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I have to checked the date twice at my computer today for me to realize that its 31st December. The last day of 2007. It had been a whirlwind year. Last year had been those with hoping and heartbreak for mine. I love and lost and fought to find that love is not what it cranks up to be. Work wise had been those with desperate pleas inside my head, I have to get out of here or I will be forever trapped. Friends wise, I meet the new and I past them by and never look back. This year had been all about new beginning. I started my job at end of the year 2006. New job. New friends whom I hope I will never past them by. Relationship wise, I have a brand new fiance. A whole new beginning for me who before this will get all choked up if I tied myself to one guy for too long. It is also a year where I say goodbye for the last time to my arwah grandmother and say goodbye to my eldest sister's family who had been moving to Qatar. A full year of ups and downs with friends and family and fiance. ...

Have to confess. My love of Jane Austen at first do not spring from books. Rather, my sister brought home (at that time Video Cassette )the incredibly addicting mini-series of Pride and Prejudice by BBC. I remembered that everytime after I got back from my boarding school, I would plonked down my bags, get some foods and prepare myself for a 9 hour marathon of Pride and Prejudice (the whole miniseries for what I remembered lasted that long, or less or more.. I may had forgotten). I may had done this monthly. The video cassette suffered incredibly through my repeated viewing (and perhaps my laziness by leaving it lying around ). My sister bought a DVD collection of it now. It is left untouched. Maybe I will see it again. From there on, it piqued my interest to pick up her books. Her first book I read was Emma. I thought it was good, funny and loveable. Though I don't like Emma one bit. I read Sense and Sensibility and I don't understand much of it. I read Northanger Abbey and f...

Browsing at the Golden Compass website . I came across this! A blogthings. Heh. Anyway, this is quite cool I guess. Since other people can also determine my personality by just putting your mouse over the image below and it will gave you the next instructions to go forward. After all, we only see one part of ourselves, the other see the other half. Told fiance and he is pasting his at his blog, and I am doing the same. He is hopping mad, (thehe!) since after I done his test, from a monkey his daemon had now turned into a crow. Mine so far was first a snow leopard, then a fox, now a ladybug. (Sumenye ker-aii macam tuannye. Hahahaha. I think heard a distant "perasan" from someone) Or is it a ladybug? Hell.. I am growing senile in my early years. p/s: Eh dah turn balik to snow leopard. Still cumil. Anyhow it will be changeable sampai a few days had past (expiry date of the quiz I believe).

Ok. Quickly recapping the 2 movies I recently seen, Golden Compass and Heartbreak Kid. And touch on the movies that I really, really want to see. Golden Compass is quite nice. Surpass my expectations really, though to be honest my expectations is actually quite low (I don't get the talking polar bear concept before seeing the movie). All the hoopla regarding Christians and atheism and organized religion is overshadowing the movie kewlness. However their argument maybe valid since when watching the movie, you can't helped but found the parallel meaning behind every point. Those can also be true for the last year? or previous years Narnia. If Golden Compass seems to promote the idea of atheism, then Narnia have subtle hints regarding Bible and Christianity. However further along the movie, those notions are forgotten and what you are seeing is basically a fairytale movie of a girl with a big destiny to save her world. Like many says, most of us couldn't give a rat ass what i...

Insanely tired and sleepy. Did I not say I have to work today? Pbbthhh to that! Hate people who takes MC inconsiderately. Even when I am sick, still have to work. The guy who is taking MC almost every other week seems to have not been reprimanded whatsoever. Yang kena marah is the people who won't replaced him. Biaskah ini? Worst. Boss. Ever. I am still angry with my boss inability to relay information regarding attendance but expect us to always keep updated when he wants to update things on his own time. *Whacked head on table repeatedly* due to forgetting extension for earphone or cable. No decent songs to hear to keep me awake. Really anticipating to watch Gossip Girl, once I got back home this morning. There is 5 hours and more to go so I can be released the torture I called work and watch Gossip Girl. Why am I using bullet points? It do not make sense. Am. Too. Tired. To. String. Together. Coherent. Sentences. Damn it. I do not have RM1 note for my bus fare. Am too poor to ev...

Am I not a morning person? If I'm not, then why the hell do I kept on waking up early especially on my cuti days? Or if I am, why even after 5 hours waking up from a 7 hours sleep, am I still yawning and feel like my bed is the most to be at place in the world. My body clock baffled me. I want that prescription drugs that Britney's taking; the one prescribed for those who work in erratic hours and shifts. But Britney's is waking up at 1pm everyday and her pimples are scaring the hell out of me. So prolly that's no good. Maybe I need to try espresso. But coffee in the morning usually makes me barf. My mother is in town, preparing to go to perform Hajj. We will be seeing her off to Kelana Jaya, later tonight. Am taking leave tomorrow. Yeay! But got assessment tomorrow for one company. Gah! I wonder what they would be testing. *shudders* Oh, I am currently loving this little shop in Alpha Angle that always sell some really cute clothes. Some of it are very ah lian-like. (...

I concede defeat. I can never finish a novel in time for the NanoWrimo. With the getting sick part of the last week, I ignored the writing. Thus no fruits to bear. Haha. Actually was sick and I couldn't bear the idea to write anything coherently. But laziness is also a part of it and it took me a lot of time to finish a chapter. I wonder if my story would be continued. I guess it would, but it would be spun slowly. Spanning centuriesssss!!! Ehem.. a bit melodramatic. Nah.. if I have the idea and the free time, I'll submit myself to it and perhaps more chapters will be borne and perhaps an ending. But now.. I am playing Sims at home. So let the story be for a while. I guess I will try it again in another 2 years time. Why not next year? *winks* Next year on November is gonna be a busy month for me. ( And that's if the current story had finish in 2 years time) So that's that. Moving on to new chapters. I couldn't be arsed to comment on the current political rumbling g...

I hate to go to a meeting at 7pm. I hate to go to a meeting when it is my off day. I hate to go to a meeting where there is no free food. I hate meeting. Gah! Planning to go to KLCC jab lagi. Lots to buy, but the big "M" is ever-lacking. So nothing to buy, in summary. Nak tengok wayang, but the time yang sesuai cuma cerita Bee Movie, Beowulf and whateva movie yang Magical Emporium tu. I would feel like choking to death if I saw that movies alone. Wait, Beowulf adalah tidak sweet and senseless. But whatever, the graphic don't appeal to me. Nak siap2 la nih. Sangat malas. Eh... kenapa blogger tanak add smiley dalam function die. Duh, blogger. Come, on. Improve more. Senseless. Fine.

Yeay! Birthday today. Boo! Sick today. Lazy to make a long post. As so... nothing particular to say pon. Thank you for the well wisher even though 90% of your guys birthday I usually forgot. I know, I know I need to make more of an effort to remember. So thank you all, it means a lot to me. Got a brand new CPU for my birthday present. Hehe.. so no complain from me anymore on how my DVD writer do not work or my computer sucks. Its a small CPU, and the specs, gosh... I am at loss when it comes to specs of computer. All those numbers are confusing to my little pretty head. But its pretty fine, before ni dulu nak main Sims pon tak larat, so now I think my Sims can dance around in glee without my computer hanging. My officemates also dengan baiknye telah membeli pizza dan membelanja diri ini for pizza. Thank you, opismates. Tak sesia keje tonight. :P My tunang last night treated me for some Japanese food at Kiku Zakura. He have the photos so probably he will post it at his blog or his photo...

What did I do last Saturday morning? . . . . . I bought these.. I read Suanie blog early Saturday morning when I was working, mentioning about the Pearson & Penguin Warehouse Book Sale at PJ. Since its a bit near from workplace, I decided to go after work with the fiance. The Warehouse book sale is quite big and it had a lot to offer for everybody. It came to a point that I was so tired (with not sleeping due to night shift) from scanning rows and rows of books that I had to just randomly stand at some spot in front of the table, take a breather and Tada! found what I was looking for. All those above are what I bought. All around 16 or 17 books and spent almost RM200!! 3 of those 17 are my fiance's photography books. The book cost around RM10 - 15 and the hardcovers one usually at RM20. This is the most I ever spent on books at one go (excepting text books of course). A good bargain and I am not regretting it one bit. Very happy in fact. Early birthday present from moi to mes...

Its November bitches. Ehem. November is a very special month for me. Becoz its my birthday. Hahaha. Its like a month long celebration. Cewah. Macam sangat special. Actually not. But I do kinda like it when November came. (The anticipation of presents kut.. Hehehe. Sungguh materialistic) But my birthday.. not till few days yet.. (uiks.. agak hampir jua), but that's not this post is all about. No sirree. I am writing because of NaNoWriMo . I sign up. Yeps. Yeay for writing. Boo for procrastination. Knowing me, I haven't started anything yet. My word counts is so pitiful I am embarassed to announce it to you guys. But its the thought that count. Ha! Right? No? Writing day after day (more like a day in aweek after a day in a week), I found out that being a writer is tough. Finding a coherent plot is a tough steel of nut to break. Writing headlong recklessly is even tougher. I found that I liked editing my stories, damn it. And pondering at the words. Shit. I am suddenly getting col...

.... is amazing. It is even better than the book or almost borderline there. The first time that I ever hailed a film as so... the movie is better than the book. (Tho reading Neil Gaiman interview, he might takes an issue with this statement) Wow. Let me gape at that statement for a while. Seriously, its better than some of the fantasy flicks. There are some things that are off ( the pirate ship for instance, I'm not sure.. what is off.. but like it should be better).... but most are OK. Very tongue in cheek and not the conventional magical fairytale and rigid righteousness of most fantasy stories. But that's Neil Gaiman for you. The intro kinda baffled me tho. What is it trying to narrate? What is the question? What is the answer? More like.. the point is? Skipped the 1 minute intro of bafflement, it was a joy to watch after. The movie manage to turnaround the boring part of the book to the most delightful scenes in the movie. The climax of the movie is done nicely, as some c...

I list somewhere on a long ago list to see Chicago, the Musical (not the city, but I won't say no to that either..) and occasionally mentioned it. Thus my fiance bought me this, and lauded that it is his idea that we got to watch Chicago. Right :P .. Haha.. fine fine. He bought the tickets and belanje me, so I will acquisence. Right. It is your idea. Haha. So on 6th November, we got the premiere tickets and were raring to go. Excepting of course my fiance have got to go to Miri on that day. Baru nak resigning to myself that I have to go alone, he made it, albeit 20 or 25 mins late. Which of course pisses me off since I believe I missed some early bit from the show since I need to wait for my plus one. Its nowhere his fault, but damn I'm still pissed. Sorry, but that just who I am. Which also causes me to not be able to wholly enjoyed the show as I was steamingly furious. Have to say again, and I know and he stated a few times, its not his fault that he is late... but THAT IS JU...

I always love cats. Always did and ade cita2 untuk memelihara cat yg lawa nanti2 ( but responsibility of a pet is too burdensome a.k.a malas nak clean up and train said kitties). Well, we don't have any pet cat except for a regular visit from the neighbor cat. Used to have those only on my childhood years. Skang malas. The thing is we have this problem with kitties, I don't know stray or not (I hoped stray so owners won't feel too bad if I strangle it). Last year, something crawl up the smoke ventilation thingies to die in there. No.. not from inside, I think it clawed itself from outside, past the screen to the ventilation. Around awal puasa last year, there is this God awful stench coming somewhere in the kitchen. At first we thought a kitten or a rat had died somewhere at the back. We look around and shrugged our shoulders. Then the stench is becoming unbearable that you have to hold your breath everytime coming into the kitchen. My sister and the maid was looking around...

Well.. this is a tad bit late for Raya post. Tapi takpe. Nothing very special happened on Raya or joyous either. I found out that this Raya, I am even more broke. Ugh. Hate the feeling of being penniless.. I like the thoughts of money always at my disposal to buy pretty things. The Raya visit to various family members are exactly as it was this year and most of the years before this. Surprise awaiting however at 7 am on Raya 3rd when my ex from around 5 or 6 years time ago, sms me wanting to Raya at me house. 7 pagi? Loons manekah beraya rumah orang kul 7 pagi? I asked again, and he actually wanting to drop by at 10.30 am. Acceptable time then and I can't very well say not. Not wanting to go into details on the visit... only its awkward. It had been such a long time and the last word we say to each other (not via sms) is how best it is not to see each other. Conversation mostly focusing on work, and the rest are pretty forgettable really and before leaving I blurted out my engageme...

I kinda like Radiohead nowadays. Their music suits me in this particular stage of life. Their new album is out and you can get them for free or choose to pay in whatever amount you think its worth at www.inrainbows.com . Its a new strategy they are trying out, and personally I think its kinda great. I don't know if I am taking it up for free or will pay as seeing I really like their music. As the question going around nowadays, How much are you willing to pay for the music? In another note, I was browsing around articles regarding science and such (Ugh.. bunyi macam intellectually-fakin it, but I'm not, I was merely bored) , and comes upon the article in Wiki, A life in science sometimes becomes a death, too . Go ahead and read it. Its great to read about the feats of real scientist (*cough* as oppose to celeb one *cough*) and the sacrifice that come upon every single thing that we took for granted on. Short post. Just a quick note I thought I quickly type before turning to bed...

KL is getting back to its jam packed state. Even more so than usual with the throngs of people going everywhere for Raya visit and open house. Sigh. Raya is okay. Jalan tidak jam. I don't know if its because we went back so late or the extra lane, but its great. Back to KL also tidak jam, which is a first for me for few years now. Wow whee.. Sucks for those who lived on the north tho. God. Work seems to sucks even more. What more to complain la kan? Ticket is coming in macam water, cuti is unattainable as going to the moon, the pay is blergh. I have a half mind to just throw in the towel, travel to faraway country and work as dishwasher. Erk. Lil rant there. Wait. Oh.. I was wanting to write about Raya on this post. But I am nursing a major headache and just blergh la. COZ I WANT NASIK LEMAK! I have to wait for a few more hours, and I felt like if I don't eat nasik lemak soon I may burst into tears shamelessly. Then I felt like I am suppose to write this ditty about Raya, but I...

Ala kira je la ini Raya post. This Raya is getting to be even more bland. My only grandmother had passed away earlier this year. My grandfather had passed away several years before. I never knew the other grandparents on my father side. My sister and her family will be celebrating in Qatar this year. I will miss the sight of Little Kenit frolicking around with kueh raya always in hand. So this Raya, will not be spent sightseeing in zoo. What? Don't judge. Bukan hari raya first pon.. more like 2nd or 3rd Raya. I never seems to feel the Raya festive airs nowadays. My grandparents used to love Raya so much. My grandmother is looking forward to the food. My grandfather looking forward of his friends visiting. During first raya dulu2, he love to invite his friends (of all races....) to come and enjoy the various food my mom and grandmother prepared. Ketupat, nasi impit, nasi beriani, laksa, soto, sayur lodeh, rendang kering, rendang basah, sate.... (the table used to groan holding all ...

Gile malas. Sangat sejuk. And hey.. berblogging in BM. Actually blogging in BM is more tedious for me, because if I blogged in BM I got a tendency to go for ayat2 skima dan sungguh panjang.. dan.. memerlukan penjelasan yg panjang. Shallow girl. Takpe, try BM rojak-blog tanpa skima. Agak2 buleh? Rase bloated sebab smalam makan dgn greedynye and minum pon banyak. Makan sup kesukaan.. sup campor yg ade perut. Whee!!! I likey perut! Nampak disgusting, tapi sungguh enak bila dikunyah. Then, in a attempt to clear out content of the fridge, kluarkan ayam Ayamas from last week and panaskan dan proceed to make sandwich of shredded chicken slathered with mustard and chillies sauce. Erk.. lapanyeeee bile menaip. Semalam went to Jalan TAR with colleagues. Nothing to buy. Hanyaaa beli brooch saje stelah berjalan beberapa jam di tghhari panas!! Tapi malas nak beli baju raya, sebab ade banyak baju kurung yg tak pakai lagi atau pakai hanya sekali dan kain2 yang dulu2 beli kat Tampin dan orang bagi sti...

Those who are in the knows of our local authors... well should know Lydia Teh. She's the one who recently wrote Honk! If you're Malaysian. I have to be honest that I didn't read the book. I was reading the interview she gave earlier.. to NST or Star or.. tah.. and got tad bit envious that she are able to achieve a dream so many can't.. getting a book published, print and quite a lot of people buying it. Mine.. I am too poor. Haha.. Ok ok.. I have a tendency to read fantasy and children books and those books that I love to buy and lovingly add in my ever growing collection. I was eyeing her book and also those Adibah Amin installments and sighing my lack of money and my ever expanding list of book collections to be bought. But this post is about the latest contest she is throwing! So are you tight for money? Scrounging in the garbage can for food? Or are green with envy whenever you see someone picking up a book that you had been drooling for weeks (but can't afford)...

I had just finished reading the books listed on the left. ( Couldn't think of a better topic at the moment) Suite Francaise and A Case of Need. Takes a bit of a time to read Suite Francaise by Irene Nemirovsky. A bit depressing. No surprise there. It was suppose to be a 5 part novels but the authors only manage to finish it up to only 2 part (Storm in June & Dolce) before being deported to Auschwitz and died there later (reportedly of typhus). It was an interesting read. It was not an autobiography such as Anne Frank written things on war such as hope and human characters. Its a novel. I could say... a novel about disillusionment of people or how people behave when in wars. I was always fascinated to read about World War II. That is truly a world war indeed. The book is something like the author interpretation of what she sees around her. What is more interesting, was in reading the Appendix and Preface. The appendix showed us how the authors plot her stories and characters. In...

People are in an uproar regarding the death of the poor girl. I have nothing to say more. Those who know me personally, know I have a lot to say regarding this topic since I do think education and protection and campaign on child safety is the utmost importance and a cause I believe in and would like to contribute to , but for this blog.. it would serve no purpose to add more soundbites. Just let's not chalk this up as another tragedy and hope crimes on children can be lessened. I also do hope that those who are foaming at the mouth regarding this, would not completely forget about this a week later and the next time they see a child alone, unsupervised, or in a potentially dangerous situation, to not just give casual remarks on their blogs as something to write about. It feel ... weird to write a cheerful thoughts on the next paragraph considering the depravity and gravity of the past week discovery. So I am just gonna end my post here.

Fall! Oncoming! Oy. Why should I care? Malaysia weather condition is either raining, hazy or super hot. There is 1 thing to look forward tho. Brand new series and the start of a new season. My computer is groaning under the weight of Prison Break (which start next week btw and which I don't watch anymore..), Ugly Betty, Shark, Grey's Anatomy, Friday Night Lights and Heroes. Not to mention... Medium, Supernatural and House which I had been collecting. And let's briefly remembered the newly deceased series which I loved, Veronica Mars and Gilmore Girls. Just look at the list above. Isn't that just... amazing... On how much free time I have in my hands to watch them all. {slightly hysterical} Are you freakin kidding me? Free time? What free time? Do you know that I timed carefully in watching my series and try to squeeze in as many as possible even berus gigi pon sambil tgk series. Ehem. Ok maybe not in that extreme.. but some people are amazed on how many actually I watc...

Where do I start? Let me kick it up with the more important things in my life first and then we go on eh.. So everybody.. well basically most people in the workplace and my family are asking, what happened to the new job? Frankly I am sick of talking it out anymore. I had just literally talk myself hoarse last week, explaining to my supervisors (including ex-previous), recapping it to interested colleagues and recapped the recapping to other interested parties. The whole goss is like this, got the offer from previous company, need to get some clarifications and some details that are needed to make the whole deal works from existing company (which I had persistently asked from several parties without any satisfactory answer), which then existing company totally ignore and even was insulted to own face. Therefore unable to give any definite answer to previous company offering job, initial great offer was reduce to just blergh OK offer which will set me back with serious debts, so had to ...

Bulan puasa and of course Raya is nearing. And unlike you guys.. I am not that thrilled on Raya. Maybe because the possibilities of getting a long holiday is null and money low. But at least there will be Soto. Eiii.. Soto. Cis.. puasa belom lagi.. dah pikir food untuk Raya. Tsk~ Anyway, I am feeling rather uninspired today. Maybe because with all the hoopla and delay with my company HR. Stoopiid. I couldn't be bothered to bother them today. I will storm in tomorrow. I hate unresolved issue. But I usually make it worse by procrastinating that unresolved issue. If it is a particularly bothersome and needs lengthy explanation and tedious work... I will prolong it even more. Not good. But hey.. I did try my sub par best and if the other party is also a procrastinator, its like a long drawn battle. So.. I am bored.. And I do not feel like typing any original thoughts today. Since I rarely nowadays menjadi poser by posting in the Friendster bulletin boards the personality test/revealers...

Well.. its the 31st of August. Midnight I'm working yet again. Sounds familiar... yeah.. that's me. Workaholic. Gah! Sangat! Before this I joined in Vincent's various Kemerdekaan campaigns. This year, he couldn't be bothered, nor can I. My previous posts regarding Malaysia, were always positive. I cringed hearing the negative thus I couldn't bear to write it down. I hate the thoughts that my beloved country is so full of flaw and our countrymen are sometimes foolish. I don't know if its a part of growing up or does current generations are so inclined to blame everything but themselves. Looking around, I saw lackadaisical attitudes of our people, the blatant corruptness on our politicians part in managing our country, the disparaging remarks hurled from one races to another and wonder if by growing up meant we only saw the ugly side of society. So I try to push those thoughts away.. thinking our country is not bad. But really... I love reading other peoples blog...

I am still thinking. Time is running out..

Am definitely a cinema go-ers movie freak. Last week, I watched 2 movies. One was Rise: Blood Hunter and the other Ratatouille. I am forever captivated by B grade (and some C) movies. There is just something on horrors B movie that make it fun to watch. Remembered Critters? Gremlins? The Blob? The Thing? Oh.. the glory of those movies are vast forgotten by those who thinks they are so great to deem only watching Oscar nominated movies. Hihihi... I sound so superficial. Whatever. I love watching Oscar nominated movies too.. but boy. They sure are depressing. Anyway as for Rise, as far as bad movies goes. It is bad. Enough said. I don't know if its the acting. I had watched far worse acting in blockbuster movies, and this are not that bad. But I think it is maybe the script. Have a sense of humour la (Slap scriptwriter senseless with their own scripts). I am finding myself incredibly bored and yet truly captivated with all the gore. Is the movie a complete gore fest for you gore love...

This is a good old fashioned rant. So to hell with all english, bm yg molek dan tah hape2. Damn it la. Apekah bodoh.. apekah sialnye.. apekah sungguh cilakernye.. apekah apekah apekah. Aku rase dalam sebulan mesti 3 MC ko amik. Harap badan je besa. Takkan antibodi lemah macam budak ingusan yang baru lps baik ciken pox. Ape ko ingat kite org suke ganti ko? Ape ko ingat ko ni spesel sgt sampai sume org sronok je la nk ikut kehendak ko? Ko taw tak aku keje lebey masa ni... sebab ko la ni. Aku dh la weng, mengantuk, rase macam nk pukul ko. Kena stay la kat opis sampai tgh malam. Pastuh bukannye aku dapat OT pon. Memang ikut suke kepala aku, balik je la kan. Tapi kalo ape2 hal, yang kena bukan ko kan. Semestinye la kan. Mesti sume org jugak yg kena sound. Cam sial. Damnit la. Sume ni.. salah sape. No need to answer .. already know la kan. I swear to God. If you are in front of me right now, not only a piece of my mind la kan.. memang dah resort to physical violence. Pastuh.. pastuh pastuh.....

This blog maybe under construction. I want to change something small, but coding sucks. And I sucks at coding. So it can take a while. So in the mean time you may see the template change to a basic one and praps after a while nothing will changed if I am dissatisfy. Update: Malas laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Pastuh sejuk plak tuh. Pastuh byk keje. Laters kut I will changed it. Yawn....

A group of kids hanging around a particularly shady trees. One boy wearing khakis short and a print shirt was heard.. " Eiii.. Aku tak suke la die ni. Kalau die gemok... aku boleh la ejek die gemuk, " " Mane boleh ejek die gemok. Die tak gemok.. " A girl in polka dot dress is addressing him on being politically correct. " Hah! Takper! Jom kite pikirkan ape yang kite boleh ejek die.. ",the boy was pointing to a dejected small looking girl in floral dress. The girl in a polka dot dress seems fiercely protective of the little girl and put her arms around the little girl shoulder. " Tak baik taw ejek die. Die kecik lagi... die bukan tau ape pon. " Rolling sounds of thunder seems to drown the voices of the kids. The next thing that was heard is an indistinguishable voices of the group of kids but the unmistakable tone of jeering and taunting that was hurled to the poor little girl. A group of kids is now pointing and laughing around the small girl and...

Right. Reading Effi's blog , I am a bit bleak myself. The weather is not helping too ok. Totally get why he's feeling left out. There's nothing to talk about. Its the Merdeka month. But I couldn't be bothered. Yet another day that I will be working. While others youth are wasted, beers spilling from their glasses and yelling "Merdeka!", you can bet your life on it that I will be in front of this computer, contributing to the national well-being of Malaysia's economy. So that's me being patriotic and shut up about Merdeka and patriotism. It comes to a point.. when I shopped for any new clothes or makeup ... I am thinking..what's the point. I rarely go out to meet my friends. Most of them are too busy and of course working on shifts where usually I need to work on Saturday and Sunday had now made me to be a very lonely hermit. My friends from work usually hang out in a faraway place where I couldn't be bothered to drag my ass out there. Hurmph. ...