?

Writing day after day (more like a day in aweek after a day in a week), I found out that being a writer is tough. Finding a coherent plot is a tough steel of nut to break. Writing headlong recklessly is even tougher. I found that I liked editing my stories, damn it. And pondering at the words.

Shit. I am suddenly getting cold feet. WHY DO I EVEN SIGN UP FOR THE STUPID THING WHEN I HAVE ABSOLUTE NO PREPARATION NOR CLEAR IDEA FOR A NOVEL? I can never finish this in time. Argh..

:: typing furiously in imagination due to writer's block ::

Oh, I wrote/typed my story in another blog. If you care enough to look in my blogger profile. However, access is restricted, unless I am prepare to submit myself to pure humilliation.

:: still walking round and round thinking what to write ::

Stardust

.... is amazing.

It is even better than the book or almost borderline there. The first time that I ever hailed a film as so... the movie is better than the book. (Tho reading Neil Gaiman interview, he might takes an issue with this statement) Wow. Let me gape at that statement for a while.

Seriously, its better than some of the fantasy flicks. There are some things that are off ( the pirate ship for instance, I'm not sure.. what is off.. but like it should be better).... but most are OK. Very tongue in cheek and not the conventional magical fairytale and rigid righteousness of most fantasy stories. But that's Neil Gaiman for you.

The intro kinda baffled me tho. What is it trying to narrate? What is the question? What is the answer? More like.. the point is? Skipped the 1 minute intro of bafflement, it was a joy to watch after.

The movie manage to turnaround the boring part of the book to the most delightful scenes in the movie. The climax of the movie is done nicely, as some critics pointed out, not as original (and the climax in the book differs with the movie), but at least its not as anti climactic as I expected. It even turned out nicely even if its as cliche as it could be.

Robert De Niro as the fabulously flamboyant sky ship pirate captain is fabulous. Claire Danes is rightly cast , she is simply luminous. I missed Claire Danes at the screen. I am still searching for Stage Beauty. The hero, Charlie Cox, ehem.. yummy. What is his age again as so I might not feel guilty? His IMDB is seriously lacking in resume. Act more as so I can salivate after you! (Which means, I had taken a peek of his IMDB and there is nothing to feel guilty of)

Come, come. Watch Stardust before it is gone from your cinema. I walked out smiling thinking that I want to buy the DVD. The original DVD. Ain't that something.

All that Jazziness

I list somewhere on a long ago list to see Chicago, the Musical (not the city, but I won't say no to that either..) and occasionally mentioned it. Thus my fiance bought me this, and lauded that it is his idea that we got to watch Chicago. Right :P .. Haha.. fine fine. He bought the tickets and belanje me, so I will acquisence. Right. It is your idea. Haha.

So on 6th November, we got the premiere tickets and were raring to go. Excepting of course my fiance have got to go to Miri on that day. Baru nak resigning to myself that I have to go alone, he made it, albeit 20 or 25 mins late.

Which of course pisses me off since I believe I missed some early bit from the show since I need to wait for my plus one. Its nowhere his fault, but damn I'm still pissed. Sorry, but that just who I am.

Which also causes me to not be able to wholly enjoyed the show as I was steamingly furious. Have to say again, and I know and he stated a few times, its not his fault that he is late... but THAT IS JUST WHO I AM, me who hated waiting and being late for shows (be it wayang or such). Ehem.. now I get that off my chest, let's get on the program.

I won't go into a lengthy review, but here's what I like and don't. Those who wants to know more about what's the story about, of course can kindly head to wiki here (where else..).

I like..

1. few of Velma Kelly dance numbers. Shows great stamina and skills.
2. Mama Morton number on "When you're good to Mama..". Great vocal. Wishes it have more snaps and vim into it, in term of performance. But the vocal as itself is spellbinding enough to be kept entertained. Her voice is extraordinary.
   
3. Witty and cheeky lines. I meant lines in term of songs and dialogue (that is not incorporate in songs). Even better than the film ( which I thoroughly enjoyed..).
   
4. Amos. He was sad in the movie (and make our heart breaks..) and in term of the stage, he still makes me feel the same, funnier even but a lil heartbreaking as the man cuckolded.
   
5. The songs and the orchestra. Eiii.. nice... Kudos especially for the orchestral crew on their loud extravagant brassy numbers. I fell in love with the saxophone player (ohhh.. childhood memories flooding back) .
   
6. Their songs is really great, even the one I didn't like before .. "We Both Reached for the Gun". The ventriloquist number is awesomeness.
   

I don't feel like I like..

1. The sets in general. I felt like we didn't get our full entertainment value in term of the high price of tickets they charged. The sets is lacklustre. It is bright, yes, keeping in theme with Chicago. However... that's it? For a musical stage, that's should be a successful one in Broadway, all we get in term of the stage special effects is bright flashing lights and prison bars silhoutte at the back? Props is few and the sets, is what you see is what you get. Dissapointing. I am not sure if this is because of KL Convention Centre vs Istana Budaya that is more equipped to handle more stage effects,sets and props in its full glory or Chicago don't depend on a whole lot of stage effects or sets. We'll see, maybe will watch Beauty and the Beast next year pulak and compare if its really the case.
   
2. The wig or hair or extension on Roxie. Small things to harp on, I know.. Tapi in this production Roxie and Velma have the same cut. So yang duduk jauh tuh2, dark haired and red haired looked almost the same lor,thus hard to differentiate at first.
   
3. Some of the dance numbers, especially All that Jazz. Not enough snap and vim as I said before, as much as I like it or expected of a show that boast of its choreography numbers.
   
4. The girls are not as scantily clad as I wish. Hahaha.. kidding, but wishes adalah lebey sexeh okeh.
   
5. The humongous head that was in front me thus blocking my view especially during the delicious number of Cell Block Tango. Eiiiiii... Okay.. bukan salah production, but still la kann.. Gah!
   

All in all, I felt somewhat satisfied (even if I was simmering a bit) watching all my favorite numbers in action. Not sure however if I want to give it another go. Rather popped in the CD for the movie version plak. More satisfactory and besto.

So.. abes dah ke Musicals I wish to see? Nah. Wicked!!! Datang lah Malaysia!! Paling bangsat pon Singapore.

From what I heard and seen in little bits in Ugly Betty, Wicked macam awesome and the songs is quite nice. Sigh.. tho methinks its gonna be quite a few years baru a tour would be coming around in Asia.

Oh well..

Catty Attack

I always love cats. Always did and ade cita2 untuk memelihara cat yg lawa nanti2 ( but responsibility of a pet is too burdensome a.k.a malas nak clean up and train said kitties). Well, we don't have any pet cat except for a regular visit from the neighbor cat. Used to have those only on my childhood years. Skang malas.

The thing is we have this problem with kitties, I don't know stray or not (I hoped stray so owners won't feel too bad if I strangle it).

Last year, something crawl up the smoke ventilation thingies to die in there. No.. not from inside, I think it clawed itself from outside, past the screen to the ventilation.

Around awal puasa last year, there is this God awful stench coming somewhere in the kitchen. At first we thought a kitten or a rat had died somewhere at the back. We look around and shrugged our shoulders. Then the stench is becoming unbearable that you have to hold your breath everytime coming into the kitchen. My sister and the maid was looking around the kitchen by then if something had chose to die inside the kitchen cabinets.

Then, rain down the maggots. It feels like thousand and thousand (more like berpuluh2 but coming out persistently) came down from the smoke ventilators hood. We were aghast and nauseous and every disgusting feeling that can be feel are felt as we try to make the best of the situation. (at that time it was night so calling for help is quite impossible). My sister try to put something below the hood so the maggots can be contained sambil sambil spray with Ridsect. We were arrested with the irrational fear that while we were sleeping, the maggots will crawl upstairs and feast on our joyous flesh. Hahahahha.

The next day, the one who installed the ventilator were called and asked as so those ventilators are taken out and replace with a new one. I don't think that those men who replaced the thing quite know what they had gotten themselves into. My sister said they looked quite traumatic after finishing the job. We were never quite sure if a cat really died up there, or something else... since the carcass was beyond recognition by then. It took a bit of a time for us to use that ventilator comfortably now.

Then, there is another problem where cat poos seems to litter in front of the gate since it is quite sandy there. My bro-in-law geram2 and shovel those sands away. The cat must be geram2 as well, cause afterwards it clawed out the kunyit my bro-in-law tanam in the pasu at our house and leave its poo in the pasu as souvenir. Had to laugh at that one.

Now, the cats seem to revenge themselves on our house to a whole new level literally. At first I strongly suspected that a cat poop itself on the roof above my room few months back, twice! It smelled horrible. Gah! Never I had ever hate cat, I hated them now.

Then... probably the roof above my room, is probably not a good spot for them. They chose now to poop at the roof just outside my windows. Thrice! Great. All that is left to do is for me is to invite them in my room and let them shit all over the place.

I am at a loss on what to do. Its there some cat karma that I am not aware of? Had I tortured a cat silly during my youngish undeveloped memory years? Is the spirit of the maggoty cat (if its really a cat), ordered those cats to exact revenge on us for its shitty decision to die in our kitchen?

Gah! This is gonna take some work to rid of the poos! And the smell!

I hate cat!!! I am gonna buy a hamster or a pit bull. So it can chase those cat.. Hahahaha (Maniacal laughter..... )

Raya Surprise

Well.. this is a tad bit late for Raya post. Tapi takpe.

Nothing very special happened on Raya or joyous either. I found out that this Raya, I am even more broke. Ugh. Hate the feeling of being penniless.. I like the thoughts of money always at my disposal to buy pretty things.

The Raya visit to various family members are exactly as it was this year and most of the years before this.

Surprise awaiting however at 7 am on Raya 3rd when my ex from around 5 or 6 years time ago, sms me wanting to Raya at me house. 7 pagi? Loons manekah beraya rumah orang kul 7 pagi? I asked again, and he actually wanting to drop by at 10.30 am. Acceptable time then and I can't very well say not. Not wanting to go into details on the visit... only its awkward. It had been such a long time and the last word we say to each other (not via sms) is how best it is not to see each other.

Conversation mostly focusing on work, and the rest are pretty forgettable really and before leaving I blurted out my engagement which he responded by him getting married on March. Herm.... Well, next year will be a whole lot of wedding engagement needed to be attended to. Though I seriously doubt I am attending his. And for the curious, its not because there is leftover feeling or whatevs, more like.. eh.. malas la and malas jua nak bagi reason to the curious (Esp for those mysterious sms I received on my engagement day... apekah dan siapakah itu???). Not that I dig nasik minyak that much pon. It had been quite some time for me to say anything about my love life in my blog eh? I don't quite relish it nowadays.

What is the other thing that I don't relish much? Announcing my engagement. Yeah, yeah. I am not like other people. I am not the kinda person who is like Wheee~~~ I am so happy y'all type. I'm more like.. I'm engaged, yeah, thanks, So what/where you wanna eat tonight?

Anyhow, giving this piece of news to a few of my school buddies (and one of em I used to have tiniest lil crush on) is a tad bit uncomfortable, since seeing one face drop and continue to not look at me at least for 10 mins, one face looking warily at the couch (I don't think there is any stain on the couch) and 2 face is basically neutral and just blink , makes one rakes brain up to say anything witty ok.

To be fair, only my closest friend in JB knew this and well, she's not in JB anymore and I don't give personal life info to most of my buddies willingly. Heh. I miss her turribly much. Nak jumpa baby Iman and baby baru, Imran!

So people.. any surprise engagement... please give news via IM or email. We won't have the pleasure to see some of the reaction. Life is much simpler.

Oh.. I also manage to see Resident Evil: Extinction on Raya 3rd. Bwahahaha. My friend yang maw beraya complain on adakah ini beraya. Well.. I did really was waiting patiently for Resident Evil, and didn't manage to see it beforehand. Its my only time! Love zombies movie, tho I think RE3 is less disgusting than the other 2 and a bit lembap in term of storyline. And apekah mutant zombie last itu? I totally don't dig that. Waiting for 30 days of Night pulak (vampire lore, better even than zombie). The only lore I don't like is Werewolves. Boring.

Mengantuk la. Oh, I changed the template. Yeps , yeps. Most seems to like the previous one. Tapi takpeler, I think this one is easier to read the blog post and I opted for more simple design nowadays (I think forever pon). Also could not find a nice 3 column template that suit me.

Well then, selamat makan puas-puas di open house. In the office, we are gathering a little raya delights to be eaten (own expense of course) tomorrow, saje2 since we are the type of people who will not get to many open house. If you can join em, make em I say.

Radiohead Makes Me Orgasmiscally Happy

I kinda like Radiohead nowadays. Their music suits me in this particular stage of life. Their new album is out and you can get them for free or choose to pay in whatever amount you think its worth at www.inrainbows.com.

Its a new strategy they are trying out, and personally I think its kinda great. I don't know if I am taking it up for free or will pay as seeing I really like their music. As the question going around nowadays, How much are you willing to pay for the music?

In another note, I was browsing around articles regarding science and such (Ugh.. bunyi macam intellectually-fakin it, but I'm not, I was merely bored) , and comes upon the article in Wiki, A life in science sometimes becomes a death, too.

Go ahead and read it. Its great to read about the feats of real scientist (*cough* as oppose to celeb one *cough*) and the sacrifice that come upon every single thing that we took for granted on.

Short post. Just a quick note I thought I quickly type before turning to bed. Nighty nite.

Sod it with the witty title today

KL is getting back to its jam packed state. Even more so than usual with the throngs of people going everywhere for Raya visit and open house. Sigh.

Raya is okay. Jalan tidak jam. I don't know if its because we went back so late or the extra lane, but its great. Back to KL also tidak jam, which is a first for me for few years now. Wow whee.. Sucks for those who lived on the north tho.

God. Work seems to sucks even more. What more to complain la kan? Ticket is coming in macam water, cuti is unattainable as going to the moon, the pay is blergh. I have a half mind to just throw in the towel, travel to faraway country and work as dishwasher.

Erk. Lil rant there. Wait. Oh.. I was wanting to write about Raya on this post. But I am nursing a major headache and just blergh la. COZ I WANT NASIK LEMAK! I have to wait for a few more hours, and I felt like if I don't eat nasik lemak soon I may burst into tears shamelessly.

Then I felt like I am suppose to write this ditty about Raya, but I kept on swaying off base writing nonsensical things.

I also felt like I am stuck in a rut and all I want to do is to scream and scream and scream. However, I always suck in a breathe and smile and ask on whatever useless thing I can't seem to remember about to anybody nearby as so they wouldn't see that I am actually having a menopausal symptons of rage and mood swings while my period just always coming in twice a month like clockwork.

I always felt like I want to travel the world and live in another country and felt like its unfair indeed that other undeserving people get this chance. In rare moments, I manage to shake myself free of this thoughts by remembering I had actually travel to at least 5 countries and lived briefly overseas in 1 of these countries while there are people who had never set foot out of their state.

I also found out recently I harbor grudges and I don't forgive and forget. I found out to the surprise of myself and others, that even after years that a wrong had been made, even after discussing things out, even after other people thinking its ancient history and forgetting that ancient history, the thing that had hurt me seems as fresh as this morning dew whenever I remembered it and rehashing on the people, I am as polite as ever.. and just that. Just polite and I never refer them as my friend, even if they refer me as such.

I obviously sucks. However I don't really care about it since life is short and work is gonna take a long toll in your life, so I don't really need to see and mince my words for people who I don't think is worth my time.

Okay. Obviously an emotional, senseless rant from a female who have a major headache due to lack of sleep because stupid neighborly kiddies find it amusing to play mercun endlessly for 2 hours straight di belakang rumah yang sempit while some people need to sleep.

Bah!

p/s: Maybe I'll write a semi sensible post about Raya tomorrow.

Hari Raya Esok

Ala kira je la ini Raya post.

This Raya is getting to be even more bland. My only grandmother had passed away earlier this year. My grandfather had passed away several years before. I never knew the other grandparents on my father side. My sister and her family will be celebrating in Qatar this year. I will miss the sight of Little Kenit frolicking around with kueh raya always in hand. So this Raya, will not be spent sightseeing in zoo. What? Don't judge. Bukan hari raya first pon.. more like 2nd or 3rd Raya.

I never seems to feel the Raya festive airs nowadays. My grandparents used to love Raya so much. My grandmother is looking forward to the food. My grandfather looking forward of his friends visiting. During first raya dulu2, he love to invite his friends (of all races....) to come and enjoy the various food my mom and grandmother prepared. Ketupat, nasi impit, nasi beriani, laksa, soto, sayur lodeh, rendang kering, rendang basah, sate.... (the table used to groan holding all these).

The tetamu would start to come and continue and continue to come until.. almost 11pm. We would then return home, tired of carrying upstairs and downstairs lauk pauk, dishes and cups non stop. Later after he died, I was always confused why the Raya doesn't feel like Raya. I guess its stop feeling like a festive Raya after my grandfather passed away.

Not to be super gloomy y'all. I just found myself on this year coming Raya, I kept on remembering Tok Mak and Tok Ayah.

Favorite moments:
1. Isi ketupat beramai2. I suck but I still like it. He like to asingkan ketupat yg org lain buat. Macam this batch Kak Lina yang buat. This batch Kintan. This batch moi. I personally thought then so that people wouldn't get confused on his superior ketupat compared to us lousy one. Heee. Bile dah makan ade aje komen.." Ini lembik semacam ni.. haa ni mesti Lina nye..", "Ketupat Watie ni macam batu..."

2. Membawa cucu2 and whomever yang jua masih kanak2 beraya di rumah2 rakannye as so we can collect even more duit raya.

3. Have to beratur in a straight line to salam2 and receive our duit raya. Selagi tak cukup forum, cannot receive those green packets from him.

(kenapakah.. banyak favorit moments time dapat duit raya ni. LOL..)


Cringing moments:
1. Dipaksa berkaraoke semasa pegi beraya setelah dibawa oleh Tok Ayah . The things we do...... Probably this is why I have such deep, unhealthy, revulsion towards karaoke?

(Ok.. I don't have many cringing moments ok since I like to repress memory. This memory however can't be repressed due to my mother glee in bringing it up ...)

So peeps, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Drive safe. Don't be a glutton. Kasik lah duit raya lebih sikit pada moi walaupon moi tiada anak lagi dan jua bukan kanak-kanak.

Sgt Malas

Gile malas. Sangat sejuk. And hey.. berblogging in BM.

Actually blogging in BM is more tedious for me, because if I blogged in BM I got a tendency to go for ayat2 skima dan sungguh panjang.. dan.. memerlukan penjelasan yg panjang.

Shallow girl. Takpe, try BM rojak-blog tanpa skima. Agak2 buleh?

Rase bloated sebab smalam makan dgn greedynye and minum pon banyak. Makan sup kesukaan.. sup campor yg ade perut. Whee!!! I likey perut! Nampak disgusting, tapi sungguh enak bila dikunyah. Then, in a attempt to clear out content of the fridge, kluarkan ayam Ayamas from last week and panaskan dan proceed to make sandwich of shredded chicken slathered with mustard and chillies sauce. Erk.. lapanyeeee bile menaip.

Semalam went to Jalan TAR with colleagues. Nothing to buy. Hanyaaa beli brooch saje stelah berjalan beberapa jam di tghhari panas!! Tapi malas nak beli baju raya, sebab ade banyak baju kurung yg tak pakai lagi atau pakai hanya sekali dan kain2 yang dulu2 beli kat Tampin dan orang bagi still lagi dalam plastik di hujung bilik. Tudung pon macam blergh.. Nothing interesting. Wanting to buy selendang, tiada yang tertarik dan menarik. Prolly will look at the Curve (lambat lagi la gamaknye) since nak selendang yg dark color untuk matching.. tah la, Ape2 la pon yang perlu dimatching. As for Kueh raya, dah banyak pon and our house actually prefers to server karipap or murtabak (depends on availability) bile ade guest.

Mintak cuti raya sehari sahje which is on Raya itself (yeah yeah.. orang kerja shift, so shut up those normal working hour people pasal knape raya susah dpt cuti ). Don't really mind since tumpang my sis. Her husband have to work until late pon, dan bertolak for JB probably on a very early morning itself. Sampai2 JB agaknya my mom tengah masak beriani. Nyum2.. ayam merah.

Gah.. I am obsess with food tatkala di bulan puasa ini. Sambung baca TWOP. Will blog again, promise, just not coherent post since dalam kepala hanya ada image foodies je!!!

Lydia Teh is being generous

Those who are in the knows of our local authors... well should know Lydia Teh. She's the one who recently wrote Honk! If you're Malaysian.

I have to be honest that I didn't read the book. I was reading the interview she gave earlier.. to NST or Star or.. tah.. and got tad bit envious that she are able to achieve a dream so many can't.. getting a book published, print and quite a lot of people buying it. Mine.. I am too poor. Haha.. Ok ok.. I have a tendency to read fantasy and children books and those books that I love to buy and lovingly add in my ever growing collection. I was eyeing her book and also those Adibah Amin installments and sighing my lack of money and my ever expanding list of book collections to be bought.

But this post is about the latest contest she is throwing!

So are you tight for money? Scrounging in the garbage can for food? Or are green with envy whenever you see someone picking up a book that you had been drooling for weeks (but can't afford) and seeing that person nonchalantly paying it at the cashier? Would you like to at least have a chance of getting either above?

Well, Lydia Teh is celebrating her 10,000 book sales (and from her post maybe more than that) by throwing in a contest of winning either MPH vouchers or McDonald vouchers. Since I am greedy and there is nothing to lose and I am eyeing those MPH vouchers and it is as she said, easy as ABC , I am joining and well.. those who are interested for a chance.. head to here : http://lydiateh.wordpress.com/2007/09/28/10k-contest/

Ciao.

p/s: My phone rusak. I am sad. Yeah people, I am currently not reachable.

Suite Francaise & A Case of Need

I had just finished reading the books listed on the left. ( Couldn't think of a better topic at the moment)

Suite Francaise and A Case of Need.

Takes a bit of a time to read Suite Francaise by Irene Nemirovsky. A bit depressing. No surprise there. It was suppose to be a 5 part novels but the authors only manage to finish it up to only 2 part (Storm in June & Dolce) before being deported to Auschwitz and died there later (reportedly of typhus).

It was an interesting read. It was not an autobiography such as Anne Frank written things on war such as hope and human characters. Its a novel. I could say... a novel about disillusionment of people or how people behave when in wars. I was always fascinated to read about World War II. That is truly a world war indeed.

The book is something like the author interpretation of what she sees around her. What is more interesting, was in reading the Appendix and Preface. The appendix showed us how the authors plot her stories and characters. In reading just the 2 parts, I don't completely understand how the first and the second part are related (excepting for few characters). But reading the appendix,seems that the author have a War and Peace aspirations toward this novel but unfortunately was unable to finish it. All the characters that had been introduced , would be interlocking in part 3 and onwards.

If it had been finished, it would had been a really marvelous novel. It is also poignant and a bit sad to read the letters being sent back and forth, of a man desperate in requesting help for his wife release (Irene Nemirovsky was arrested and deported). What is even more sad is the letter Irene husband, Michel.. sent " Could you please find out if it would be possible for me to be exchanged for my wife - I would perhaps be more useful in her place and she would be better off here. If this is impossible, maybe I could be taken to her - we would be better off together.." . Disregarding Jews, Christians, Nazi, Germans or anything... I am just taking into consideration of a man who is worried for her wife in time of wars and his willingness to sacrifice himself. And the answer his husband received is - several days or weeks later, the husband himself is brought to the concentration camp and sent to the gas chamber.

Also, I am interested to buy a book about a young girl life during the Japanese Occupation in Singapore (Forgot the title). The price however is too steep, at RM50 above. I wonder why books written by Asian and local authors are even more expensive? Bleed local readers to dry kah cause susah nk market elsewhere?

A Case of Need is Michael Crichton first book I believe.

Well, this is indeed his first book that I found not quite as gripping and riveting as his other's work. I'm rather glad that I read Jurassic Park first. Probably I'll rent The Great Train Robbery next. But it's just as detailed a work as you might expect from Michael Crichton books.

The book try to play about abortions and pro choice. The (moral) story focus more on pro choice and none of pro life. This is a bit of one sided, trying to tell stories from that P.O.V.

Ahh.. not so much to talk about that book I guess.

Signing out then.

Something to think about..

People are in an uproar regarding the death of the poor girl. I have nothing to say more.

Those who know me personally, know I have a lot to say regarding this topic since I do think education and protection and campaign on child safety is the utmost importance and a cause I believe in and would like to contribute to , but for this blog.. it would serve no purpose to add more soundbites.

Just let's not chalk this up as another tragedy and hope crimes on children can be lessened.

I also do hope that those who are foaming at the mouth regarding this, would not completely forget about this a week later and the next time they see a child alone, unsupervised, or in a potentially dangerous situation, to not just give casual remarks on their blogs as something to write about.

It feel ... weird to write a cheerful thoughts on the next paragraph considering the depravity and gravity of the past week discovery.

So I am just gonna end my post here.

Introducing..

Fall! Oncoming!

Oy. Why should I care? Malaysia weather condition is either raining, hazy or super hot.

There is 1 thing to look forward tho. Brand new series and the start of a new season. My computer is groaning under the weight of Prison Break (which start next week btw and which I don't watch anymore..), Ugly Betty, Shark, Grey's Anatomy, Friday Night Lights and Heroes. Not to mention... Medium, Supernatural and House which I had been collecting. And let's briefly remembered the newly deceased series which I loved, Veronica Mars and Gilmore Girls.

Just look at the list above. Isn't that just... amazing... On how much free time I have in my hands to watch them all. {slightly hysterical} Are you freakin kidding me? Free time? What free time? Do you know that I timed carefully in watching my series and try to squeeze in as many as possible even berus gigi pon sambil tgk series.

Ehem. Ok maybe not in that extreme.. but some people are amazed on how many actually I watch and still function like a human being. Which is probably why I only have a blank look to offer when anyone mentioned Manja Lara or whatever it is the latest Sandiwara offered at TV3.

Of course to torture myself more.. I finding myself anticipating in glee of these brand new spanking series.

Wait. I think I just had a revelation on my lack of friends state.

Gossip Girl



What's it about?

A once reigning queen bee (Serena) came back to her old school after mysteriously dropping out in favor to boarding school. She found her BFF (Blair) is the current queen bee whom now shun her. The cause of this.. most prolly is Blair's BF, Nate. Added to the storyline is a pair of siblings where the elder brother (Dan) have an eye for Serena and younger sis (Jenny) is on the verge in joining Blair very much desired popular inner circle. Furthermore, a gossip blog run by "Gossip Girl" an anonymous at the school (and widely read by her peers) provides juicy tidbits and revealing info regarding the who's who, adding fuel to the already bitter rivalries and seethiness of the girls.. and boys.

Why I want to watch this?

Riveting. Hah. Well.. this seems a little bit like OC + 90210. Heck.. who am I kidding. This seems like any other typical High School series but with an even more bitch factor and posh-ness added in. But Josh Schwartz should make this work and I would be interested if he would make this as great as the first season of OC and not make it a drag as it move along (Did anyone remember OC after Season 1?). The preview is great and Kirsten Bell providing the narrative voice (the Gossip Girl) would make me missing Veronica Mars even less; until she kicks ass in Heroes.

When it start previewing?
19th September.



Reaper



What's it about?

On his 21st birthday, Sam (a true and true slacker) found out the reason why his parent are incredibly lenient on his lifestyle, attitude, education. His parents had sold his soul to the devil. However instead of being send to fiery hell, the price is of him being the devil's lackey, which is by serving as a bounty hunter on hunting down the evils that had escaped from Hell. Not a bad gig for being the devil's lackey, considering his status.

Why?

Come. On. The above summary is enough reason to watch it. The preview is one of the funniest scene I'd ever seen for a TV series in recent time (or maybe I laugh easily.. but whatever). This series is featured in Comic Con and is the most anticipated for geeks and supernatural lovers freaks alike.

When it start previewing?
25th September.


Private Practice



What's it about?

Spinoff from Grey's. Addison Montgomery decided to change her life and join the private practice run by her friend and her ex husband in L.A. And I believe no further summary is needed on this much hyped show.

Why?

Kate Walsh. Really. I love her character in Grey's and is the sole reason I want to tune in. If this new series were an unknown and the summary goes like " a female doctor who can't seem to make relationship work, try to find new life in a private practice in L.A..." . ZzzZZzzZZz. I probably wouldn't give it a glance over. Ooohh.. and of course, Piz Chris Lowell (of VM fame) is kinda worth a glance over.

When it start previewing?
26th September


Women's Murder Club



What's it about?
4 women who's a homicide detective, M.E, journalist and assistant D.A , team together in helping each other in cracking the latest murder case that baffled them.

Why?

Those who's a fan of James Patterson books should know these series. I love the first installment of the series on the Honeymoon killing and the others following are kinda just OK. But the characters written especially on Detective Lindsay Boxer is such a strong character that I always find myself checking out the latest installments. That alone is reason for me to watch this. The preview is quite ok but a bit different from the book. That's understandable though. And of course... Women Empowerment! Yeay!

When its start previewing?
12th October


Cashmere Mafia



What's it about?
Described as Sex and the City meet Devil Wears Prada, its about the lives of 4 (mengapakah mesti 4....) women living a life as a high power executive juggling both careers and family and relationships.

Why?

Well.. I like Lucy Liu (one of the reason I watched the horrible Rise is because of her too). And I hope she will bring an essence of Ling into this character. Also, the creator is Darren Star who was the person who brought to us Sex and the City. So..duh.... of course I will watch this.

When its start previewing?
27th November.

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Fuh. That's the list.. only 5.. eh.. not bad. But actually there is a few more series that is on my tentatively wanted to watch list but have to draw a line somewhere or I would not have a life anymore or meet any other human in real time!

Those are

1. Bionic Woman (previewing 26th Sept. Those who loved the 70s series.. must be itching to watch this or plain will hate it.. totally your call)
2. Aliens in America (previewing 1st Oct. About an exchange student from Pakistan staying with a family in the US. Looks kinda fun.. but prolly will give it a miss)
3. Carpoolers (previewing 2nd Oct. A show I predict that dooms for an early axe, but the preview is.. kinda funny. A bit like a surburban car pooling chock full of men Cashmere Mafia)
4. Pushing Daisies (previewing 3rd Oct. About a man who can raise the dead with a single touch. Sounds kinda shady, but people are raving about it. Prolly will take a sneak peek. Who knows.. maybe I will end up lovin like FNL)
5. Samantha Who? (previewing 15th Oct. A woman who had an amnesia and starting to build her life from scratch. Starring Christina Applegate who I totally heart).
6. Updated 18/9 .Chuck (previewing 24th Sept. A spy who is 'menyamar' jd normal guy. Not of Mr & Mrs Smith type...)
   

Reviewing back, I found the above list can be categorized as Chick Flick. I'm a chicka. I see nothing wrong with that.

Let's see if these shows will deliver or get the axe, like last year Runaway which I have to admit is a total snooze midway.

Things get depressing

Where do I start?

Let me kick it up with the more important things in my life first and then we go on eh.. So everybody.. well basically most people in the workplace and my family are asking, what happened to the new job?

Frankly I am sick of talking it out anymore. I had just literally talk myself hoarse last week, explaining to my supervisors (including ex-previous), recapping it to interested colleagues and recapped the recapping to other interested parties. The whole goss is like this, got the offer from previous company, need to get some clarifications and some details that are needed to make the whole deal works from existing company (which I had persistently asked from several parties without any satisfactory answer), which then existing company totally ignore and even was insulted to own face. Therefore unable to give any definite answer to previous company offering job, initial great offer was reduce to just blergh OK offer which will set me back with serious debts, so had to tolak the offer and existing company still remaining dastardly tight-lipped.

Currently I am still having work related problems. But let's save it for another time when I got another resolution on. People are telling me that I must now am unhappy now with works with the way I had been treated. I say they are right since before this I was reasonably satisfied with said job, but now couldn't give a damn anymore and just working it through until the pesky terms that are contract can go away.That's that and life goes on and probably as the weary saying goes.."mungkin bukan rezeki.." End of topic.

Second. I am sick. Nothing life threatening ( I hope ), but I am walking around for the past few days in a slight fever-flu and headache pain haze which do not improve my overall mood. Making me only moodier.

My bank account is incredibly low.... and that alone do not warrant any explanation on how it would affect a woman heart, much less a woman who is about to be hit with Raya expenses. . Groans!

Other depressing news!! Yeay.. the world do not revolve around me.

I watched the disastrous Britney comeback... and it was as bad as everyone says. Everything was ludicrous, the getup, the dance moves, the hair.. It's like she is just walking around half drunk, hoping not to stumble, while lip synching mumbling. It was painful to watch, not because I am her fan. But because, knowing her peers looking on mouth agape watching a so called performance from a once boisterous hip thrusting pop star. No excuse of being a has been. Dancing with the Stars that are full of has beens had loads more energy from the 60 year old grandpa popping Latina moves than Britney that night. Sucks to be her at the moment.

You know.. I should not give a crap about Britney performance.. but really.. it is just fascinating to watch a trainwreck.

Argh headache... what other bad news , other worldly events?

Murders..earthquake..war..promises made that are bound to be broken due to election in somewhat nearing time.. yadda yadda.. yeah.. Same ol shit.

Gahh.. headachey..more. Oh yeah. I heard there will be a spin off series of Buffy from BBC (huh....... ) called Ripper. For those who is not acquainted with the Buffy-world, Giles the Watcher, played by Anthony Head who is btw British, in his much younger years was called Ripper. Obviously it would be a Watcher-centric plot for the series.

I am a little doubtful about all this. First of all.. BBC? No spinoff series can be made for the like of Mansfield Park, Pride and Prejudice kah? And... can he actually pull it off? I love British actors and actress.... but their series.. not as gripping. Well.. let's see if its actually true.

p/s: Headachey.. so obviously couldnt be bothered to spell check and grammars check.. so there will be more errors than usual.. Harhar..

Eh.. not funny.

another p/s: Oh yeah. Selamat Berpuasa and Ramadhan. All this post/msg/email going around mintak maaf and memaafi.. Fine. Whatever. Joining the club... I apologize for anything I did wrong.. (only) and I forgave you guys too ( some of you..)

Uninspiring Post

Bulan puasa and of course Raya is nearing. And unlike you guys.. I am not that thrilled on Raya. Maybe because the possibilities of getting a long holiday is null and money low. But at least there will be Soto. Eiii.. Soto. Cis.. puasa belom lagi.. dah pikir food untuk Raya. Tsk~

Anyway, I am feeling rather uninspired today. Maybe because with all the hoopla and delay with my company HR. Stoopiid. I couldn't be bothered to bother them today. I will storm in tomorrow. I hate unresolved issue. But I usually make it worse by procrastinating that unresolved issue. If it is a particularly bothersome and needs lengthy explanation and tedious work... I will prolong it even more. Not good. But hey.. I did try my sub par best and if the other party is also a procrastinator, its like a long drawn battle.

So.. I am bored.. And I do not feel like typing any original thoughts today. Since I rarely nowadays menjadi poser by posting in the Friendster bulletin boards the personality test/revealers/jokes (you know laa.. the one with.. What's your fav color? What's the last thing you? Do you kill kittens lately? type of questions that people post this up in bulletins thinking or hoping anyone is interested enough to glance over)

Therefore to hold my still few shreds of remaining integrity in Friendster and since not a whole lot of peeps read my blogs, I decided to post this up purely for own pleasure. Uninterested party can now discontinue reading and go back to read your girlfriend/boyfriend blog since I am about to shamelessly do this thingies.. Don't worry.. I am not tagging anyone either since this is not a freaking meme.

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Okay this is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS.. type what comes to your mind first whenever you hear these 50words. Don't think and don't go backand change. Doesn't matter how random
just type it! Repost it for all of your friends.

1. Beer: Green.

2. Food: Piping hot!

3. Relationships: Disastrous

4. Your crush : Freeze

5. Power Rangers: Blue and Pink

6. Life: As we know it

9. The President: of the United States

10. Yummy: Mummy

11. Cars: Pixar

12. Movie: Feel good

13. Halloween: Ski mask anyone?

14. Sex: Education

15. Religion: Tolerance

16. Friendster: Sucks

17. Fear: Marriage

18. Marriage: Fear

19. Blondes: Vapid

20. slippers: Flip flop

21. shoes: Mary Jane

22. Asians: Slant eyed and dark skins

23. Pass time: Football! Friday Night Lights..

24. One night stands: Dreamland

25: Cell Phone: Nuisance

27: Smoke: Poof!

28: FANTASY: A reality

29: COLLEGE: Fun, fun and fun.

30: Highschool : Dorky time

31. Pajamas: Cute Flower Prints

32. stars: Are Blinds

33. Fitness Center: Sweaty Men = Smelly

34. Alcohol: Level ph7

37. Money: Necessary

38. Heartache: Sodding stupid....%&*%^&

39. Time: Diamond studded watch

40. Divorce: Finality

41. Dogs: Lolling red wet tongue

42. UndiES: Fancy

43. mom: weathered but can whip a mean meal

44. Babies: A cute bundle of potentialities.

45. Stripper: Pose. Leg High. Chest Jutted forward, back bends.

46. Blogs: V.g

48. Weddings: White

49. Pizza: Pepperoni

50. Kleenex : Tisu lah..

p/s: Not a blogthings.. tp alangkah malas nk cipta 1 lagi labels..for basically the same thing

50th Merdeka. How middle age...

Well.. its the 31st of August. Midnight I'm working yet again. Sounds familiar... yeah.. that's me. Workaholic. Gah! Sangat!

Before this I joined in Vincent's various Kemerdekaan campaigns. This year, he couldn't be bothered, nor can I.

My previous posts regarding Malaysia, were always positive. I cringed hearing the negative thus I couldn't bear to write it down. I hate the thoughts that my beloved country is so full of flaw and our countrymen are sometimes foolish.

I don't know if its a part of growing up or does current generations are so inclined to blame everything but themselves. Looking around, I saw lackadaisical attitudes of our people, the blatant corruptness on our politicians part in managing our country, the disparaging remarks hurled from one races to another and wonder if by growing up meant we only saw the ugly side of society. So I try to push those thoughts away.. thinking our country is not bad.

But really... I love reading other peoples blog and world news. People from all around the world thoughts. The thing is.. we are never satisfied. Americans are struggling on their internal struggle regarding war, immigrants, terrorism, economy. Japanese are struggling on their freedom of speech, changes, opening up to global economy.. and so does China. Indians are struggling regarding education, poverty, corruptness. British and Americans are looking a way in reigning immigrants and the so called alliances with the US, and thus their people conflicts on what is right and what is theirs. And let's not even start on other war torn, poverty or disaster ridden country.

I'm not going to act like I know the state of the worlds and their citizens. I don't. The above is only my opinion in reading the lines and between the lines of the news. It maybe completely wrong.. but that is what I think. What I want to point out is... all of us have our demons.

It's not that its not OK to say we hate our countries. But let's not think that others are better. Comparison is good. But being one dimensional and just hating what is ours is not. They might think we are better. We might think we are better or the worst. The thing is just always to improve. It grates me to hear people complain when I see them as not doing much in improving anything anyway.

When we said our governments doesn't really care when we complaint. Did we do anything more? The way I see it. We get angry about corruptions, but we still rather pay the polis "duit kopi". Our governments body and local company does not know the meaning of maintenance. But we couldn't be bothered to clean the area outside of your house or apartments, saying its not 'territory' anyway. There is such great fuss regarding freedom of speech, but any stupid remarks from ignorant people were made, we issued death threat to them.

Let's not think that I held our governments in high esteem. There are times, when I think changes are needed to be made from the bottom, from the lowly people like me. Yet sometimes, when our politicians or minister embarrassed us to the core, I think absolute cleansing of the top tier is needed.

What's funny now is.. I can't make a summary of my post. I can't even think about solutions, improvements or anything to tie up this post nicely. So here end my somewhat pathetic attempts in blogging about serious issues.

Oh yeah. Happy 50th Malaysia. Hope that even if the big ass humongous demons can't be tackled, we somewhat solved our mini demons before reaching our 100th.

Decision

I am still thinking. Time is running out..

Goriness & Cheesiness

Am definitely a cinema go-ers movie freak.

Last week, I watched 2 movies. One was Rise: Blood Hunter and the other Ratatouille.

I am forever captivated by B grade (and some C) movies. There is just something on horrors B movie that make it fun to watch. Remembered Critters? Gremlins? The Blob? The Thing? Oh.. the glory of those movies are vast forgotten by those who thinks they are so great to deem only watching Oscar nominated movies. Hihihi... I sound so superficial. Whatever. I love watching Oscar nominated movies too.. but boy. They sure are depressing.


Anyway as for Rise, as far as bad movies goes. It is bad. Enough said. I don't know if its the acting. I had watched far worse acting in blockbuster movies, and this are not that bad. But I think it is maybe the script. Have a sense of humour la (Slap scriptwriter senseless with their own scripts). I am finding myself incredibly bored and yet truly captivated with all the gore.

Is the movie a complete gore fest for you gore lovers out there? Hurmph.. I am not a gore lover, so can't really opine (just pull this word out of my head so , shut up). However am sure glad that I didn't buy any drinks or popcorns. Scene where Lucy Liu gnawing at an old man's arm... yeuch! Oh.. and there's a lot of topless scenes flitting in and out of the screen. I guess they just give up altogether in trying to censor all those boobs.

But I like on how they portrayed the vampires in these movies. Oh.. Synopsis?

Taken from IMDB
"Supernatural thriller in which a female reporter wakes up in a morgue to find herself a member of the undead. She vows revenge against the sect that put her there and hunts them down."

Like most zombies movie, no one ever said the word vampires in this movie. These creatures (as fondly called by some) are not afraid of the cross, garlic, sunlight, do not have supernatural strength and do not have fangs. Thus the way of killings are human-like. I like seeing these variations from the usual vampire movies. Apart from that.. its a yawner. The ending leaves room for a sequel, but judging by how many people are actually in the cinema theatre (5 including moi), I won't hold my breath for one.


As for Ratatouille. Do I even need to post a synopsis?

And duh.. of course it's a fun, fun watch. Makes me want to be in Paris and be intrigued on how Ratatouille taste like. I also do agree with everybody else that it is not necessary to have an all A list stars to voice out characters in animated films for it to be a success. I likey it very much. And I am too tired to type more except..

Brad Bird is the man!

Oh.. and rats is still not adorable even though I do love Remy. Maybe it is because of the absent of any baby rats around? Yeuch.. small, reddish, squirmy, non fur lil rats.

Bersambung esoklah..

Incoherent Rant

This is a good old fashioned rant. So to hell with all english, bm yg molek dan tah hape2.

Damn it la. Apekah bodoh.. apekah sialnye.. apekah sungguh cilakernye.. apekah apekah apekah.

Aku rase dalam sebulan mesti 3 MC ko amik. Harap badan je besa. Takkan antibodi lemah macam budak ingusan yang baru lps baik ciken pox.

Ape ko ingat kite org suke ganti ko? Ape ko ingat ko ni spesel sgt sampai sume org sronok je la nk ikut kehendak ko? Ko taw tak aku keje lebey masa ni... sebab ko la ni. Aku dh la weng, mengantuk, rase macam nk pukul ko. Kena stay la kat opis sampai tgh malam. Pastuh bukannye aku dapat OT pon. Memang ikut suke kepala aku, balik je la kan. Tapi kalo ape2 hal, yang kena bukan ko kan. Semestinye la kan. Mesti sume org jugak yg kena sound. Cam sial. Damnit la. Sume ni.. salah sape. No need to answer .. already know la kan.

I swear to God. If you are in front of me right now, not only a piece of my mind la kan.. memang dah resort to physical violence.

Pastuh.. pastuh pastuh... kalo datang keje .. and actually doing the work takpe jugak.
But noooooo... buat mana yang perlu je. Esok tu.. keje yang lebey2 sume nye lambakkan kat kite. Datang dah la lambat. Balik nak awal plak. Eiiii.. tak sdar diri ke.. Eii Eiii Eii..

Then then.. kalo org lain MC. Taknak plak ganti.. Ooooo ko igt ko besa. Ok fine. Ko mmg besa. Tapi kalo org lain nk cuti.. mesti ade aje la alasan ko.. sakit la.. sembahyang nenek ko la... (dh 2 kali dh sembahyang nenek ko..) . Then.. ade pnah ko offer nak ganti kite org yang keje bagai nak rak ganti org tgh cuti? Shit-0. Aku nk kira brape kali ko MC skang ni.

Sobs sobs.. Nak balik~~~

p/s: Kalo aku taw ko suke2 MC mmg siap la.

Testing Something

This blog maybe under construction.

I want to change something small, but coding sucks. And I sucks at coding. So it can take a while.

So in the mean time you may see the template change to a basic one and praps after a while nothing will changed if I am dissatisfy.

Update:

Malas laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Pastuh sejuk plak tuh. Pastuh byk keje. Laters kut I will changed it. Yawn....

Suffer the little children

A group of kids hanging around a particularly shady trees. One boy wearing khakis short and a print shirt was heard..

" Eiii.. Aku tak suke la die ni. Kalau die gemok... aku boleh la ejek die gemuk,"

"Mane boleh ejek die gemok. Die tak gemok.." A girl in polka dot dress is addressing him on being politically correct.

" Hah! Takper! Jom kite pikirkan ape yang kite boleh ejek die..",the boy was pointing to a dejected small looking girl in floral dress.

The girl in a polka dot dress seems fiercely protective of the little girl and put her arms around the little girl shoulder. " Tak baik taw ejek die. Die kecik lagi... die bukan tau ape pon."

Rolling sounds of thunder seems to drown the voices of the kids. The next thing that was heard is an indistinguishable voices of the group of kids but the unmistakable tone of jeering and taunting that was hurled to the poor little girl. A group of kids is now pointing and laughing around the small girl and the polka dot girl, seems to flung back her head standing beside her. The small girl burst into tears.

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Kids are often depicted as ones who is without prejudiced, hatred or sins.
Herm.... maybe so, maybe so... but try to look back really hard. In our youthful stupidity, we are often cruel.

p/s: Eh.. macam pernah guna la title entry ni sblom ni for previous long ago post. Lantak la

I have no self esteem

Right. Reading Effi's blog , I am a bit bleak myself. The weather is not helping too ok. Totally get why he's feeling left out.

There's nothing to talk about. Its the Merdeka month. But I couldn't be bothered. Yet another day that I will be working. While others youth are wasted, beers spilling from their glasses and yelling "Merdeka!", you can bet your life on it that I will be in front of this computer, contributing to the national well-being of Malaysia's economy. So that's me being patriotic and shut up about Merdeka and patriotism.

It comes to a point.. when I shopped for any new clothes or makeup ... I am thinking..what's the point. I rarely go out to meet my friends. Most of them are too busy and of course working on shifts where usually I need to work on Saturday and Sunday had now made me to be a very lonely hermit. My friends from work usually hang out in a faraway place where I couldn't be bothered to drag my ass out there.

Hurmph. Okay. So this a bleak post. Just feeling out of place cause I am decked out so nice with nowhere to go. And I had stepped on some unidentifiable poo. No worries. I do not smelt of poo anymore. My beloved torturous kasut had been washed vigorously with some industrial office liquid soap.

Hey.. macam nak mee rebus Pak Wahid lor. Sobs~ lovely hot piping mee rebus with 2 telor rebus served in the old-type mangkuk-pinggan kaca you only normally see at kampung home. Wanted to go back to JB, but then I thought.. what am I gonna do over there. Only my mom at home, but she is so busy with her rakan masjid nowadays and out most of the time. My cousins are forced-workaholics. My brothers... Perlu ke count them in ?

Takkan tetiba out of the blue nak tepon so called strangers. Hurmph.. okay my used to be good friends. It well maybe strangers since whenever I am with them, I don't understand whatever it is they talk about. Talk about out of place. Ape orang cakap? Macam rusa di kandang kuda? (damn.. I am always bad at Malay peribahasa anyway)

Sometimes I feel like starting somewhere with a clean slate. Tapi kan.. all people already have their history and clique. And I am not interesting enough to be immediately admitted to one clique with open arms.

So.. I love thee my computer. You don't make me feel like a freak.

WoooWoooo.. luar is bleak too

Hana Kimi Crazed

Warning: This post would only be truly understood for those who have a love for Jdo or manga or cute underage Japanese actors.

Serias is now sooo discovering the wonder of Jdo. Hehe. Come and join the love.


I am very very much in love with the series Hanazakari No Kimitachi e (Hana Kimi for short). Soooo funny. Okay.. granted Japanese actors are not that devilishly handsome save for Joe Odagiri and Fujiki Naohito. Ken Watanabe can also save me anytime. But there is something so freakishly kawaii with these pretty guys like Matsumoto Jun, Yamapi, Oguri Shun... (mostly came from Johnny entertainment..) that they can make me double up in laughter and thinks of flowers and butterflies everytime they came on the scene.

So anyhow.. I am always, always rooting for the sidekick or the secondary hero. Like when watching Hana Yori Dango. I know of course that Tsukasa would be with Tsukushi. But it is infuriating for me to know that she won't pick Rui. (Those who watched the series or read the Manga would of course totally understand.. Those who don't, there's a thing called wiki if you want to know more. Utilize it).

The same goes for Hana Kimi. I am so rooting for Nakatsu.. when I know (since I am reading the manga) that Mizuki only have eyes for Sano. Watching the series, I thought the guy who played Nakatsu, incredibly familiar. Looking back, he is the one who played Junpei in HYD2. At that time, I was incredulous when people are talking on how hot he is. Watching him in Hana Kimi, I totally keel over for his portrayal for Nakatsu. Since he is soooo funny. How can you not love a guy who pranced around in women's underwear proclaiming he is not homo and like women. Err.. no one?

Well.. hope it won't turn out to be a drag as the one in HYD2.

Speaking of manga too. I had just finished reading Basilisk. Gaaaahhhh! I like the movie more (Shinobi). Ehem.. spoiler ahead those who didn't read it. It could not possibly be true that after all those reading (okay.. ade 5 volume je... tapi penat jugak laa) and those fighting it turned out that alll those characters die.

Argh. I hate stories that try to have a Romeo & Juliet ending at the end. I don't care if its realistic or not. I like happily ever after. Damnit. Stories are suppose to make me happy. Or at least some characters living life as remorsefully as they possibly can. Yeah.. knowing others who are miserable lift me up.

Oh.. On the left side of the blog for the Jdo currently watching. Ermm.. I am still currently watching all of those. Yeps. I'm a slow Jdo series watcher. Lunch Queen... which had been taken out from my list, I still haven't finish watching it. It took me .... more than a year to watch those. Gahh.. Well.. the storylines dragged a little too. And the sight of hot piping food makes me ravenously hungry. That Lunch Queen had a lot of em in their episodes.

Sore wa Totsuzen are interesting enough. Since I loved Makiko Esumi and Yamapi. But SARS are taking their own sweet time in releasing the subs tho. Don't really mind. I can wait.

HYD2. I still haven't finish downloading nor watching it. I will download it and watch it simply to see on how they would played out the ending. Will it end the same as the manga.. (Now don't tell me.. I want to know myself).

Erai Tokoro ni Totsuide Shimatta is fun. A more grownup-way fun in showing how a new wife adapt to her husband family and their old fashioned tradition. Of course I love Nakama Yukie. My fiance bought the DVD set for me so I had stopped downloading it . Guess I'll wait to finish the DVD when I got back to JB and have nothing to do.

The thing is... I simply.. don't have the time. Trying to juggle watching all those series, Jdos. movies, reading books, reading others blogs, playing games and of course works and other life demands.. So many things so little time. I am a person of many interest. People are amazed on how many series I downloaded. I still haven't finished Prison Break season 1, but I had downloaded the complete Season 2. Gah... maybe I am just addicted to downloading series. And I still wished I have the time and the energy to start watching How I Met Your Mother and Brothers & Sisters. But I have to draw the line somewhere eh..

Well.. I am off to immerse myself in reading Hana Kimi manga. While working. Hehe...

Questions and bafflement

Thanks to Jannah for introducing me.. I just bought the book Stardust by Neil Gaiman from Kino. But unlike her.. I don't want to pay yet a lot for this author's work. So I bought a quite cheap paperback version. Seeing its cheap.. why not eh. Lemme see if I could get myself hook too. So more thoughts on the book later... after like I had read it. Haha.. Or seen the movie.

Speaking of movie. I just got back from seeing the movie The Invisible.

I seen the trailer. And I like the trailer. And.. I think I like just the trailer. That's all there is to it. What's more.. the trailer kinda spoil the movie. I can just comfortably tell you the whole story since everything happens, the surprises, the whole thing were compacted to the trailer.Dang trailer! Lulling us to believe that there is more to this story..a lots more to be told..

The movie is about this guy Nick who is a bit dark and like writing poem, wanting to become a writer (ain't we all..). He had a run in with this girl, who is like really bad news. Long story short, she kinda killed him and dump his body somewhere on the woods. His spirit or whatever.. roaming around the place watching other people trying to find him. But the twist here.. (it should had been a twist if the trailer hadn't become a spoiler),is that he's actually not really dead; just at the brink of death. And he found out.. only that girl.. that girl who nearly killed him is the only one who can hear him and so he have to haunt her to let her know that he is still alive and please please save his sorry ass.

So that's the story. And not a minute when I watched would I believe that he won't survive this ordeal.

I read a review last week stating that this movie would be ok if the script wouldn't try to inject some character development in it. I hate to agree with any reviewer, but I do agree with whatever his/her opinion. But I don't agree that they should completely forget about character development, but flesh it out a little and tells us what the hell's is wrong with all these characters and what's make em tick and do things. When the credits rolled after the last scene.. my head popped a "Huh?"

Its like the scriptwriter have this brilliant idea.The he proposed the idea to whoever would agree to make this movie. Then after writing in all the characters traits and introduction, its as if he was tired and just completely forgot about them. I don't know what's actually gone wrong with this scriptwriter life at the moment he was writing this movie, but it just feel like the story have a long beginning and a rash ending.

All in all, its not really bad. The acting was not bad. Justin Chatwin (the lead role, Nick) is cute and showed some depth in showing Nick. The actress... I'm not too sure. Kinda one dimensional. One angry chick, and suddenly become this chick wracking with guilt. Looks like a young Amy Brenneman. The soundtrack is great though. I'll be listening back on the songs to see if its .. my type.

of Potteria and that tiny little blonde

Yawn. You know. I should count on how many posts I started with Yawn. A lot. Maybe I don't need to count.

If anyone notice (which I think none), I usually blogged when I am bored, or sluggish or I felt obligated when seeing the dates on the latest entry did not change. The thing is ,sometimes when I'm walking, soaking in the surrounding environment or squashed in the LRT or driving and cursing the stupid drivers who is trying to ram you down since they don't use their obviously useless signal lights and sideview mirrors...and in my head, I then would have spew about 2 pages of blog posts all ready to be transformed to verbs, nouns, grammars and functional sentences.

Then when I plopped myself in front of the computer, all I have the energy to do is click around unenergetically reading on the drama inducing lives which are Britney Spears and Lindsay Lohan. See my problem here? My muse is probably one lazy bugger. Okay muse, I am kicking your arse to give me something to ramble about.

So the hoopla which is Harry Potter still continues. No.. I'm not gonna discuss about the books, for those who do, well... let's start it going on. Haha. Ehem. MPH, (Opps.. Borders was actually selling.. my mistake, someone told me that Saturday that Borders ain't selling), and the other 3 bookstores, ONLY NOW decide to sell it. Duh much?

Also it irritated me a bit that people around kept on bashing Harry Potter and his fans. Yeah, yeah... you are such a literary genius who only reads NY Times best critic lauded books.. yada yada. Shut up about it and leaves us to our phenomenon. My argument, this is one of the books that have the best dialogue ever amongst characters and of course children books had always been a favorite genre of mine. Hehe.. rant a lil bit. But its fine whatever people wants to put on their blog or thought about the book or the author.. (I don't think Dan Brown or Candice Bergen or Sidney Sheldon is that great of a writer too, but may I add and say I think Michael Crichton can all kick these writers ass). But the assumptions that Potter fans are a stupid lot (well to be fair.....some actually are based on how they are behaving.. but I am ranting on those who are over generalizing) and just like it because its the in thing... well.. that rattled me a bit. Ehem. So end my tiny rant here.

Okay... sooo I finally, finally, finally finished watching all of Buffy the Vampire Slayer episodes. Woohooo and Phew! . The DvDs I bought before was actually lacking in half of the Season 2 episodes. Disgrace! Season 2 is great... because Angel is baad! So, fortunately when I went back to JB few weeks back I found a shop that have only Season 2 of Buffy. Bought and bag it. So I finished the remaining Season 2 episodes I didn't manage to watch before

It takes me a year to finish. It should take me less than that actually, but the last 3 season is dark and depressing. So it takes a bit of time to go through that. I actually had to alternate Sex and the City and Buffy a bit. But I am currently at... nah. I don't know which season of Sex and the City I'm watching now. Since sometimes I do found SaTC a bit crude, and for the antidote for such crudeness, I then changed my taste to savour the manly goodness that is known as Jensen Ackles by watching Supernatural.

Summary of Buffy. The best of Buffy is definitely the first four seasons. The last three, maybe because Michelle Trachtenberg is in it and she is such a brat, that it does kinda dragged a little. The only time I'm loving it is during the musical episode (that was one of the best Buffy eps) and when Buffy and Spike together. I am a Buffy and Spike shippers so just shut up about Angel. I do like Angel when he is with Cordelia. (Now I sound like some hormonal teen-craze Joss Whedon fans)

With no more Buffy to watch and Angel series just itching to be watched, I'd been contemplating if I should order the Buffy comics; Season 8 (so called), The Long Way Home Issue 1 - 4 (I believe the Issue 5 had also now been published, but different title), since I can't find it in Malaysia or Singapore. Those who do know if it is available somewhere in Malaysia, do tell.

Hah. I am rambling. Okay, to quote evil Willow.. "Bored now."... actually more like "Major headache now" thus forced me to quote a once my favorite deejay radio in Singapore "I'm ghost."

I got the book

Yeay... I had bought the final installment of Harry Potter. It is now sitting beside me at my workstation gleaming, tantalizing... I can smell the papers from here. Oh... the ecstasy!

MPH, Borders, Times and Popular ain't selling. I was going to buy it at MPH at first since it is on my way to work and I want to get the RM10 voucher (I didn't pre booked since I was flat broke for 2 months). But then, with the protest against Carrefour and Tesco for selling the book at a very, very, low price at RM69.90 had then forced me to buy at Carrefour.

I meant of course I think its kinda not fair of em to sell at RM69.90, and if MPH chose to sell the books, I would had bought it from MPH, since I kinda weird like that. But the next nearest available point for me to buy is at Carrefour. And between the choice of no book and a book to read before everyone inundated me with spoilers, I bought the book at Carrefour. (And yes.. the miserly part of me, is kinda happy that I bought it at a very cheap price).

I had only started a few pages, since I freaking have to work today, but the sight of it soothes me and my lips keep on quirking to turn into a smile. Now... not anyone nor anything can make me feel like that eh..

Happy reading y'all. I won't inundated you guys with spoilers this time nor you guys should inundated to anyone else who had not read it. I promise..


Update:
I finished it! I surprised myself on how quickly I finished it. Is this the longest book? I don't think it takes me that less of a time.

How was it? Nah... I won't review it this time. But I can't wait for it to be make to a movie. And really.... you really need to refresh your memory again by reading the Half Blood Prince. Damn. I am now itching to read the Half Blood Prince again. My brother kidnapped it to ITM. Penat cari high and low, rupanye kat my brother who before this never read any book. LOL.

I am now brooding.. cause there's no more Harry Potter tales to come.

p/s: gile malas nk buat new post, since I won't review or talk or discuss about it... so I know I don't have much to say.

p/s 2: I am REALLY disappointed in HP and HP and the Order of Phoenix movie, that they didn't put the scene of the lots goin to St Mungo's. The scene where Harry, Ron, Hermione found Neville's family and his awkwardness in meeting them is one of my favoritest (is there such a word.. ) and nearly brought me to tears everytime I read it. High pity, they didn't manage to squeeze it in.

Not the best of the movie franchise, but watching Imelda Staunton is joy indeed. And I have to some of the scenes are marvellous and well acted.

Lovin Neville to bits!

A tale acoming to rest

Imagine.

Bookshops everywhere around the world have hundreds or thousands of Harry Potter Deathly Hallows now ready stocked in their lil store rooms or warehouses. All shiny and glossy and smell of those crisp new paper-books.

By midnight, these books would be carefully put for display and on the various shelves and tables lining up especially for them.

Those who await, gleefully waiting in wanting to read and burrow themselves in this concluding chapter.

Before this, I am not so mad nor half wild to get the book as soon as possible in my hand.

But today, I can't wait for tomorrow.

Tok Mak

Tok Mak was what we called our only grandmother. Was is the word.

She passed away last Saturday on the 14th of July 2007. Around subuh. I only got back from JB yesterday.

It saddened me that we are not there to see her for the last time before she died. But I am glad anyway that I felt the urgency to go back to Johor Bahru last week and saw her for the last time. I knew she wanted to see the engagement pics so bad and I'm thankful that I came before it is too late.

It surprised me to see her so frail and thin when I saw her last time and even more so during her death. But it's great to know that she still manage to grab a bite of her favorite food.. goreng pisang, before she became too ill to down any solids.

What is to become of her old home I wonder? From what is being discussed by the elders, it is more sensible to sell it since the upkeep of an old house is getting too expensive. Sighing, the insensible part of me wishing it would not be let go, but it would be too depressing to see it go to ruins.

It is sad that she can't be there during my wedding day. I know how wedding preparations and gathering makes her happy. To see all the clans brought together.

Sigh.. Al Fatihah