Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Just some update. Nothing much

Feels like rambling abit. Kesian this blog is hidup segan mati tak mahu. With Twitter, IG and FB where 'micro blogging' is easier, trying to typed out few paragraphs is like a major efforts. But I should write more.

Day to day.
I feel like meh. I was typing the previous words and got distracted by cat videos. That is my life now. With the occasional giving foods to my kids.

And I started this about a week ago and havent yet finish. Like what!

Anyway I really should not have any reason to procrastinate. I have a helper around the house. She came in from 8 and goes back at 5 or 6. So I don't have to clean or mop and somebody is around to look after the kids during the afternoon which let me have a lying in session with the baby. I want to say nap, but like I said before. I don't sleep during the daytime unless very very tired or sick.

Then start from 6pm things get a little hectic. Feed the kids and wash the dishes. Easy on paper, but sometimes the baby refuse to cooperate. Used to be he will be asleep, but nowadays the littlest one would throw the most tantrumest tantrum from 6.30pm til 8pm. I think I am slightly losing weight due to his particular hour only.

After the kids are all asleep then I have 1 hour to myself. Ah yes. I don't think so I can cope with the housework if I am working, but who knows. Many had make it worked, and if people ask like before how I can cope with 3 kids, you will find a way lah to make it work. It is not like I can give the kids away. D'oh.

I honestly have no ideas what to type more. Eh I will get back to it lah. Also am planning for a holiday in Penang soon. Yeay!

Monday, July 24, 2017

Big Little Lies

Have you watched the series? It was magnificent. Anyway I feel like I am gonna do away doing reviews in this blog because I feel like I have to ramble long and it is a bother to find image and synopsis. I am lazy. However maybe some exceptional books I will make an exception.

And since I feel like I wanna talk about Big Little Lies both the series and book, so there it is.

Also now Emmy nominated series.

The synopsis of the book which almost the same can be described of the series:

Big Little Lies follows three women, each at a crossroads (taken from Goodreads below):

Madeline is a force to be reckoned with. She’s funny and biting, passionate, she remembers everything and forgives no one. Her ex-husband and his yogi new wife have moved into her beloved beachside community, and their daughter is in the same kindergarten class as Madeline’s youngest (how is this possible?). And to top it all off, Madeline’s teenage daughter seems to be choosing Madeline’s ex-husband over her. (How. Is. This. Possible?) 
Celeste is the kind of beautiful woman who makes the world stop and stare. While she may seem a bit flustered at times, who wouldn’t be, with those rambunctious twin boys? Now that the boys are starting school, Celeste and her husband look set to become the king and queen of the school parent body. But royalty often comes at a price, and Celeste is grappling with how much more she is willing to pay. 
New to town, single mom Jane is so young that another mother mistakes her for the nanny. Jane is sad beyond her years and harbors secret doubts about her son. But why? While Madeline and Celeste soon take Jane under their wing, none of them realizes how the arrival of Jane and her inscrutable little boy will affect them all.

I will say of the series because I watched it first before deciding to read the book, the series was incredibly scripted and nuanced.

Madeline played by Reese Witherspoon is a fiery little thing and whose embodiment of Madeline is maddeningly incredible and feisty and funny. Celeste is played by perfection by Nicole Kidman. Nicole Kidman can always play frail but strong minded woman hiding a secret. There can be no other actress can do Celeste justice. She can play layers beautifully. And Shailene Woodley whom I was not a fan of, certainly hold her own against the 2 leading lady.

Every actor and actress even the children are cast perfectly. And the visual is mesmerizing. Who doesn't want to live there. The music of the series , I played constantly on my Spotify. You should look it up. It is a gem.

The series pacing is well thought of. It builds the suspense and momentum and up the tension week by week. The only complain people have of it, is it is a story of "white people problem".

But when we takes away the privilege and the settings, a story of domestic abuse and sexual assault is never simple. It is everywhere. And that one scene between Celeste and her therapist was ... groundbreaking. It breaks my wall of thinking on why does women find it so hard to point finger to a domestic abuser.

As for the book, I can see why Reese Witherspoon picked it up to be made as a series. It was well written, well thought out of. However I have to say the series far surpassed the book, in term of nuances and direction of the story.

In the book it is more direct, more enlightening but if you compared it to the series, you will find the series have the creative edge more and of course a play on visual and music can set the mood. The director Jean Marc-Vallee takes on how he played out the character and the settings is incredible. Almost genius. You can see a lot of thought are being put in each scen. But the book does provide a wee bit explanation. Madeline story is given more to do in the series than in the books, but neither story is better than the other. The book is a bit forgettable I have to say, rather than the louder voice of Jane can be heard in the book. And also the detective and reporter makes more sense in the book.

Other than that, it was great. Both in the series and the book the gossip account given by the people living the area is abit unnecessary. It does not bring out anything. Maybe it does set it apart from other story, but if it is taken out altogether, will not be missed.

My summary. Watch the series, you can forget the book. However the book does provide a quicker insight into the character and it is quite enjoyable.

Friday, July 07, 2017

Selamat Hari Raya

I am still berpantang guys. Tapi mcm tak pantang. 

We celebrated Raya at JB this year cause I baru bersalin kan. Tak boleh makan sambal sotong di pagi raya is stressing me out gais. Dan kena tolak lemang Rembau. Stresss! Takpe. My pantang habes in 2 weeks pastu I nak beli lemang satu.

First gambar raya of all family members.

My husband decided on pink, and shockingly I don't have any baju kurung pink. I bought a jubah, tapi ketat. kahkah. I must learn my lesson and not to buy jubah online. Susah gile nak measure. 

Anyway raya I celebrated ok la, cuma ade few mende je tak makan. Pergi gak rumah sedara, sedara yg I close. Siap ke Kluang lagi. The baby during the stay at JB was ok. Ada time2 fussy. Mostly ok je. He loves sleeping tetengah ruang tamu. He can sleep there amidst all the chaos and noise. 

Anyway. I kept on getting interrupted while doing this short post so I am gonna end now. Will write more about baby later. 

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

3rd boy born

Alhamdulillah selamat lahirkan my 3rd boy. 

So on the 5th of June checked myself into PCMC around 10pm. My surgery is scheduled for 7 am the next day. We put Saif at my sister and Aziz and his father stay with me. 

Since it is confirmed that I am undergoing c-section, not much hassle and bother. CTG machine was only put on me once at 11pm and another at 5 am the next day, to make sure I do not have any contractions. Malam tu boleh pulak la aku sakit kepala and berak2, but not too bad. 

So by 7 am dah kena tolak to dewan bedah. Not sure if I mentioned it before, but my gynae for this pregnancy is Datuk Dr Aziz. And I am glad for this pregnancy amik die because he is excellent. But I am getting ahead of myself. Anyway, husband cannot come into dewan bedah because Aziz is with him. So it is just me. 

The last 2 full pregnancy, I had been put into epidural. This time, they gave me a spinal tap, so it was given dekat OT. And boy was my head spinning, manage to puke myself. Ahhh... I always puke during surgery. Confirmed dah ni. 

Anyway it didn't take long at all. I think we started around 7.19 am and then by 7.53 baby dah keluar. Kali ni I don't feel drowsy. More curious at what's going on. Can hear when they slice my stomach and smells something like burning flesh jugak. Horrifying. I am glad I can't see. 

When they finally pulled out the baby, I can hear immediately his gurgling cries. He won't stop crying and when they cleared out the liquid , lagi lah bergema OT dengan nangis die. Even the anesthetist remarked "Semangatnye yang ni " . 

After that it was pretty standard, stitched me up, baby taken to nursery, then post recovery. Last time I was in post recovery, I just got a blanket, and I was shivering so bad, right until several hours after c-section. This time I think ade new procedure, so they put some kind of hot air blower in between the blanket, and my shivering subside and no shivers after they wheeled in me in my room! Yeay! 

The baby is wheeled after 2 3 hours. Sedap tido gamaknye dalam nursery. He had problem latching on the first day but afterwards drink like a little trooper. 

Oh the baby? 

Fresh from oven gitu. Gambar amik sendiri sebab still stuck onto bed. He looked so much like Aziz that when the paeds first shown me the baby, I immediately said "sebijik aziz". 

Anyway, I stay at the hospital until Friday. This time post op recovery is kinda great. By the 2nd day can get out of bed and out of the urine tube. This time, the c section wound does not hurt so much. The cramping / post contractions is a bitch though. I swear I cried once. 

Datuk Aziz said since this is my c-section, I needed stitches rather than glue like the last 2. Also he mentioned, if I decided on the next child, the next c-section have to be my last. My ovary is kinda messed up from the last surgeries, seems like it is sticking with the stomach lining and other things. Datuk Aziz said to not eat any herbal supplements or anything that promote speedy recovery. The recovery should happen naturally. Huh. If only I knew this on my first kan. Heh. 

2 weeks after my c section, the stitches is healing great. Better than the previous one. I can move freely pain free ( if I do not push myself) and I don't feel as bloated as before either. Anyway, we will see how post recovery gonna be. 

As for the baby himself, he is doing great. We did his circumcision on the 2nd day, and the ring had just come off yesterday. Pusat masih lagi ade. It is a bit weird sebab the clamp fell off but some bits of tali pusat tu ade lagi. Have to continue to see. And if it bugs me too much, I can always ask my sis. 

I think dah cukup panjang kut. Will continue to write about the baby later. He is breastfeeding well and sleeping well. I am still trying to juggle the kids, the baby and the house. 

Later. Also selamat berpuasa and menjalani ibadah di malam2 terakhir ni. 

Saturday, May 27, 2017

Selamat Beribadah di Ramadhan

I think I do it well enough if its a short burts sorta entry. 

- Tomorrow Ramadhan, and sahur pon aku taknak masak. Hey... I had never been a sahur type of person before but also realized am like 37 weeks pregnant so have to have sustenance. Also I can't move around too much without feeling like my water gonna broke and I am going to go into labor. 

- My surgery is scheduled around next week. I am nervous. 

- Still have a lot of things to be prepared. At least baju dah basuh. Tomorrow basuh mittens and booties and towel. Then sterilize bottle and breast pump. Then kemas barang. Need to also kemas baju for my kids. So many stuffs still need to be done. 

- I am tired all the time. 

- I don't know how I am gonna handle 3 kids without my husband being around most of the time. Don't know, don't know pon... kena lah get through it. LOL. 

- Baby is active and kicking around now. Probably happy her mom is drinking horlicks. Funny how when I was little I hate horlicks with all my might, up to my 20s. Then kids came and pregnancy and breastfeeding came, it is either Milo ( which I can get sick of quite easily) or Horlicks for my hot drinks. Horlicks win most of the time, and bile this pregnancy almost a daily thing. 

- Realized ever since I quit I haven't been updating much. Pity. I haven't even blogged about my trip to Cambodia though to be fair, I went pretty much the same route as the last visit. Probably will do like a short update... tahun depan? LOL. 

- Most probably I am gonna be updating after I got my baby. Kalau rajin maybe I pop in just a little earlier just to gloat I got everything ready. 

- And yes, this Ramadhan is gonna be tough, what with the kids not schooling, me going into czer operation soon and being listless most of the time. Maybe it is a good time to reflect on why I am feeling like this and what I can do to be better spiritually. 

- Tadek mood nak masak, tadek mood nak usha sgt pasar Ramadhan also. How now? Mesti price pasar Ramadhan gile saiko what with everything going up nowadays. 

Selamat berpuasa to my readers. 

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Bersiaran dari Gleneagles

This time it is Aziz again who have to be warded due to lymphadenitis.

Gambar on the first day at the ward before Saif kena shipped off to my sis.

He mentioned it to me last Friday he said his tengkuk sakit and the right side of his face I then noticed looks a bit swollen. Bawak to klinik biasa but the doctor have no idea and probably suggested might be mumps.

By Monday it had become more swollen looking and decided a visit to the paeds is necessary. Just to make sure if its really. So it is not mumps though it look like it and the paeds want to be cautious and decided to ward him so a steady course of antibiotics can be given using iv. A bit relief not mumps too because I never had mumps and not looking forward having the risk of it infecting others and pregnant me.

A bit harried gak because husband not around. Have to send Saif to my sister. Poor boy. And hVe to ask someone to come the first and third day to look after Aziz while I have to dash home to take care of stuffa. Today is day 4 at the hosp. But we can be discharged tomorrow so yeay! My poor cats jugak kesian. Asked my sis maid to bagi makan and already send a big basket of laundry to dobi. Maybe I will ask someone to come in next week to clean the house.

Anyway.. it is not so bad this hospital stay. Bored je la. Finish 2 books and reading the third one. Aziz is non stop asking for stuffs to buy at the kedai bawah hospital ni. Though I miss Saif but so far he is doing fine. Aziz also dah besar and he is not stuck to an iv drip so his mood is mostly jovial. Mcm holiday at hotel. Except for the cramped hospital bed and waking up every 3 4 hrs when temp needed to be taken. Lol.

Oklah. Need to wipe my kid down. 

Tuesday, March 07, 2017

Kids and baby


Masa ni adik buli abang, abang cry, so we asked him to mintak maaf and hug. See Aziz tear stained face.

Let's start with the littlest baby update first. He is OK. Insya Allah. Currently 26 weeks. Baru lepas jumpa gynae and my weight shot up 3 kg, terus kena warning kena cut down makan sikit. LOL. (tapi i tak rase i makan banyak pon).....

Anyway oh I did update the baby in the womb is a he. We are gonna have 3 boys! Husband picit kepala je la. I have to admit I was a little disappointed but to be honest, not too disappointed. I was prepared for a life of all boys in the family if it comes to that, so I am happy either way. There is a little longing to shop for cute things but I have nieces for that. 

As for Saif, he is becoming a handful. I don't know if it is the middle child syndrome ke ape but he not as easy to handle as Aziz. If we open Youtube for him ( if he found one of our old functioning phone we keep on to keep the kids entertained if needs be), he will be so transfixed and addicted. If we took it away he become so tantrumy and shouty and needy that we decided to just hide all the gadgets. Thank God the kids already know their own parent phones are off limit so we don't have that hurdle yet. Other than that, he is also a little bit more messy, a little more selective hearing and a little more destructive than his brother. 

I also think because he is so cute, he can get away with so much at school. We are still finding ways how to punish him effectively, so there are a lot of trial and error to see what works. Also my husband found out that Saif called himself 'Baba'. We have no idea where he gets it from, maybe at school or if he likes Puffin Rock that much or he likes Babar the Elephant story. Who knows. But he refers to himself Baba. Sometimes outright refused to acknowledge his own name. Kecik kecik dah make own stand. I asked Aziz why his little brother called himself Baba , Aziz said " Sebab Adik suke jadi baby." Maybe jugak. Who knows. Aziz the only one who can translate what his brother wants bile Saif cakap tak clear. 

As for Aziz, well we had just settled the pendaftaran and pengesahan sekolah for the darjah 1 intake in 2019. Sometimes when he consoled his brother I felt like he is really big, and bile daftar tu, I still can't believe it he is gonna start school. Not soon , but imminent! He is really excited because his cousins all goes to that school so we will see how that day goes, in 2019. 

As for the now, he is very interested in his littlest brother. Always asking when doctor is gonna cut open mommy punye perut. I was a bit relieved I akan kena czer just for the small mercy, I don't have to explain yet baby come out from 'down there'. To him the logical way for now is for doctor to cut his mother open. 

Apart from that, perangai wise, he is a dream most of the time. A bit lazy when it comes to study, but I malas push. I seen that he knows his number and jawi, but alphabet still a bit weak. Haih. Let's see how la kan. Mostly interested nak main or tengok Netflix. 

Oklah nak tido. Main candy crush dulu. Dan sedikit wordament. Then tido. 

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