Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Satisfaction not guaranteed

You know something, I always found myself being jealous. Jealous of people who love their work.

I wondered why I never feel this way. Is it because its really hard for me to make friends so making the workplace a more enjoyable place to be in or because I don't have the 'minat' in this industry. To tell you the truth, I don't even know what I want.

As you are reaching the big 3.0 your life should be more defined, you need to know what you want or have a good start on your long term career goal. When interviews came, the long term career goals questions is the one I loathe. I take my future week by week. 10 years down the line questions, make me feel like crying in a corner sucking my thumb.

It is not even a question of making money. I even envy the salesgirl at a stall who seems to have a good time doing whatever she does when thinking of going to work is making me hurl. I envy my husband who loves his job. I envy my friends who have a good paying job and making decent start in their career. I even envy those who complaint about their job but seems to be having fun all at the same time. I even envy the S.A.H.M where they do not have to face the questions and deadlines by bosses and clients.

I am tired of career change. Because changing your career does not mean you will be happy. Or does this in fact have nothing to do whatsoever with career or in fact in me needing to find satisfaction on what I do no matter what it is. But the ball would be coming back to, to find satisfaction, I need to be happy in what I do?

Geeez. Maybe I should had been a teacher after all, but the thought of starting over. Sigh. I don't have the heart to do it. And it would be even worse if in the long run, I would be truly unhappy and turned out to be like those bitter teachers that I always hated when I was in school.

Lets next week be a better week.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009


So do I need to make a post about reminisce or goals or expectations or what I had done?

Reflection is sooo depressing. Lets random rambles instead.

1. Just got back from a cousin (more like 2 pupu's wedding). It was lovely and nice as all of her big family had come together and tried to make everything from scratch. Also a shout out to Yoda's and Rozie's : Selamat Pengantin Baru. Sorry I can't make it to Kedah, as I need to be at JB at the time. Housewarming jangan lupa ajak aku.

2. Kinda glad that Christmas is over because I gotten a bit sick of all the Christmas songs playing over and over again. There was this really horrible rendition of 'Santa, baby' I heard just yesterday at a shop that at first I thought I was going insane because I thought I had heard a disconnected sounding voice talking nonsense out of nowhere, but it turned out to be that song sung by a woman that sounds like a man trying to be sexy. Really weird and disconcerting.

3. I need to lose weight. Had been eating a lot lately because I feel the need to cram food into my mouth.

4. Out of things to talk about. Maybe will be back here tomorrow when I am less dazed, but probably more busy as by then the system (work thingies) will be up. Bah!

5. I sure would like some cookies though.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Mewayang and a book

For a couple of weeks had been watching movies with my husband... and many of those I like. But hey, I even like Legally Blondes (with the S), so my taste in movies can also be questionable.

The Hangover

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Manage to watch it last week and it was HILARIOUS. I was laughing out loud many, many times . The jokes were spot on and even the most wildly inappropriate one doesn't feel inappropriate. And I hate movies like Click, Ace Ventura, Pink Panther, and the likes. So this comedy feels refreshing, funny yet not slapsticky. I wonder how Hangover 2 is gonna play out?


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The story is kinda cheesy and cliche. I can basically know what is going to happen before it happened. But the visual effect and all those CGI thingies is really lovely. However how cheesy or cliche the story is, it is pretty watchable and worth your money for the blu ray or whatever new tech it might come up next.

500 Days of Summer

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Incredibly sweet and lovely tho a bit draggy at times. A story for the people who had gone through heartbreak and trying/used to figure out what went wrong. I like the concept of a non-linear storyline and IKEA must had sponsored a bulk of the expense eh. And maintaining the story from Tom P.O.V and leaving us to wonder about Summer at the same time as his, make us felt the same frustrations as he did. Why not him? Most of all , I like the story of a love that is not meant to be.

Pride and Prejudice and Zombies

Because I will be malas to create another post here's my thoughts
  • Not as funny as I thought it would be
  • Not as gory as I thought it would be
  • Not funny, but pretty amusing from time to time. 
  • Seth Grahame Smith does change the storyline to a more satisfying end, especially to the villain of this story. I like this book ending rather than the original one.
  • I kinda hate Elizabeth on this book. I guess the talk of "I am the best warrior... bla bla bla" is kinda tiring and annoying. Because she said it almost every fricking time. 
  • Overall, I think the book is fun to read because of Jane Austen writing and the presence of zombies and the Longbourn girls as warriors is something of a fun twist to add to it. The illustrations help in adding fuel to the imagination, however I don't think it is that funny. In this book, I don't laugh, I merely smiled. So... I don't think so I will be buying Sense and Sensibility and Sea Monsters as I guess I enjoyed the original more.I would still watch the movie though.

Anyone out there got a more enjoyable zombies story books that they can recommend? Because I just thought that I seems to find a lot of vampires, demons and werewolves books but never zombies.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

In association with my past self

Currently I am listening to some old songs. The few back years songs. Specifically the Indonesian songs. I used to ban Indonesian songs. Not because I hate the Indonesians. Nope. Those who follow this blog from the beginning, will perhaps have a vague memory or notions why I don't listen to Indonesian songs anymore. Those who don't, let just say most Indonesian songs are just too painful for me to hear.

Why did I begin to listen again to these songs? The songs that when I heard before make me feel like my heart is breaking little by little. I honestly don't know. To gauge if it's still painful I guess even after I am married.

And you know, being married does not make your past disappear. I resent the perception of being married, that you have to be a dutiful, perfect little wifey without baggages. Or that your life is complete when you have a perfect family. Or the fact that you chose to wear a hijab, you need to be unmarked in sins. Isn't life about improvements, finding amendments, trying to see what works and what joys bring you or how you can bring joy forward even. You do not get THERE at once. Exceptions for some lucky people I guess, but for most people, it's a journey. To reach to a certain stage of piety, happiness, acceptance, forgiveness. And I am rambling, I am rambling because I am listening to some past songs that I associate with my past love.

Back to the topic. So does the songs still hurt? Does the thudding ache still there? The feeling like you can't breathe, like you have problem trying to exhale properly?

Wouldn't you just love to know ...

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

short post on things I am excited about

except this tuna sandwich I bought from Cold Storage that I had just eaten. I gagged a bit when I'd taken the first bite, but you can give me a maggot sandwich and I would eat it because I had paid money for it. Urgh...

No. 1 thing that I am excited about. Coraline is nominated for a Golden Globes! I like the book, and love the movie. It have an eerie charm about it and shivers me timbers! Great news for Neil Gaiman and filmmakers everywhere whom will now be interested in making movies based on Neil Gaiman works. Pleaseee do a film on Neverwhere, pleaseee.

Also the other thing that make me bite my tongue to prevent me from squealing out loud and at the same time gagging from the horrendous tuna sandwich I am chewing is the awesome, awesome teaser poster of Chuck for Season 3.

Really awesome. It would be even more awesome if Adam Baldwin is also there looking bewildered while glowering (because I loveeee, loveeeee, looooveeee him especially when he glowered). I know some of you would appreciate this poster so I took it from Ausiello and share it to the mass.


Monday, December 14, 2009

Aini and Zaki's Wedding

Promised the girls that we will attend Aini's wedding at Melaka on last Saturday, but at the last minute I changed the plan to go to Zaki's side of the wedding instead at Air Molek yesterday since on the same day there was also another kenduri potong jambul at my brother in law's kampung at Rembau.

We manage to reach there around 15 mins after 1pm just before the pengantin berarak. Nice timing indeed. So alang-alang2 tu aku join je belakang rombongan pengantin masuk while my husband duk ambik-ambik gamba.

Anyway the food was yummeh (sambal sotong!!! My Fav!) and the wedding is really traditional-like with gamelan music and silat. Aini looks really prettyyy and Zaki's sooo happy and jovial-like.

Selamat Pengantin Baru to Aini and Zaki. The pic above is from my husband camera taken by tah sape and I will upload most of the remaining gambar kenduri in Facebook, sooner or later. Gamba kat Rembau tu, tanya Shamani die nak upload kat mana as the pics are at his camera too.

Friday, December 11, 2009

Good God, Its Friday Y'all!

Ya know country is makin' a comeback and talkin this way is the shits!


Aku bangkrap bulan ni sebab kena bayar insurans kereta. My husband said I should save more. Bah!

Tapi maseh ade hati nak membeli hadiah-hadiah kahwin kepada mereka-mereka yang kahwin bulan disember ni. Its procreation month y'all. This week got a wedding which supposedly I should go to on Saturday, but made a last mins decision to go to the kenduri at Melaka right after a kenduri at Rembau on Sunday. Sheeesh. Next week got 2 weddings, naseb baik both in KL. And the Christmas week got 2 more weddings! And because one of them is in JB and the other in Kedah, we can only choose one kenduri to go to.

I think by next year, kurang sikit kut membe-membe mahu kahwin ini.

Was thinking to watch Natrah teater, but my pocket funds are reallllllyy lowwww like I said above and I couldn't even find a time to watch it as kalo weekdays jalan nak pergi Istana Budaya tu boleh turn me off to watch anything in good humour. And reading the reviews at (well, somewhat review la), macam nothing new to gain from it. I know of the case because ruangan membaca sekolah rendah aku dulu, kat belakang kelas was filled with Dewan Masyarakat nye old magazines and 2 of those old issues was dedicated to the case of Natrah. Very good read.

Maybe if they were to make a 'second' season out of it, will then see it. Like what they did on PGL and P.Ramlee the musical. Also, what is this second season shits? If its second season, like macam the tv series there is suppose to be continuation from the first season. Cakap je la "so-so musical" will be shown again for the year 2010 with these set of casts blabety bla bla... and don't tack the '2' at the end of the title, because it's misleading even though audience are not really a dumbass tapi still we feel weird of the '2' macam we are suppose to watch the '1' too. Geddit?

Okay got something of the utmost importance to do which is called husband and tanye betul ke idak ni nak tengok wayang.

p/s: edited at 7 pm because of really horrendous grammar

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Meandering along

I said to myself

... this could work, but it doesn't. And I turned to food for comfort.
... no more supermarket food, but its so easy to eat in front of the computer and cheap. Even if its taste weird.
...should have bought things that are low calorie, but it ain't filling. time for blog, but I opened it up anyway because it is addictive to read what people thoughts and events.
...ok, time for work.

Oh, I bought Atonement book online RM10, with free postage. Such a great deal. 

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Hadeeja Cafe

The post on what I ate.

My husband noticed a newspaper article mentioning that Deja Moss had opened a kedai makan in Ukay Perdana and beria-ria mengajak aku untuk test. The kedai makan is also co-owned by Anuar Zain ( a fact that I like to highlight to Sheema and Seri. Hehe)

We went on Sunday for some lunch. Was a bit impressed to see how chic the kedai look from outside and confused when I pulled to open the door, it wouldn't budge. Seems you need to ring on the doorbell then the door can be opened. Ok.

The menu is not extensive. From what I can see written on the board the options are, Laksa Sarawak (special or biasa), Mee Kolo, Nasi Daging Hitam and Nasi Ayam Hitam. The drinks are the usual and nothing fancy about it.

I ordered Teh O Ais (tak perlu review teh o ais kan) dan Laksa Sarawak, but the orang kedai misheard me and gave me the Laksa Sarawak Special instead. Ok, Laksa Sarawak Special is ok also. The price for yang special is RM8++ and the biasa is RM7++. The special one got udangs. (Kenapa aku letak s blakang udang?)

It was ok. Better than laksa shack and a bit lesser than Alexis. Alexis memang la sangat sedap laksa die kan, tapi price at Alexis pon boleh tahan sakit nyawa jugak (more than RM15 per bowl), so if got sudden craving for Laksa Sarawak we had found a place yang quite decent and tidak mencekik darah. My husband said, it is quite nice, tapi macam ade something missing. (Itu la yang die slalu cakap, ape yg missing tu kalo ditanye, he wouldn't know. ) My only complaint is that not enough kuah. Hehe.

My husband ordered mee kolok, which I think priced around RM7++.

He loves it! He said it is sedap and would definitely come here again kalau die kepingin untuk Sarawak mee kolo again. I tasted some of the mee a bit and have to agree that it is quite nice, but I only have 1 so-so mee kolo and another really terrible mee kolo experience to come to an opinion if this one is sangat best.

Well, the pinggan and glasses are finished clean. I do have to say I love the white on white tableware/cloth for the dining table. Nampak ala-ala posh and chic. The kedai also have a huge sofa dominating the front of the kedai, which I think is the waiting area for people who came here to order her cakes.

Yes, the top right hand corner tu adalah jari aku sebab I am a sucky photographer but I just have to take the pic and I covet that stools!

Oh yes, kat kedai ni jugak ade jual kek lapis Sarawak, and they have a lot of varieties in stock. Aku macam teringin nak beli tapi jangan nak membazir and nanti balik-balik mesti I am the only one who will habiskan the kek. So, malas.

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Kesah Kurap Pulak

Its now Kurap turn to be neutered. Its seems time because she had begun to be interested in exploring the back alley which is filled with hormonal tomcats. 

First day balik adalah agak mandom, then esok tu dah mula la 'menginja' sana sini main kejar-kejar dengan Fasha tak sedar diri perut tu masih lagi freshly berjahit.

And makin manja pulak, sibuk nak tidur sebelah manusia. Tak penah jumpa lagi kucing semanja die. Wherever there is anyone in the house, she will follow them and stay with them and sometimes forced us to scratch her ears or pet her head by mewing loudly and persistently. Very the mengada.

She does not make much of a fuss with the big cone on her head as I had thought she would be. Mungkin sebab die ni jenis tak kesah nak jilat bulu sangat. Fasha is the one yang obsessed with cleaning herself, which is why I am not at all surprised to find some clump of cat vomit or hairball which is solely courtesy of Fasha. Dulu geli, sekarang sudah immune. Hahaha.

We have to wait lagi sepuluh hari (make that 8 days now which to me seems like a long time too), to bring her back to the vet untuk buka jahitan and to make sure everything is A-OK.

Yeah. she seems really wrapped up in watching Heroes. Fasha pon used to like laying down and watch Heroes dulu-dulu when I was watching it. What is it with Heroes and cats?

p/s: Its been a while since I had heard Edith Piaf, beginning to play back her songs over and over again. Her songs and voice is just amazing.

Thursday, December 03, 2009

Random Reviews

Book: Contest

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 I thought I wouldn't enjoyed it. It is a book about aliens! I hate any stories about aliens. I don't even enjoy E.T. But Effi might complained that the book is dumb down, I say its fine the way it is, because if it try to act anymore clever, I will not enjoyed reading it.

Its a kinda like Aliens VS Predators, plus more aliens! Except for the human participation in it. Light action read I should say.

Reels: Zombieland.

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Yoda is right. It is lulzy. The rules ala-ala Zombie Survival Guide is awesome. Beware of bathroom! Double Tap!

Not as funny as Shaun of the Dead but it have its funny moments. The Bill Murray thing, was equally funny but on the other hand rather stupid. My fav is Woody Harrelson. He is such a badass! I kept on getting him confused with Matthew McConaughey throughout the whole movie because they look kinda similar and McConaughey always played the macho western with swagger and drawl type of roles.

TVs: Nur Kasih

Pic taken from a forum which I believe is taken from Nur Kasih official TV3 site.

The end is rather anti climactic don't ya think?

Hahahahaa. Yes, yes I do watch TV Melayu sometimes since my brother is such a fan of them (he will not admit it, and whenever we are in the vicinity he will quickly change the channel to sport because we will tease him mercilessly by singing the song "Gerak Khas". He is in denial that he was a fan. ) I kinda follow the drama and get why everyone are so into it. It is a rather clever, beautifully shot show. And the dialogue does not make you feel like punching the throat of the scriptwriter. But the last episode is kinda meh for me.

Not necessarily a fan though, like say the options of going out vs Nur Kasih, I will pilih to go out (kecuali the last episode sebab even though I do know the ending, I want to see how it all wrapped up).

p/s: The last review I just tacked in, because Random Reviews does not see so random reviews when you reviewed only 2 things.

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Ring Marks on tables are EVIL

Let me count the ways on how I like Dila/Erni.

1. I think she's kinda an awesome blogger. Opinionated mummy blogger who doesn't follow trend, but make up her own rules and ways.

2. Even dengan ade Ziyyad (son) and family, a job that I don't quite get what she really do, she makes time to do her crafts and even set up her own part time entrepreneur projects on her free time for extra income.

3. Sebab die bagi aku free coaster and even thrown in a felt hair clip for moi. (Aku treat hair clip itu as my birthday present sebab I got it 2 days before my birthday, teehee).

Hehe. Ok tak introduction 2 point di atas itu untuk mengipas orang yang bagi barang free?

So, Erni had kindly gave me the coaster, which is easiest the prettiest thing on my bare desk because I had not decorated or put up anything remotely nice at all on that desk for the past months.

The coaster is made of cloth so its washable. The design is pretty, my one is ala-ala Japanese blossom gitu.  The bottom side is plain pink, not the same cloth as the one you saw above but probably to indicate mana atas or bawah.I have not stress test it or anything, so I can't guarantee it would be stain free or can tahan heat up to 100 degrees. It does do whatever coaster is suppose to do, which is not leaves ring mark on table. Why this is a NO, NO? It is ugly.

I hate ring marks. Especially on glass tables. And also work desk, because work desk is normally white, thus any marks easily visible and if you had not used coaster regularly, when you are bored out of your mind and your eyes seems to be wandering to your desk surface you will go anal looking at those ring marks and will try to find some tissue or cloth or paper even to wipe those off to no avail because those long ago ring marks, are now to stay.

Jeeez. So any of you suffering from a bad case of OCD or ADHD (short span of attention which then eyes wander to desk), buy a coaster.Or you know, you can also contact Dila and asked her to make you one. (Herrmmm adakah ini bermakna aku akan tempted untuk mintak Dila buat coasters bentuk sheeps for me....)

The coaster up close.

Oh yeah, the felt clip ituuuuu. Thank you. I love it very much and are currently wearing it like this

Spot the sheep!

p/s: Yeah, I think I needed to make a post sooner or later on my sheep collections.

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