Monday, June 30, 2008

Ignorance is bliss

What do you do when you are faced with a sight that make your forehead crinkled?

I turned away.

I remembered seeing a beggar with a child, the woman is soothing the child from crying. One part of you ... you wish to help, to give some money to help so the child could eat. One part of you ... feel angry as why would this woman be here, is there some kind of explanation, if there is some evil organization that deemed its necessary to get money from charitable people by exploiting a woman and her children and why would people do such a thing.

One part of you... you look away, it maybe that you feel helpless, maybe that you feel pointless, or maybe you wish you didn't see it at all. But you don't dig deeper for the feeling. As for sure, after 10 minutes you are walking, the drive home, the things you need to buy... all about your wonderful self-need / self-want would drive away these feeling of guilt or helplessness.

As what I did when I see a headline on yet another news of global warming. I wish I didn't see it. I don't wish to know it. But I clicked it anyway. I mean... what exactly can we do about it?

Then I close the window and open another window of Eonline.

Friday, June 27, 2008

An introduction...

Chapter 1, Part 1...

"Tap" " Tap..."

She looked out of the windows and felt her heart dropped a little. It had been increasingly dropping these past few days.

"Persistent ugly bastards.." she swore quietly and looked on. This time ignoring the creatures, she looked around the outskirt of the house.

Scanning the area, she quickly calculated her way out. Too easy, too dangerous, not good, no escape route, easy to be overpowered... She dismissed it one by one until she found just the right one.

"Such a bad idea.." talking to herself. It’s a habit that is hard to break, but she found a comfort in hearing the voice of a human being. Even if it’s her own.

Letting out a sigh, she closed her eyes for the moment. Eyes screwed shut and with fist clenched, she stood still as if contemplating her next move. Few seconds trickled by. A distant resounding crash was heard and her eyes flew wide open. She looked out the window again and saw that the neighbour car windows are now shattered. Her mouth set, she gathers her thoughts or more like courage, she thought grimly and went down to the kitchen.

Whistling a songless tune, she went through the kitchen cabinets and drawers. Foraging and tossing things out needlessly. The clatters and clangs of kitchenware falling to the floors and tables created a din that erased the nearing persistent tapping sound that she dreads.

When she went out, she is wearing a makeshift belt with several types of knives including a butcher knife tucked snugly in. She walked upstairs to the study and opens the door to the balcony.

Standing at the edge of the balcony, she looked down. The creatures are still tapping softly the onto the entries of the house. They still didn't notice her, she thought.

"Ready. Steady. Go..."

She sucked in a deep breath and jumped.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Testing 1.. 2.. 3??

I am testing out this Windows Live Writer.

It felt weird. Like writing on a Wordpad. Hey! At least its a step above Notepad. Don't mock that application. It served a nifty all-purposes note taking abilities. And it don't take up a lot of space.

Anyway, my brother should be getting his ass back to KL on an ungodly hour of 2 a.m. Being the lazy sister everyone expected of me, he would come straight to the front door around that time. If  he is lucky enough, I will wake up to let him in. Hahaha.


I am contemplating changing my blog template. Never really fancy this one, but I really liked that lotus flower which is why I kept it for so long. So maybe a new change heading your way. Or maybe not. Couldn't find a nice enough 3 column, so prolly sticking with the 2 column for a while.

Getting pretty bored that everyone who is anyone is going on a holiday or just got back from one. EXCEPT MOI. I am sadly counting my leave and decided that I can spare none. All need to be used sparingly.

I really malas to cook meh. Going to slap some chicken onto a bread later on.

This is a quick update. I should be able to update more at the office, but then I thought my time to loll around in idleness is sadly not to be as there seems to be more changes and translation works need to be done.

Shhhh. Don't tell anyone, but I kinda liked repetitive, monotonous, mind-blowingly boring, meticulous, pain-stakingly-full-of-details work. But I don't tell any of that in my interview.

Ok. Am going to timbang my fat self and lower my self esteem further.


p/s: I am out of topic to blog. Can't you tell?

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Wanton Blogging

I am angry tonight. For reason somewhat known but I will dismissed it later on and not voice to anyone. But I will only voice it now. It doesn't matter. Just angry.

Just finished watching Get Smart. Funny LOL. Didn't expect that it is going to be really funny since I kinda hate Steve Carrell. But he's OK.

Doesn't it annoyed you that here you are looking for a nice comfy shoes. You search like 2 or 3 months and after much search and dragging your driver along from one shop to the other, you finally found one that is close enough to the one you want. You bought it. Few weeks later, shoes like the one you want is popping up everywhere .. in colours you love and price that cheap. Either I am really fashion forward or it just plain sucks.

I am now in a search for a nice looking, not too high nor low pair of black heels. Of course I can't find it anywhere except for the one pricing above RM60. This means several weeks of searching. I bet that after I bought it, I will find loads even better and cheaper everywhere else.

My selsema had somewhat abated. Going to pop in the pills afterward.

Firefox 3 is kinda slow. And I absolutely loathed its "Smart Location Bar", its big ass title and logo/img is preventing me from seeing the link. Well not really preventing, more like limiting, distracting and altogether just pissing me off. Not too mention that whenever I typed in a url of a site it gives me insane results and is more of a hindrance than a help. What is so awesome about this ? Ugh. It is now "loathed". Currently am doing some quick fix to get that thing off my screen.

I am tired now.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Am I THAT bored?

Note: My comments are highlighted in blue

What Your Peanut Butter And Jelly Sandwich Means

Your eating style is gluttonous. If you like something, you're going back for seconds... no matter how full you are! <- totally me.. though I am trying to change

You don't really have a sweet tooth. If you go for dessert, you tend to go for something light. <- yups2. Correct

Your taste in food tends to be pretty flexible. You may crave sushi one night, and your favorite childhood recipe the next. <- Those who know me knows that I can get this insane craving for out of nowhere food whenever the mood strikes

You are probably a fairly normal, upper middle class person. You don't rock the boat too often. <- not sure about the upper middle class. I lived humbly :P

You are a tough person who isn't afraid to live life fully. There isn't a lot that scares you.

You are laid back and extremely easygoing. You never make a fuss, and you try to enjoy every moment.

Not sure about the other above 2 statements


You Are Fairly Normal

You scored 55% normal on this quiz

Like most people you are normal in some ways...

But you aren't a completely normal person. You're a little weird too!

Why You Are Normal:

You prefer fiction to non fiction

If given the choice, you would choose to have more money over more time

You think glasses can make someone more attractive

You think fishnet stockings are trashy

You prefer ruffled potato chips

Why You Aren't Normal:

You are no longer with your first love
(I think it is even rarer that people are with their first love)

You eat the cupcake first

You don't keep up with your horoscope
(Its not even true meh...)

You prefer your family to your friends

If you had to, you rather live without laughter and still have music
(with music... I can laugh)


The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be together with you always, no matter when or where. <--- arrr?

With respect to money, you spend as little as possible. <-- Hahaha. More like as much as I can with little money I had.

You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society. <- yups. Methodical I am.

You are the type of person who assumes that the world revolves around yourself. <- My fiance would totally hype this up and repeat this in CAPITAL.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out. <- Don't we all?


You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 6/8 correct!



You're Pretty Stupid

You got 4/10 questions right!

It's probably time to get your head examined. You hardly know left from right.


Wednesday, June 18, 2008

D is for Devastating

Early yesterday morning, I received the news that Death Cab most probably will not be playing at Malaysia. But at Singapore! Gah!

This cause my love for Death Cab to diminish a bit as they seems to prefer the land where no chewing gums are allowed. Due to my tight budget, it seems really unlikely that I can forked out enough for a trip at Singapore to watch them play. And of course, the cuti that need to be apply where as I don't have enough cuti for this year to go around. I mean... if its Radiohead... wedding or no wedding budget, I would go. Haha. Need I say more Radiohead fans? But unfortch, money-wise and time-wise, bad timing indeed to make any trip to Singapore.

Ugh. This sucks big time.

I think I am coming down with a cold, which might account to my snappiness to everybody around and my really hazy muddled thoughts. So bear with me as I still wish to type more.

But my mind turned up blank except the thoughts of that big Green. Nah. The incredbile Hulk meh. How I love Edward Norton and for the first time I found Liz Tyler somewhat annoying. Even though many said she did great in the movie and I myself am a tad bit in love with her before this. It must had been because I am somewhat jealous of her being all smoochy with Norton. Yups... yups. But Jason Dohring does look uncanny-like Edward Norton, which account for me to be in great despair that I will not see him again in Moonlight. But I will imdb him later on to see where he will pop up next.

But apart from the awesomeness which is Edward Norton, I quite love this "Incredible Hulk". The beginning scenes start quite nicely. And like many others comment, the CGI is still too cartoonish. There are times when it seems to reminisce to the scenes of King Kong. Now that's a great movie that people don't say much about. The battle between Hulk and Abomination is entertaining enough though end in a rather anticlimactic way. Ooohh and Abomination is not wearing any pants! Heeeee.

Anyway... people are somewhat excited by the appearance of Tony Stark. (What? Spoilers? Shutup). Not moi. But that is maybe because I haven't yet seen that "Iron Man". I may have to catch that later at a TV or computer accessible to me.

Ok. My brain is still hazy. Penning off. Typing off. Whatever. And I still have that German translation thingies to do.

Monday, June 16, 2008

The wedding bells tolls

Eh. Not yet for me.

Anyway. I am still feeling particularly sluggish on this really gloomy looking Monday ( I meant it literally).

The past weeks was where everyone was busy attending weddings. I missed out on an ex-colleague one to attend my good friend / 2 pupu wedding at JB. She looked the loveliest as I had ever seen of her but she is the same ol girl who joked and laughed without restraint which causes for some severe admonishments from the usual uptight relatives. (Eeekk relatives... don't read my blog).

Gamba(s) dicilok from Mariam's batch of photographs. I looked decidedly fat. But who cares about fat ol me! The bride looks radiant! And looked ... 10 years down the line... Sarah's now with a jolly daughter, Yam's child on the way, Nai supervising the running of a petrol station, Farah soon to settle down.

The past weekend was Fain's wedding. It was a lovely affair from the nikah ceremony to the grand reception at Dewan Perdana Felda. I was reasonably stuffed at both events. Thank you Fain's and family!

Photo taking session would not be complete without a group shots of the usual gang with the happy couple.

The above picture is courtesy of the fiance, after the nikah and makan2 ceremony.

Anyway glad to have made it to Dewan Perdana Felda as at long last jumpa jugak with Noris and her baby bump. Loves.

Well.. this is a particularly rare post of pictures filled posts, (and pictures of moi too... )

So I will end it here before I changed my mind and deleted this post.

p/s: oooohhh... got lilies. The weird thing is.. after I got it.. my throat then is kinda sore.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Change lifestyle = Hunger pangs every 1pm

I am still translating document. I had done with the German language.. translating German to English. Dunno how it would turn out. I haven't get a feedback on it yet. Haha. Maybe it will turn out like that completely insane subtitles we usually have when buying pirated DVDs.

Currently am translating French. French is harder. After a while.. you get a hang on on how all those phrasing and whats not in when I am doing it in German. But French even a and au which means the same thing is different. Gah!

I currently am being a good Samaritan while holding on to a lost phone. Did I consider to take it? Nah. Its an old model of a Nokia phone ... unless if its a N95 or N80 then I will be sorely tempted. And I don't have anyone that I feel the need to call. I am not feeling particularly goodish. But then I know that I will have the niggling feeling of guilt that will go on through the day and will spoil my mood in finishing up my work. And if you need to go to the toilet, leave your phone at your desk lor. Or firmly lodge in your pocket. As long as not in your back pocket as there are countless people everywhere who had dropped their phone into the black hole beyond where only the unclean or gloved hands dare to enter. (I am not one of this person... as obviously my back pocket is filled with my fat ass and nothing else can be fit in snugly except for the few tissues and receipts. )

That is a completely disgusting topic to go into.

Anyway was welcome to my office with a huge news bulletin on that humongous screen at Jalan TAR regarding the rising price of chicken.

That is not a surprise.

I might as well be a vegetarian. Think thin!

Everybody is beginning to get used to the 2.70 per liter of oil price nowadays. However the sight of a government car being escorted by the police dengan lajunya every morning at the MRR2 make my blood boils.

Change my lifestyle? Fuck you. You can't even make the effort to wake up a little earlier or drive your own car which
1. Makes you a lazy hypocrite ass. Change your own lifestyle.
2. You deemed it is necessary to waste the government money and resources in escorting you every morning.
3. And the waste of fuel. Hello!

God. Everytime I heard a government statement saying that we need to change our lifestyle I feel like flinging something.

I mean there this one morning where government make a statement on how "NO EU or US OVERSEAS TRIP for GOVERNMENT OFFICIALS" or "FUNDS IN GOVERNMENT EXPENSES ARE REDUCED" , then the next morning we are greeted by a news headline featuring many menteri (and the many wives of those menteri with a smug smiles) and (isn't it Najib one of em) smilingly getting a plate of food (of course I will bet my wedding finger on it is for free) at a restaurant in London.

Change lifestyle indeed. There is no lifestyle! I don't eat lunches anymore. I don't even have meetings where we are provided with free food. What more changes do you expect.

Gah! What a bunch of fat ass hypocrites.

p/s: oh my my. what an angsty person I am this week meh. Nah... I am jolly enough, though I am kinda bad tempered in the past few days.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Another angry post

Fucking blogger.

I keep on typing and it turned blank.



Wednesday, June 11, 2008

So blah



Am just feeling so over it right now.

Like how insignificant you are to everybody. Yups2.

So. You know. Whatever.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Training. Karaoke. Eating. In no particular order nor sense.

What? Oil price hike? Heck... you are coming to the wrong blog dudes/dudettes if you think I am gonna complain about it here.

In the middle of training currently. And am typing this via notepad which I will copy to blogger later in the day.

Mind awandering to thoughts that should not be thought of in the first place. Heh. Oh my, but still... an enjoyable way to past the time.

Then the mind suddenly came upon this dress that I should have totally buy at the Curve. Damn it. Le sigh. Maybe I will go on the next weekend. But I kinda doubt it that it will still be there.

Shit. I am so not paying attention to this training, eh.

Ok. The below is now type after training session end.

Oh yes, an announcement to be made. For the very first time in my adult life, I sang in public. Dils do karaoke. Gah! Kinda anti-climactic as far as announcement goes. But whatever. Back to the karaoke, I have to admit it is kinda fun. Felt like was in some Jdorama as some of the guys are as cute as the one in Jdo where we always see where they sing earnestly *blush* Anyhow our team decided to do some team activity via karaoke-ing last Tuesday. So there we were at Pavilion Kotak Merah.

I have to say that I am impressed by the facilities. But I think that they may had book the more expensive room which might account for the roomy room, the comfy interior and a personal washroom. The buffet... was so so. The choc cakes was nice. Tasted the oyster and I vowed to never put that vile stuff down my throat again. But who went to Kotak Merah for makan-makan session anyway. So the outcome are? Karaoke? Well.. not too shabby, with the right kinda group. But I will still avoid it if I can. Heh.

So that was Tuesday. Yesterday, the project director is kind enough to send some extra moolah for our hard work so in true Malaysian style, no celebration is complete without some makan-makan session. This time it is held at Japanese restaurant at Pavilion (Again!).Mid range restaurant, not dirt cheap nor too high end too. You and me can probably afford it, but with the new oil price hike, I might want to think about it once or twice before going into the restaurant.

I ordered the set and it come with a quite decent amount of soba and rice. The waitress was so lying when she said it is not too much for 1 people. The soba was delish... but tadek isi sangat, But the rice with onion sauce and chicken fillet. Ohhhhhh... la la.

However I am kinda sick of Japanese restaurant. I wonder why they keep on selecting Japanese restaurant. Damnit, people. I want some good nicely cooked red meat here. And no.. the Japanese grilled steak/meat tu one is wayyy too expensive to order and its out of our budget a bit.

Gah! So all this makan-makan talk and no pic to show you guys? Oh puhleez. You guys would have expected it by now.

Hmmm. Going back to JB this weekend. Have a nice lovely long weekend. For those yang get the cuti on Friday la kan.

Monday, June 02, 2008

Death Cab for Cutie in Malaysia?

Picture taken from their wsite. Heee.

Oh... let it comes true.

Yups yups. I told you I still haven't decided if I like Narrow Stairs. But some of the songs are delicious.

Am already brokenhearted that I can't go to Japan for Radiohead. Hahaha. Kid kid. More like why doesa lot of bands when they do a world tour, the Asian tour only include Japan meh? Got other countries what! Singapore! Thailand! And of course our very own Malaysia. Huh.


My fingers are crossed. And from what I can see in the blogosphere, us locals here are getting excited. Woot!

Though I haven't seen anything in their tour page. I did a once over around last week and the last time I seen is the Japan tour. Now they had included Australia tour. Would be awesome if I would look at the page next week and see Malaysia.


Sunday, June 01, 2008


Oh. Madness

Its like the air is closing down all around.

Butterflies should be killed upon meeting.

The door will be forever lost.

No one would ever find it again?

Fairytale ... is for the foolish.

And I smiled. I wondered if any of you would understand.

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