Monday, June 23, 2014

Sad excuse of a mother

Inundated with a neglect cases, as a mom it breaks the heart. Macam kes budak kena culik or rape or bunuh. There is a special kind of sadness and rage. 

But when the perpetrator is own blood and kin, especially mak sendiri, rase macam tak masuk akal. There can only be sadness in this kind of case.

Macam kes budak kena dera sampai mati and the latest neglected OKU boy. What kind of pressure does it took that you can do that to your own child and not feel pity to them?

I am not a great mother, I am still learning to be a good mother. Especially sensorang jaga Aziz 2 3 minggu ni with morning sickness rase macam fuhhh. There was a low point yesterday when I realized I didn't take care of Aziz good enough these past weeks and that brings me down and I promised to do better. 

Semoga Tuhan will always keep my conscience with me even when things get hard that I don't lose my way like these mothers did. 

And sorry to say, walaupon I kinda get how they can get to the point of tiredness and not caring, to neglecting/abusing their kids, I hope they get what they deserved here and hereafter on their treatment to them. There is no excuse whatsoever that your child gets to be just a bag of bones while you are very well fed. And no excuse whatsoever throwing boiling water to any living things.

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Aziz favorite book

My husband and I went out shopping groceries at Carrefour, well I think it is now Aeon Save is it? Sometimes there are a piles of books longgok in between the aisles. The price can be cheap ranging from RM4 to RM30. Depending on the book. 

Can't remember the price of this book though, less than RM12 most probably. Bought it for Aziz because I think he would enjoy a story of a boy. 

It is about a boy name Harold who likes to eat junk food and fries and basically no greens. His mother forbid him to eat the stuffs and he decided to eat himself. Aziz is tickles at every page. 

And he loves it! Wants it to be read to him EVERY SINGLE DAY. I put the book on the living room bookshelf that he can reach. Whenever he got bored of playing his mainan, he will take out his book and go to whoever is available and asked us to 'Aca' ( 'Baca'... sekarang ni kalau cakap semua hurup depan tu silent ).

It is either this or the little dragons pop up book. But this book came way more often. Kenkadang tengah tengok TV he will come with us with the book untuk 'Aca'. Kalau dah macam tu ko mampu lagi nak tengok tv? Semalam pon I was busy since bapak nye tadek outstation, die nampak buku tu he will goes 'Aca'. Lepas tu 'Agi' ('Lagi') . I cakap habis dah.

Anyway, it is funny what sorta book a kid will like. Yang random punye aku amik time grocery shopping la suke. Yang beria-ria aku pilih buat bodoh je. 

Macam mana you people read the book to toddlers who barely understand ABC? I found it easier to just 'summarize' the thing itself in BM while pointing at the pictures. He is more interested in that rather than just I repeat the lines off the book. 

Monday, June 02, 2014

Exhausted and pukey most of the time

I have a bun in the oven!

This is the my third pregnancy. As some knows my first was a miscarriage at 7 weeks, then got Aziz and now this lil bean in my uterus. Hoping and praying that all goes well and smoothly. 

I should be in my 13 weeks or 14 weeks now. Actually my app says I am in my 13 weeks, but my gynae said I am in week 14. Ok. Tak kesah la. excited jugak because Insya Allah, this year all the sisters in our family had or will have a brand new baby to the family. My sister dah deliver 3 4 months ago, my eldest will be delivering her soon in a month time I think and me probably end of November ( laki tak puas hati  November sebab banyak hadiah kena beli nanti)

Continuing with my previous gynae, Dr Tan A.E at PCMC. Senang. Was thinking to go to Gleneagles, tapi Jalan Ampang time bebile buat aku sakit kepala bile nak buat checkup ( also nanti nak deliver I nak bilik sorang hehe ).  

Anyway suffering from the usual first trimester woes. Morning sickness. But this time it is added with exhaustion and back pains. The morning sickness also a whole lot worse from my previous pregnancy. There were days when I can't eat anything. Not eating rice since thoughts of rice make me feel queasy. Hoping this will pass SOON. The house is  a disaster and I can't seems to move a lot without feeling like I want to throw up. All I wanna do is lie down. Guess that is why I am also not really into updating blogs. Datang keje pon kenkadang macam menyesal. There were days I just stared at the screen not comprehending anything because I am feeling so nauseous most of the times.

Here's hoping things would get better for me! And this pregnancy continue to go well with a healthy baby. 

Sonogram and my mum's book.

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