Dils Stop .

I can't say it to anybody else..(except Lan).. But I am temporarily single..There I said it. But I can't say whats keep on shouting in my head since, I am self concious that the names that is being constantly playing in my mind will read this and hate me. I admired peoples who can be honest without flinching. For the first time, I know what despair is. I can't say to my boyfriend.. that I love him.. cause I truly don't know what I am feeling. All I know.. I will welcome this numbing feeling in my heart rather than the suffering of being dishonest. I can't really say to anyone.. not even Lan what I really want. Since I got the feeling that what I want is wrong wrong wrong and even worst.. won't be accepted. If anyone stumble upon this blog, they wont know an inkling what the hell I am writing about. I am afraid of my own feeling. I am afraid I will wake up one day and lose everything. I am afraid that I will wake up one day and gain everything but losing the o

The lamest of the lame!!!! Last night my friends and I had a conversation on the most lamest pickup line or act on picking people up we ever had. And what I about to relate are an honest to goodness real life peoples spouting nonsense from their mouth and doing some pretty dumb stuff in makin them look even dumber... 1. A guy on a bus ask a girl sitting beside him (showing her his bus ticket stub). "Eh, awak tahu tak ape maksud2 nombor2 ni ye? Dari dulu lagi saya pikir.. macam tak masak akal.. bla bla" (while the girl gape at this stupid guy who is obviously asking such an unfounded dumb question.. while the guy are inching closer to the girl) 2. "Siti Nurhaliza!!.. Siti kan?? kan??" (This honestly happened).. this is lame if the girl do not minat Siti at all. 3. The guy ask "Apa nama awak?" , the girl reply "Suzana" (Bukan nama sebenar =p), the guy continues, " Awak ni Suzana, suka betul la tengok bukit-bukit kat luar ni..