Friday, September 05, 2014

Things got better


Been a while since an update. Been a bit down after the loss of Kurap. Even my enthusiasm towards my own cats kinda dull. Spent a week crying. Then right afterwards Aziz got sick, but that is another paragraph of explanation. It struck me yesterday how I am beginning to forget how Kurap looks like. And that makes me sad. However I am glad I put a lot of my cat pictures on Instagram and the video uploads too since while dropbox and phone are ok, but myInstagram are exclusively cats only. So it is easier to browse. I spent some time looking at her pictures and her video especially listening to her mews. Saying I miss her is a great understatement. More like there is a big cat size hole in my life and my day to day that can't be filled with any other cats. 

Aziz got sick

Anyway, last Thursday the taska mentioned Aziz duk muntah2. By Jumaat he is inactive and started to vomit, as I am WFH so he just stay home with me. So the whole long weekend, was us dealing with Aziz muntah and cirit birit. I never seen him that sick before actually. While my kid do have a long standing wheezing problem that come and goes, I never saw him that inactive and that irritable. Semua silap, semua mende nak emo. New things to deal with I say. 

At first I thought it was a touch of fever like the doctor says hence the bout of vomitting. So on Saturday tu aku pergi jumpa that parents/baby fair kat KL Convention Center. Aziz cheered right up that morning bile kite orang cakap nak gi jalan, no fever, lompat2 atas katil bile cakap nak gi jalan, then lepas dah beli barang die pon tidur and I took the chance to have some food at Harrods Cafe, he puked right there at Harrods mostly on the floor. The waitress was really nice about it so we have to give extra for the extra work they have to do. 

By Monday die dah ok dah, actually no more vomitting from Sunday, only cirit birit, which is not that bad, only about twice or thrice a day but in huge watery horrible mess. But by Tuesday, I decided he just stay home with me since I nak make sure he is really ok and Bukit Antarabangsa tadek air pon. So just in case if he is sick again, at least he is home with me, where I have plenty of spare water. 

So in that midst of that I felt a little spring had come back to my step. When Kurap died, I felt incredibly sluggish and felt like things are bringing me down. Now I feel my routine, my desire to do things again come up again. So yeah. Things got better. 

I am gonna tell about my pregnancy but I think this little baby bean deserve a post of his own since I neglected to update him most scandalously. 

So I will end this post with a picture of Kurap I got in my dropbox. 

This photo is back in 2012 when I was about 3 or 4 months pregnant with Aziz. Can't remember how she got out of the house, but she did, and she came back happily to me looking like this. Obviously been swimming/fell in the drain.

I had just gotten back from work and so tired from all the pregnancy nausea and felt like crying when I saw her. I HAVE TO BATH A CAT AT NIGHT AND BLOW DRY HER WHICH SHE LOATHE. Haha. I remembered feeling very angry at her. 

Sigh. Like I said. I do miss her. 

Friday, August 22, 2014

RIP Kurap. Aug 2009 - Aug 2014

Back in the days when it was just her and me.

Wednesday morning, I woke up from a phone call from my sister. She said her maid found a cat dead in a drain that looked a lot like Kurap. I immediately call husband who was on the way to work but had not got out of the taman perumahan yet. Angkat Aziz and go out to my sister house. And there it was. It was her in the drain. One of the light in my life is now gone. 

On Tuesday she was very fine. In fact she spent most of the afternoon dozing on my bed. And if she spent the day very well rested come evening it she will be restless to go out. I don't really hesitated to let her out. She is used to going out. But then she didn't come back. My husband called and called around midnight she didnt come as her usual way. But I was not too worried. Sometimes she comes in through the bathroom window. Or in the morning if worst come to worst. I did woke up at 5 am wondering if Kurap had come in. But was too tired to think about it more. Seeing her dead body in a drain is my worst nightmare. 

We speculated the cause. She might be sick that we didn't know about. She fell down (the drain where we found her next to it is a very high fence, she is a good climber but not so much a jumper, but she always manage before) chasing a cat and somehow she fell down wrong and hit her head and drowned, she got poisoned from God knows where. So many possibilities. But we didn't know. People might say that is the risk of letting a cat be outdoors. That maybe it, but it is really hard to keep the cat indoors. Also I am one of those people who believe cats should have the outdoors if they are capable or like to. Whatever the reason, most people know I love her very much. 

A bit taken aback, that like Fasha who died on exactly the same date as we found her, Kurap died on the same month too when we adopted her.

Those who just begun to read my blog, maybe can see her starting history with us from here. Those who were long time readers knows how utterly devoted we are to each other. But then I have a baby, I can no longer be as devoted, but she always try to be devoted to me when she got the chance. She was so stressed from my inattention that her fur at one point was shedding and she overgroomed her butt til its bald. Heh. She outgrew it and got the new routine. 

My sister and husband tried to comfort me and said she is old now. 6 years is not old for a cat. They are in the prime of their life in fact. I was looking forward to 6 years more. I was looking forward to take care of her cranky self when she gonna be 12 years old. But Allah tentukan semua. Maybe He knows best. 

There are so many memories we had together that will be too much to write about. Only I kinda gets her. Only I know exactly the right way to groom her. Always on the face, ears and a little on the nose. If she digs it she will lick my fingers and I know she will want that fingers that had been moistened by her to be patted on her head. She was my best friend. When I was all alone in the house and sometimes were afraid by the bump in the night, I was always comforted by the sight of her furry self next to me. She killed a lipan in the toilet once when I was busy puking over the toilet. 

Like Fasha, there can also never be another Kurap. I miss her. I want to hug her again. I want to feel again all the 5.2 kg weight I always felt when I hold her in my arms.

You were a great friend and companion Kurap. I am lucky if I meet another cat who is half as great as you. Gonna miss her forever and right now my heart just breaks knowing I can never see her again at her favorite spots which was numerous, on my keyboard, on my bed, at the corner of the babycot, next to the window, up the grills, the sofa. Most of all, I will always be haunted by the memory of you whenever I came back home and looked at the window. Knowing the most loyal of cats are no longer there to greet me home joyfully and loudly. 

A long time ago when I had just gotten her spayed

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

A new routine for a little while

When my long time project had finished, I was without any new one for a while. Biasa la tu. But only for about a week or so before raya. So nice jugak la time bulan puasa tu tadek la kena berkejar siapkan kerja or ape before cuti. 

Back from cuti raya je, I got a new project and surprise in store I have to work in shift. For about 3 months. The shift have to follow EMEA time, so I am currently working from 3pm til 12am. I am kinda loving this because I can work from home. Husband is loving this because that means almost everyday I will be cooking. Sebab got time maa. Gitula ceritanye. The cats love this because that means they get to be out most of the time. Well, the day. 

So I have some time to clean up the house, rearrange some stuffs, do laundry, do some groceries shopping, errand, hantar the cats to the vets when they got issues. In fact Pika2 will be sent to be spayed tomorrow. Lepas ni if die terlepas keluar tadek la risau kena impregnate dek miau jantan2 kabaret.

Itu die Pika2. and Brownie. Yeah. I got new cats. Actually one is about to be adopted. Waiting for confirmation gitu la. Brownie la. Pika2 tu, I pickup die masa tu sangat berkurap so I know how susah nak adopt out kucing kurap ni so I just kept her. But if anyone knows her I am ok with it :D Punya la lama tak berupdate pasal kucing that I didn't write it here how I found them. Maybe another time. Pika2 pon dah nak kena spayed dah. 

 Anyway, so about my routine, there were some lazy time of course, not all days I am productive, but I AM LOVING THIS SHIFT la weh. Of course quality time dengan Aziz sedikit suffer. But the thing not by much anyway sebab usually I got home around 8pm anyway and kalau kena masak lagi la sikit masa spend time dengan die. I am missing out his bedtime , but the usual morning preparation I la buat instead nowadays. So spend masa sikit time pagi je la dengan die. Bawak naik basikal la. Layan request meraban2 die. Oh walaupon I WFH I am still sending my boy to nursery. Cuma a bit later than usual. I still have a full time job. So yeah I took a break around 7.30pm till 9pm to cook and eat dinner with husband. Time tu lebih kurang macam lunch hour so ok la. By 12 am, which is by now ( which I am writing ) most of the things had finished, kira housework ke ape ke. If not by 1 am I tido la. 

This is not forever la only for this project, but I am enjoying the WFH time. Best :D . Project belom start demanding lagi, so rase macam best, bole curi2 tengok Projek Memikat Suami lagi which is on channel 104 at 5pm. Hoi comel la Emma Maembong tu. Ye sekarang adalah musim Rindu 200%, but I just can't deal with the woman .

Friday, August 15, 2014

Raya 2014

Well this is late. Tapi kenaaa jugak post gambar raya. Just because we are not a family who likes to take pictures.

Susah gile nak amik gambar ni dengan budak kecik. Setiap kali we try to take a picture of him he will be more interested in looking through the camera lense. Last2 I bagi die my phone. Baru nak la datang duduk tepi mommy. Nak suruh pandang kamera tu another battle la plak, so I let it go lah. 

Raya this year in JB. At first thought it was gonna be my family with my mom. Kesian la plak so I persuaded my husband to go back a little bit early so I can help my mom. Apa sangat la aku ni bole buat la kan. But it turned out my youngest brother came back on Saturday with his family for first raya. So meriah la rumah sikit. Spent a good time in JB. Had a lot of food. My mom bekalkan us daughters kuah laksa johor frozen and satay goreng frozen (actually that is only for me sebab I je tak reti buat satay goreng lagi) when it is time for us to go back to KL. We are a queen of frozen food. My mom taw anak2 die tak pro masak cam die. 

Then petang raya first pulak my eldest sister and my younger brother pon join dari kampung mertua masing2. So ramai la kami2 ni semua. Raya in JB laidback sikit banding raya kat Sarawak. Malam selalu tadek plan sangat. Tengahhari pon rilek je kat rumah. Pagi je busy sikit. Petang tak habis2 pergi Angsana. Sibuk nak beli jubah la katakan. Bought an abaya that was just right for my height! Tak meleret2 kain die. Rimas aku kain leret2 ni. 

Oh baju raya aku at gambar di atas, the kain tu after basuh tukar warna silver ok. Haha. Cakap kat laki aku, ok la tu next year tak yah beli baju lebih, ni kira macam baju baru gak. 

Anyway hope it is not too late Selamat Hari Raya to you all.

Thursday, August 07, 2014

Aziz is now 2 years old

Dah tak baby dahhhh. Mommy sad. Pftthh. Our child will always be our baby kut. (kite tengok statement tu bole pakai ke tak 10 tahun akan datang ). 

His birthday falls on Sunday time semua orang sibuk balik dari kampung ke rumah masing-masing. So we celebrated it a bit early. We bought the kek raya ketiga tu lepas balik beraya dari Kluang. Singgah JPO jab to find some baju for Aziz and my husband nak beli work shirts die. Over taw baju die skang mahal2. Aku beli kat FOS je. 

So sebab alang-alang di JPO tu we decided belikan Aziz ice cream cake je la since ade Baskin Robbins there. Lagipon bile raya ni muak sikit kek2 biasa ni kan. Kalau ade ais krim seleraa sikit.. Ini selera mak ni kek ni. Bukan anak. Masuk2 Baskin Robbins aku dah ngusha satu kek coklat aiskrim in display ni. Tapi Aziz dah excited tunjuk kek lain cakap 'Nak niii'. Sebab birthday anak, kite kena la ngalah. 

Memula nak keluarkan kek bile time my sister anak punye akikah the next day tu. Pastu lupaaaa. Ko tengok la mak jenis ape aku ni. Last2 malam tu celebrate la die dengan 2 orang cousin die. 

Kek Aziz pilih. Die suke la tu. Kalerful.

Aziz attempt to blow out the candle. Tapi kazen tepi tu lagi berjaya.

I think kat taska dah biasa ade orang celebrate birthday tiup lilin, so when we stick the candles on top of the cakes die sendiri nyanyi "to youuuu,  to youuu". Itu je la die duk ulang2. 

As for his development. He is growing up fast and beautifully. I am sometimes amazed on the words he picked up. And mannerism too. Ade sekali tu, aku ajak die naik atas untuk tido, lepas tu die pandang aku, angkat tangan die kat aku stail orang selalu buat kalau orang tu suruh orang tu tunggu, and cakap "kejab lagi". Sometimes his words are so clear that you can be a bit startled that he knows how to express this, other times it just sounded German to me. 

Bab lain2 tu. Ok la. Dah know his own mind a.k.a banyak songeh. Bile nak mandi , elak2. Bile nak suh makan.. "nanakkkkk". But most of the time, he is an easy child to handle la. Shy around new people, bile dah kenal lama sikit baru la start engine nakal die. 

Boleh disuruh untuk buat simple task. Suruh sapu. Die sapu 1 mins, 10 mins lagi die sibuk patahkan lidi penyapu tu. Bukak kipas tanpa disuruh. Letak botol susu atas meja. Susun mainan balik je tak dan lagi. 

While these are the phase of the terrible two, when he is excitedly talking to me in gibberish I felt like I can't wait for him to grow up and express what he is really on his mind. 

By the way, Aziz cakap kek tu sedap. Nanti mommy die update lagi pasal mende lain lakk. 

Bile suruh die tunjuk sedap macam mana die buat thumbs up. Haha. He enjoyed his ice cream. Dan masa raya tu dari raya kedua duk hujan in JB, so bole la nampak kena resort to menyidai dalam rumah. Haha. 

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Might as well post something

I am on the bench. Itu means tadek project assignment so duduk 'folded arms doing nothing' is what a manager said we are doing. Wah. Emoism aku baca. Eh eh.. sape yang suruh release awal dari project. Pastu nak keluarkan ayat kongajaq. Cets. Dah tu training material pon tak bagi lagi untuk new upcoming task, pastu nak emoism lak. Kan aku emoism. 

Geram taw pagi2. Naseb baik traffic jam di pagi ini kurang. I think people had already started their raya holiday. Mine started on Friday till 5th ( which is Tuesday the following raya week) . Lama. Itu pon manager tak approve lagi cuti, angin gak aku. Apply dah awal dah. Tadek assignment tapi approvenye tak lagi. 

Nak talk about pregnancy ni, tunggu la another checkup by Dr Tan soon-ish this Friday. Wanna ask about induce after caesar, because I really do not want to be induced and after reading about Dr Seri case and asking my sister about it, she told me the risk associated with induce if you had undergone caesar recently ( summary - bad for all around ). So kena la tanye nanti. 

Aziz is gonna be two soon. And I had seen marked improvements in language and social skills. He is a bit of a bully. But not too bad. Lagi budak tu nangis, lagi die suke aggravate. Tapi kalau barang die kena ambik, taw pulak nangis. Budaakkkk. Also at least these past few days die takdela mintak nak tengok Mr Peabody and Sherman. Naseb baik cerita tu best, tapi ade la limit berapa kali kena tengok dak. 

Also just heard the news that a schoolmate of mine in JB dulu died last night due to a road accident. Kinda jolted me a little on how sudden death is. We think we have all the time in the world sometimes but we always forget death can comes everywhere and in any form. 

Makin hari pon makin malas masak. Tapi rase malas nak makan luar. Sebab mesti overate. Pastu nanti mula la loya esok. Blergh. So plan today. Masak spagetti aje. Abeskan barang dalam fridge cepat2 sebelom raya. 

Puasa pon setakat ni baru 2 hari lopong. Satu sebab cirit birit. Satu lagi last Monday pagi2 dah throw up and rase weng sepanjang masa. Fuhhh.. tapi maseh bertenaga gi makan buffet kat Mandarin Oriental. MAKAN FREE JANGAN TOLAK! 

Anyway. Ini random update to whatever la. Kalau rajin I post mende lain. Petang ni. Kalau dah tadek keje sangat2. Hahahha.

Berharap semoga boss aku approve cuti sebelom balik keje ni. Nyampah sangat last minit baru die nak tunggu. Ape la wehhhh. Approve je la. Orang tu nak assign project ke tak, that is their problem sebab lembap sangat. *muka emoism* Sebab semalam suh aku cuti start dari hari ni, tetiba tuka tune lak.

Friday, July 18, 2014

Another tragedy

Right now people are reeling from the tragedy of the alleged shooting down of commercial flight MH17.

And from what I can see in the news the Australia PM is especially furious. Very quick response from US which is no surprise since anything related with Putin they will interfere. UK are still cautious.The Ukraine and Russia conflict will now be rehashed. God only knows what will come out of this.

I am pitying my country. I am pitying MAS. Most of all, pity is not the word I will describe my feelings towards the family and victim. Sadness is. And angry. As this should not happened.

Al fatihah to the passengers and crews who lost their life in that flight.

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