Am not feeling well.

Which is the reason on the lack of posts and tweets. 

I was just remarking on I had just used up only a day of my medical leave. Tak reti aku nak gi jumpa doktor pura2 sakit y'all. Zaman call center dulu adalah, kerna gigih interview sana sini. So kenalah utilize mc. Hehe. 

So tetiba this week, demam and selsema, jenis wants to curl up into a ball and have morbid thoughts if I am gonna die la. So dapat la chalked up another day of MC for this year.

Dah la kucing-kucing tak membantu. Kucing gemok semalam emo pasal ape tah. So die kena kurung kat belakang. Kucing belang duk merayau-rayau and since I opened my window to get fresh air into my phlegm infested chest, she then after who knows what hour, crept in and slept right next to me. Dan bangun pukul 6 sebab lapar. Which is then kucing gemok berlari masuk when I opened the pintu belakang to let kucing belang to eat. So kucing gemok occupied the end spot of the bed from 6 am to 9 am. Gile precise aku nak chronicle cerita pasal kucing-kucing aku. Makes you wonder if I have kids I am gonna be as banal. 

So this weekend, duduk rumah main computer game aje. Am currently obsessed with Chocolatier games. Not as fun as Plants vs Zombies, tapi engaging juga.

And I still haven't watch last week Supernatural. Its been kinda a bit of a blah to me lately. So does Gossip Girl. I am over the whole Chuck and Blair things.

I think my cough is scaring the office. And the flu is highly contagious, my sis house almost the whole house demam and selsema, including the 2 baby boys, walaupon tadek rupa selsema. Berlari2 seperti biasa, except ade hingus meleleh sekali. Maybe my husband turn pulak nanti kena. Did I mentioned he was ever so kind to dash out and buy those Kool Fever at midnight yesterday, because I kept on tossing and turning and complaining how uncomfortable I am because of the fever and flu. Am rarely gushy (muntah darah pls), but your wife really appreciate it. Sebab after he tepek the Kool Fever on my forehead, I went straight to sleep.

Hikhik. Ugh, kenapa masih bukan pukul 6pm. Head hurts whenever I cough. I have to hold my head while coughing which makes I look like some kind of escaped asylum lunatics who kept hearing voices in head, but really are just really sick and delusional.

You can say it is a warmup to Big Bad Wolf sales

Its not the Big Bad Wolf sales yet. Nor is it Penguins. But the price is pretty sweet too. I bought the above books at Ampang Park, since they seems to have some kind of book clearance or warehouse sales in the middle of the lobby.

The above :

• James Patterson: 7th Heaven - RM10
• James Patterson: 8th Confession - RM10
• Phillipa Gregory: The Constant Princess -RM10 (which is nice, because I 'd been looking for this book)
• Nick Hornby: A Long Way Down - RM10
• The History of Love by Nicole Krauss- RM10
• The Wonder Spot by Melissa Banks - RM5
• Home School by Charles Webb - RM5
• A Cloistered War by Maisie Duncan - RM3
• Easy Baking - (some baking recipes and how tos. That is not pictured) - RM12.

Pretty awesome so far I think. The above authors are those I recognized and like their works (excepting for Maisie Duncan, but I always like stories on WW2), there are other books by authors like Garth Nix, Dean Koontz, Thomas Harris, Danielle Steele, John Grisham and a few others. 

There's only a few tables laid out with books stacked on them, but I am pretty happy with my haul so far. And Adek and Sue can still make it. Hehe. Sampai 30th ke or 31st. And they seems to be replenishing books whenever there is an empty spot.

Random blabs

Work is making me hyperventilate a bit. Boleh tak boss2 besar di EU sana jangan celebrate kate byk 'pass' dulu. Walaupon it means 'good' for me, tapi kenapa aku rase macam banyak lagiiiii jee mendeee yang tak betulll. ****. (ditapis kerna baru teringat I got some kids reading my blog)

UMNO princess spouting nonsensical things are making my day. I mean, it really couldn't get more lulzy than that. <- http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/10/21/nation/7266377&sec=nation. However nothing so far can top the whole 'how ketat does the kebaya/skirt for pramugari should be' debate long time ago. Fucken pervs. (ops)

I think I swallowed some tiny splinters from some lousy chopsticks.

I would kill for a sushi. Maybe this weekend ke husband? Or my birthday is a sushi-palooza for me. Gile awal planning, birthday sebulan lagi to the day.

Proses diet bermula. Its not fun I tell you. The urge to eat sinful things is just too bad. 

Proses exercise belom lagi. Gile malas.

Fasha berjaya telah melepaskan diri dari rumah. She's thrilled I tell you. Kurap not so thrilled sebab die gemok and kenot lepas the opening. So early morning she was being all needy and whiny and NOISY, macam tak puas hati why she was left alone and demanded to be scratched til her heart content. 

Udah, udah. Balik keje.

A friend lost

On Friday night, I couldn't sleep. My husband was away and as usual, it took me a while to get myself to close my eyes. So also as usual, before going to sleep, I checked FB. 

I was shocked to then saw the news of my friend passing due to cancer. He was an ex-schoolmate of mine. And he is now gone. It is heartbreaking to lost him so early in life, so suddenly. I'd been thinking if I should write about him. Then, I know I have to. I would loathe it if one day my memory of him would fade. So if it ever did, this blog post would remain.

Many people know him as one of the best young photographer around. If you ever seen his picture, I am sure you would agree. Even to my very amateurish eyes, his work was amazingly beautiful. He could find beauty in front of him and enhance it for us to appreciate. His talent would be sorely missed.

But for many of us, he was a friend. In our batch, he was the youngest. We are the child of 82s. He was a child of 83s. So we always joked around he is the 'adik' in the batch. My memory of him in school is just a simple memory. He was asking me curiously what I always carried around in my bag and he was gobsmacked when I laughingly shown the many, many things in there.

We do not become great friends. But among the many friends in school, he was one of the few who make the effort to keep in touch. For that I am grateful but I also wish I can make the time for the buka puasa last Ramadhan. I wish I had remembered to invite you. I wish I had make more of an effort. But that is all that left now. Empty wishes and regrets.

But for its worth, he was a good friend. Always went out of his way in asking an introverted me, how I am doing. He was a good late night conversationalist when I need to keep awake to watch the computer, and he needs to be awake for his exam.  That is just my story. On how good a friend he is. Other people stories might be as simple and nice or nicer because I know he had touched many lives wherever he had gone. So to lose a person like him, is heartbreaking to many of us.

Taufiq, your friends miss you and we certainly mourn you. I can't even imagine the pain your family and your beloved are facing right now. May God be with them in this hard time. We know you are in a better place and Allah loves you more. 

Al-Fatihah. 

You'll be remembered in my prayers.

Amidst it all

I was reading the reviews on 'I Spit On Your Grave' and horrifyingly despite the reviewers pleas to not fall into the producers expectations; incredibly bad reviews to draw audiences out to see if its as bad as they say, I am a little intrigued. 

Is it as bad as they say it is? Does the film only portray violence and nothing of value can come out of it? I noticed at first that Roger Ebert was disgusted by movies by Tarantino and movies like Kick Ass, where he said the movies just promote senseless violence. While in other reviews I found out that the reviewers are saying movies are depicting senseless violence because it is senseless. Violence nowadays is senseless. 

So what exactly the movie should be? Should it portrayed the reality of senseless violence or bring a moral value or food for thoughts to the viewers to think about violence? Where does the line of portraying and promoting comes in? 

And I am torn either way. I do think the violence and graphic sex need not be shown. Old movies does not showed it, and I think they give wonderful performances and audience know exactly the passion and feelings of the scene without those scenes. 

Long ago, a kiss on the screen was considered as taboo. Cleavage can only be shown just a hint of it. (and in Malay cinemas I think we are going a backwards instead of 'forward', more sexiness was shown then rather than now). Nowadays for an actress to get a first best actress nomination ,they must at least show boobs to show their commitment to their roles (what gives?). Then, full frontal male nudity is not usually shown, but it is slowly getting there. So when I have kids, I will expect a full on sex show during family hours clearly showing vags and poles? ( And True Blood is not a show you want to watch with the whole family eh?)

I may watch my zombies flick and B rated movies about monsters eating humans, however... I have to say I squirmed whenever I watch movie in the like of Saw or Hostel. I hate torture porn. Yes, that's what it called. Torture porn. But I have to wonder too, if the other movies (of zombies and monsters) is the same thing. Fantasy violence is still violence.So where do you draw the line? When you squirmed watching it or when you enjoyed watching it? And why are you (and me) so proud when we say that we enjoyed watching these kinda things?

I mean there's ego, trolling... and there is just plain enjoyment. Like you wouldn't mind doing that to another person. And don't answer egotistically in the comments saying "I can watch Saw while eating and shagging a kitten.". I mean really... if you found yourself enjoying them, aren't you a little afraid of yourself? 

p/s: Nampak gaya long blog post can now only be done during cuti.

Been a while

I'd been sometimes updating there but not much, well lately not much here to.

http://multipleeyes.blogspot.com/2010/10/notes-from-writer.html


They're gonna increase the parking rates here. Which suckss...

Why I love Sungai Wang

Cute dresses for less than RM50 for both. Less than RM40 even. Precisely RM31.80. (And I am totally loving the cute black and red dress there with the belt. Yes, the belt came together yet separate )

Not picture is a wifebeater shirt (RM5) for toiling away in the house. And why is it called a wifebeater? I always pictured K-Fed when I saw the word. Which comes to mind in the imagination that he hit Britney. But of course I know he don't. But the over-imaginative imagination is because of the wifebeater shirt he like wearing so much.

Maybe the clothes you wear does give the impression that you beat people up, even if you are just a big pu... erm wuss. 

p/s: I don't wear short dresses outside, but I like to layer them when I do.

What I do today (kemudian I rambles)

Hari ini saya pergi main violin. Tengok-tengok jari, kuku panjang macam cik ponti. Pegang satu string pon macam pegang 2 string. 

Balik-balik buat brunch dan makan sambil menonton Vampire Diaries. Saya officially declare Vampire Diaries is far superior. True Blood sekarang banyak bergantung dengan 'shock factor'. 

Selepas sesi bermalasan habis, proses membasuh tempat kucing dan dapur bermula. 

Bah. This listing out of daily activities is tedious. Let just say, the place got cleaned ok. 

Also, macam mana tah I FB search an ex, and was surprised to see him there. And WHY am I surprised? Hello Dils! You're not the only one who knows how to get connected ok? (talking to myself in the first person and changing it to a third person and change it to a second person , make me feel like I am somewhat mentally disturbed). 

So if you found out he/she had add your friends as their friends and not added you? When he/she is not even in the same circles as your friends? How'd that make you feel eh? No secret I got a few exes, and I found them at FB and I gathered they must've known I'm in FB too, I wondered if they also took a peek and goes something like Robin in HIMYM ... "Finished with that.." or worse ..."God, she got ugly, glad I'm finished with that."

And why I myself do not want to add them in FB? I don't know. I guess I myself am not incline to add them as friend. I am sure as glad we are not friend now, and I am not going to pretend that I like having them as my friend now, even FB friend. However, there are a few exes that I don't mind to keep in touch with because like I said, its over and done with and there is no hard feelings now between the both of us. Except for some spiteful times that I like to twist the knife so to say, and make some bitchy remark. But honestly, I wish them well. Only I also wish I am MORE well. Kan kan kan? 

But I already rehash the above. Some end well, some not so. I guess the not so, I don't like to be reminded of them. But I hope they wish me well too.

Got to go. Makan,makan,makan.

p/s: I haven't step on the weigh scale ever since Raya. Am afraid too....

p/s 2: My God. My cats are noisy.

Random burst blogging on a Friday

I think Effi called it burst blogging? 

I hope, hope, hope, that we don't have to work this weekend. Though the RM350 per day thing is kinda a sweet deal for all the hassle eh. 

Nak bercutiiii laaaa.... silalah dengar jeritan kuuu... (padahal baru je balik dari beraya)

So if my husband jadi pindah Turkmenistan, he said there is familiarization session where the company would pay the expenses of the trip for the spouse to see if the spouse thinks they can move there. I am so going on that familiarization session. Kalau die jadi pindah Turkmenistan la kan. So other that, tadek berita lagi so kenot tanye me any more because I don't know any more. 

Tapi I asked my husband "Turkmenistanye internet ok tak?" . He replied in the negative. My reply towards moving was also in the negative. Throw me anywhere, desert, jungle, but if there is internet, I am happy. 

And also live in a country where if I order books overseas, I wouldn't received my books riddle with holes. 

Yesterday before I went to sleep, I read one of Peejburhan expose mistik blog posts. Went to sleep with the 2 cats curled at my feet. Woke up around 4 am because I felt like there is something bouncing on my bed violently. My first thought was pocong, boleh? I woke up at 4 freaking a.m because I felt something was bouncing around the bed and my first thought is pocong? I then groggily thought to myself that it is ridiculous then took a pillow and libas the pillow at the 2 sparring cats who thought that having a smackdown at 4 a.m on top of their owners is a good idea.

Its Friday y'all! Nak continue debug pulak :(

Cheese McShaker Fries

Bought tickets to Resident Evil 3D for tomorrow and seperti biasa, if I singgah at the GSC in Midvalley mesti pegi McDonald. Macam tak cukup McDonald kat area KL ni.

Order the usual mcvalue lunch yada, yada. Then am somewhat surprised to see the Cheese McShaker fries. Aku tak pernah perasan promo pon?

Shake some of it on my fries and I kinda yelped a bit. Argh.... mcm cheetos.

See that orangey powdery stuffs. Pure powdered Cheetos there.

Taste the same and make your fingers go orange. I love Cheetos. It does taste ok together. Tapi it felt so unnatural and wrong... Macam too unhealthy. Haa! Too unhealthy konon. Padahal fries together with melted cheese and chillies (those grounded beefs with red sauce itu) boleh je makan. Though in my defense I ate it once and never attempted to order it again because I fear for my thighs and heart.

What is wrong here?

And when am I gonna start my healthy lunch time food again?




This blog post is not brought by McDonald.

Brief Meme Updates

Here: http://multipleeyes.blogspot.com/2010/09/3-male-celebs-i-dont-mind-sharing-my.html

From the office to home

Things I spotted. Or heard. 

1. On the way to the car in the car park at Gardens, I heard a cat mewing. Looked for it everywhere, but can't find it. If found, rumah ni will have an additional cat pulak. Hope it was just someone ringtone, but if someone left a cat in a car park, I'll be pissed. 

2. While switching lane to go to another lane, seekor BMW who was driving on a emergency lane (it was not jam pon, setakat 30-40kmph punyer slow aje) duk sibuk high beam so that he does not have to go through the hassle of slowing down and go fast instead into the lane I am coming into. Menyampah siots. I don't know if he had an emergency ongoing, but somehow I doubt so. So I ignore him. People like that can lick their own asses. 

3. Saw a guy on a motorcycle in a rain with cardboard box wrapped around his body with duct tapes. Awesome. Then saw another guy riding in the rain with a clear umbrella zigzagging on an empty street. It is almost romantic.

Ready, Set, Blog!

*crickets*

*crickets*

Well, I tried. Monday.

Tidbits

It takes some time to readjust to working non-bulan puasa again. You're not as hungry as during lunch, but you're sure as heck wanting to get a big dinner after work. The mentality to always go home early is still there, while I manage to get out of the office door at 6.45pm, today I am resolute to go back at 6.15pm since I think I had closed down a respectable amount of defects and I have some shopping to do. And I still loathe to go back late. Not unless the bosses goes "The DEADLINE is NEAR. FINISH yer work, yer lazy lass". Tah bile boss aku jadi Scottish pon aku tataw. 

However I sure missed having breakfast, and chowing down on some kueh keria or home made peanut butter sandwich with my cup of coffee or tea and reading blogs, sure is a great start of the day. Bliss is the simple things in life. And one of those things is breakfast. For weekend, I like to munch my heavy breakfast (if I am incline to go out and tapau) or my light breakfast (if I can only muster to pour myself a cereal) or my so-so breakfast (fried sausages, scrambled eggs, the usual) while watching my teen-angst series in the morning. 

Well, that's that. Now I had filled my head with delicious breakfast foods, I am itching to get some food for teas pulak. I am thinking keropok lekor. Used to be when my office was at Maju Junction, senang je nak pergi beli keropok lekor since dekat dengan Jalan TAR. Keropok lekor kat Midvalley? Boleh save bayar duit parking kut untuk puas hati makan.

A cat bag is fine too.

A cat bag actually. My mom recently asked if I wanted to kirim a Prada bag since it is on sale in Qatar and my sis can get it cheap. While I love Prada, the shoes, clothes, bags... All are amazing and lovely. But even at 60% off I've to fork out half my month salary to something like that.
I lagi rela beli beg yg ade motif kucing rege RM20 from Bintulu y'all. My husband offer untuk belanja a big pink plastic Swatch watch that I'd been eyeing tapi rase bersalah pulak. So I hunt up a big pink plastic watch everywhere and found one at Wangsa Walk mall that cost only RM15. Lagipun I can also buy a big yellow watch later guilt free kan.
So the point of this post: adakah aku magnanimous, economical ataupon a cheapo?

p/s: am back at kl!

Sent on the go. Or on bed.

I really had not been updating much aight?

Like I said before, bile puasa ni malas je nak belog. Either I am too busy or too sleepy. Pick your pick. 

Anyway, selamat menyambut Aidilfitri (just in case I stay silent for the whole 2 weeks pulak). 

This year, I am finally going to Sarawak for the raya celebration. It's going to be a whole new experience to a city girl like me. So this weekend am going to be packing my things for balik kampung. So tomorrow I'll be setting up a list how many jeans, pants, undies, baju kurung that can last me for around a week. My husband is half complaining that is too short for a holiday raya? Too short? Ade sekali tu aku tak cuti raya lagi ok. Malam sebelum raya balik, and raya ketiga dah go back to KL dah. 

The kittehs would be sent to pet boarding. The pet boarding near our house is very,very good, but expensive. We need to spend RM400 if we opt for the place. Urgh, pengsan. So we found someone farther away who can board the kittehs for half the price and from what we see and the information given, it seems ok. Also they have pick up service. Awesome. Tengok Kurap and Fasha lepas raya depressed ke tidak.

As for other persiapan raya, beli la je la ape yang patut. Baju I am going to pick it up this weekend. Entah macam mana la rupanye since its the first time hantar baju di situ. But I am not the type to FREAK.OUT. if there is any minor mistake in the dress. Time kahwin lain ok. I or YOU need to FREAK. OUT if they mess up your wedding dress . Or like in my case, my tailor suddenly went AWOL and tutup kedai and uncontactable. Gile stress time tu, if you old readers can remember eh? Nasib baik things turned out fine after that.

As for the makan-makan for raya. Aku sempat baked cookies wooo. Sedap tu sedap. Tapiiii . Yes tapi tu mesti ada bile bab cooking ni. Ade je part tak jadik. The cookies tak brape naik. So jadi la cookies yang leper. Hahaha. Takpe. Asal boleh makan. I don't know yet if I have the energy to go another round of baking this weekend. My husaband the kuih we had is enough already.  In term of Raya dishes, God, I hope my MIL would not expect me to cook for the raya dishes? Nasi goreng boleh lah? Heck, aku rase kalau aku raya sensorang, nasi goreng kampung is awesome enough to be my raya dish. I heart nasi goreng kampung. Close second is nasi goreng ikan masin (if they also put some kailan in it). Hoi, sudah2 cerita pasal nasi goreng pukul 9 pagi time puasa ni boleh?

Hmmm. Ok lah. Nak kena buat kerja. Malas betul. It'd always been like this. Bile dekat cuti je, kerja sume jadi banyak and super important.

Morning thoughts

I guess many knows about the commotions regarding the plan to build a mosque, nay! A prayer hall (surau) near the Ground Zero. I am not gonna comment on that. The comments and thoughts on blog Effi is enough to satisfy you (and I like that many commenters there are nice enough to not be an Internet asshole and agree to disagree).

What I am thinking of the many comments saying religion is the cause of war. 

Is it? 

I am always on the thought that economy (power and money) is the main reason. Religion, is just an excuse they are throwing to rile the pious commoners up to fight the war that they are waging while the perpetrator who thought of war sat nicely on their plump cushion looking at maps while trying not to yawn and the commoners are the one with the blood on their hands . The Crusades? Yes it is waged by the Church and the kings in Europe. Yes, it is about conquering of Jerusalem. But all I see is a control on a much revered holy site where if won brings them control on economy from pilgrims. Control on economy = Money =  Power. T\

But hey, I am just deducting from what I know and it kinda irked me that people dismisses religion as bothersome and cited this is the reason why there are wars in the world. I am sure there are a few misguided leaders citing religion as the cause and start a war. However from what I learned enough of the past wars it is an act of control over power and economy. They only needed a reason to conjure up to give these men at arms reason to kill each other. 

So the fault of fighting for religion instead fall on the commoners?

I remembered the documentary regarding Pol Pot,  where the leader of a secret police division were interviewed and(kinda like Gestapo) is now living in seclusion. What he said, touched me. I can't find the interview but from what I can remember it goes in the line of. "Pol Pot maybe the leader. But many people here (who reported supposed traitors and caused many innocent people to be shot and hang) never even knew who Pol Pot is or what is their agenda. Yet we killed each other anyway. We are to blame too"

Some blahs

At the usual place here: http://multipleeyes.blogspot.com/

Last week ade, tapi aku malas gile nak post sini. Bulan puasa ni pikir nak balik je... Hehehe. Balik makan, nom nom nom.

Bla bla bla

I got the most undesirable itch to shop.

Its like once I had unleash the will to shop, I could not contain it. It had consumed me.I was doing considerably well before. Never really caring to shop but nowadays, I feel like I need to spend.

Before this I mentioned I want to buy some shoes. I manage to stop myself, though the head keep telling that shoes must be bought. Nothing seems to match with the shoes I have now. The shoes must be bought! I manage to contain the shoe temptations, but the other day foray to the Curve is too much for me to resist temptations to buy a new bag I had been eyeing before (what is the correct spelling for eyeing? Or is that not a word?). It is like you suppress one leak and another sprung up from another hole. Hermm... that can be taken wrongly, but apt enough. So got a bag, much to the annoyance of my husband who is thinking that the house can only contain so much bags. At least he doesn't have to pay for them eh. 

Also I am not the only one who love bags in the house. Fasha like them too. I left one of those reusable shopping bag on the floor and she had a great time going in and out of the bag and twisting her head around the bag handles. 

Hmmm. Yesterday, I went through the whole day thinking it was Wednesday. Only time buka puasa that it dawned on me that it was Thursday. I got quite giddy then on the thought that today is Friday! Woohoo! But that's that. Friday, then come Monday again. But what to do then the weekend? I guess household chores! Since tidak berpuasa, inilah masanye kan. And perhaps baking some raya cookies. Kalau jadi. The last raya cookies I try to make, the cookies was so hard it can be made into a weapon.

I am feeling a bit out of it the past week. I think even the past few weeks. I guess it shows in the entries. Unless I got my rage on eh? Even books pon I am only reading it disinterestedly. Apekahhh maknanye ini??? 

Sooo getting out of the me, me, me in this post (what else I ever talk pon).... I am coming up with nada. Even the news I am reading make me yawn. The kes buang bayi ni pon, while I hated the pictures, many people certainly have better views and words on them. I think it stems from culture. Our culture who frowns upon unwed mothers. Our culture who would like the youth to think that children is only possible after marriage. Our culture who oppose the sex education and in turn failing to educate and protect the youth.

I remembered a guy in my secondary school who was supposedly called by the teachers because a teacher found a condom in his wallet. I was thinking then, hey, at least he knows the risk enough to wear a condom and not embarrassed to buy one. I also remembered a few months back, I went into a pharmacy and I was standing next to 2 boys in their late teens (I think they're in college or at the very least form 5) looking through the condoms and feeling bewildered by the wide selection. Hehehe.

Tiba-tiba mahu char kuey teow. Tadek kaitan langsung.

Some people are idiots

I was browsing through the videos of the Pasar Ramadhan Jasin tragedy, and I am positively angry at some comments that goes in the line of this - " mungkin ade pengajaran di sini, di mana dalam asyik meniaga jangan lupakan ibadah." The usual of maybe those poor people who's trying to make an honest living there deserved it.

What a load of self righteous crap. Its the same like what Effi complaints on some people bullshits of the Bukit Antarabangsa tanah runtuh. Penduduk situ berjudi la, maksiat la. And now, orang yang berniaga pon kena tuduh tinggal ibadah.

I wonder sometimes on the thoughts process of such people making silly accusations and assumptions. I think those who made comments like these had been reading too much Mastika. I wonder what kind of craps they are going to go with it to go with their so called 'pengajaran'. Peniaga2 di situ menjual mende tidak halal? Peniaga2 di situ main poker sebelum puting beliung? Grrr.

Can't you just sympathize, offer Al Fatihah and move on with your life without making silly assumptions whenever God use nature to take men away.

Selamat berpuasa! Ranting over and I am moving with my life. Starting with menyidai baju.