3rd boy born

Alhamdulillah selamat lahirkan my 3rd boy. 

So on the 5th of June checked myself into PCMC around 10pm. My surgery is scheduled for 7 am the next day. We put Saif at my sister and Aziz and his father stay with me. 

Since it is confirmed that I am undergoing c-section, not much hassle and bother. CTG machine was only put on me once at 11pm and another at 5 am the next day, to make sure I do not have any contractions. Malam tu boleh pulak la aku sakit kepala and berak2, but not too bad. 

So by 7 am dah kena tolak to dewan bedah. Not sure if I mentioned it before, but my gynae for this pregnancy is Datuk Dr Aziz. And I am glad for this pregnancy amik die because he is excellent. But I am getting ahead of myself. Anyway, husband cannot come into dewan bedah because Aziz is with him. So it is just me. 

The last 2 full pregnancy, I had been put into epidural. This time, they gave me a spinal tap, so it was given dekat OT. And boy was my head spinning, manage to puke myself. Ahhh... I always puke during surgery. Confirmed dah ni. 

Anyway it didn't take long at all. I think we started around 7.19 am and then by 7.53 baby dah keluar. Kali ni I don't feel drowsy. More curious at what's going on. Can hear when they slice my stomach and smells something like burning flesh jugak. Horrifying. I am glad I can't see. 

When they finally pulled out the baby, I can hear immediately his gurgling cries. He won't stop crying and when they cleared out the liquid , lagi lah bergema OT dengan nangis die. Even the anesthetist remarked "Semangatnye yang ni " . 

After that it was pretty standard, stitched me up, baby taken to nursery, then post recovery. Last time I was in post recovery, I just got a blanket, and I was shivering so bad, right until several hours after c-section. This time I think ade new procedure, so they put some kind of hot air blower in between the blanket, and my shivering subside and no shivers after they wheeled in me in my room! Yeay! 

The baby is wheeled after 2 3 hours. Sedap tido gamaknye dalam nursery. He had problem latching on the first day but afterwards drink like a little trooper. 

Oh the baby? 

Fresh from oven gitu. Gambar amik sendiri sebab still stuck onto bed. He looked so much like Aziz that when the paeds first shown me the baby, I immediately said "sebijik aziz". 

Anyway, I stay at the hospital until Friday. This time post op recovery is kinda great. By the 2nd day can get out of bed and out of the urine tube. This time, the c section wound does not hurt so much. The cramping / post contractions is a bitch though. I swear I cried once. 

Datuk Aziz said since this is my c-section, I needed stitches rather than glue like the last 2. Also he mentioned, if I decided on the next child, the next c-section have to be my last. My ovary is kinda messed up from the last surgeries, seems like it is sticking with the stomach lining and other things. Datuk Aziz said to not eat any herbal supplements or anything that promote speedy recovery. The recovery should happen naturally. Huh. If only I knew this on my first kan. Heh. 

2 weeks after my c section, the stitches is healing great. Better than the previous one. I can move freely pain free ( if I do not push myself) and I don't feel as bloated as before either. Anyway, we will see how post recovery gonna be. 

As for the baby himself, he is doing great. We did his circumcision on the 2nd day, and the ring had just come off yesterday. Pusat masih lagi ade. It is a bit weird sebab the clamp fell off but some bits of tali pusat tu ade lagi. Have to continue to see. And if it bugs me too much, I can always ask my sis. 

I think dah cukup panjang kut. Will continue to write about the baby later. He is breastfeeding well and sleeping well. I am still trying to juggle the kids, the baby and the house. 

Later. Also selamat berpuasa and menjalani ibadah di malam2 terakhir ni. 

Selamat Beribadah di Ramadhan

I think I do it well enough if its a short burts sorta entry. 

- Tomorrow Ramadhan, and sahur pon aku taknak masak. Hey... I had never been a sahur type of person before but also realized am like 37 weeks pregnant so have to have sustenance. Also I can't move around too much without feeling like my water gonna broke and I am going to go into labor. 

- My surgery is scheduled around next week. I am nervous. 

- Still have a lot of things to be prepared. At least baju dah basuh. Tomorrow basuh mittens and booties and towel. Then sterilize bottle and breast pump. Then kemas barang. Need to also kemas baju for my kids. So many stuffs still need to be done. 

- I am tired all the time. 

- I don't know how I am gonna handle 3 kids without my husband being around most of the time. Don't know, don't know pon... kena lah get through it. LOL. 

- Baby is active and kicking around now. Probably happy her mom is drinking horlicks. Funny how when I was little I hate horlicks with all my might, up to my 20s. Then kids came and pregnancy and breastfeeding came, it is either Milo ( which I can get sick of quite easily) or Horlicks for my hot drinks. Horlicks win most of the time, and bile this pregnancy almost a daily thing. 

- Realized ever since I quit I haven't been updating much. Pity. I haven't even blogged about my trip to Cambodia though to be fair, I went pretty much the same route as the last visit. Probably will do like a short update... tahun depan? LOL. 

- Most probably I am gonna be updating after I got my baby. Kalau rajin maybe I pop in just a little earlier just to gloat I got everything ready. 

- And yes, this Ramadhan is gonna be tough, what with the kids not schooling, me going into czer operation soon and being listless most of the time. Maybe it is a good time to reflect on why I am feeling like this and what I can do to be better spiritually. 

- Tadek mood nak masak, tadek mood nak usha sgt pasar Ramadhan also. How now? Mesti price pasar Ramadhan gile saiko what with everything going up nowadays. 

Selamat berpuasa to my readers. 

Bersiaran dari Gleneagles

This time it is Aziz again who have to be warded due to lymphadenitis.

Gambar on the first day at the ward before Saif kena shipped off to my sis.

He mentioned it to me last Friday he said his tengkuk sakit and the right side of his face I then noticed looks a bit swollen. Bawak to klinik biasa but the doctor have no idea and probably suggested might be mumps.

By Monday it had become more swollen looking and decided a visit to the paeds is necessary. Just to make sure if its really. So it is not mumps though it look like it and the paeds want to be cautious and decided to ward him so a steady course of antibiotics can be given using iv. A bit relief not mumps too because I never had mumps and not looking forward having the risk of it infecting others and pregnant me.

A bit harried gak because husband not around. Have to send Saif to my sister. Poor boy. And hVe to ask someone to come the first and third day to look after Aziz while I have to dash home to take care of stuffa. Today is day 4 at the hosp. But we can be discharged tomorrow so yeay! My poor cats jugak kesian. Asked my sis maid to bagi makan and already send a big basket of laundry to dobi. Maybe I will ask someone to come in next week to clean the house.

Anyway.. it is not so bad this hospital stay. Bored je la. Finish 2 books and reading the third one. Aziz is non stop asking for stuffs to buy at the kedai bawah hospital ni. Though I miss Saif but so far he is doing fine. Aziz also dah besar and he is not stuck to an iv drip so his mood is mostly jovial. Mcm holiday at hotel. Except for the cramped hospital bed and waking up every 3 4 hrs when temp needed to be taken. Lol.


Oklah. Need to wipe my kid down. 

Kids and baby

Hola. 

Masa ni adik buli abang, abang cry, so we asked him to mintak maaf and hug. See Aziz tear stained face.

Let's start with the littlest baby update first. He is OK. Insya Allah. Currently 26 weeks. Baru lepas jumpa gynae and my weight shot up 3 kg, terus kena warning kena cut down makan sikit. LOL. (tapi i tak rase i makan banyak pon).....

Anyway oh I did update the baby in the womb is a he. We are gonna have 3 boys! Husband picit kepala je la. I have to admit I was a little disappointed but to be honest, not too disappointed. I was prepared for a life of all boys in the family if it comes to that, so I am happy either way. There is a little longing to shop for cute things but I have nieces for that. 

As for Saif, he is becoming a handful. I don't know if it is the middle child syndrome ke ape but he not as easy to handle as Aziz. If we open Youtube for him ( if he found one of our old functioning phone we keep on to keep the kids entertained if needs be), he will be so transfixed and addicted. If we took it away he become so tantrumy and shouty and needy that we decided to just hide all the gadgets. Thank God the kids already know their own parent phones are off limit so we don't have that hurdle yet. Other than that, he is also a little bit more messy, a little more selective hearing and a little more destructive than his brother. 

I also think because he is so cute, he can get away with so much at school. We are still finding ways how to punish him effectively, so there are a lot of trial and error to see what works. Also my husband found out that Saif called himself 'Baba'. We have no idea where he gets it from, maybe at school or if he likes Puffin Rock that much or he likes Babar the Elephant story. Who knows. But he refers to himself Baba. Sometimes outright refused to acknowledge his own name. Kecik kecik dah make own stand. I asked Aziz why his little brother called himself Baba , Aziz said " Sebab Adik suke jadi baby." Maybe jugak. Who knows. Aziz the only one who can translate what his brother wants bile Saif cakap tak clear. 

As for Aziz, well we had just settled the pendaftaran and pengesahan sekolah for the darjah 1 intake in 2019. Sometimes when he consoled his brother I felt like he is really big, and bile daftar tu, I still can't believe it he is gonna start school. Not soon , but imminent! He is really excited because his cousins all goes to that school so we will see how that day goes, in 2019. 

As for the now, he is very interested in his littlest brother. Always asking when doctor is gonna cut open mommy punye perut. I was a bit relieved I akan kena czer just for the small mercy, I don't have to explain yet baby come out from 'down there'. To him the logical way for now is for doctor to cut his mother open. 

Apart from that, perangai wise, he is a dream most of the time. A bit lazy when it comes to study, but I malas push. I seen that he knows his number and jawi, but alphabet still a bit weak. Haih. Let's see how la kan. Mostly interested nak main or tengok Netflix. 

Oklah nak tido. Main candy crush dulu. Dan sedikit wordament. Then tido. 

Google Pixel - User POV

So ever since I heard that Google want to make a phone, I was like super excited. Most of the people I know have a hard on for Iphone, but I looked at Iphone, tried it and like nah.

Though I am not really the really fanatical Android user who rooted their phone. I used to consider rooting my phone because I don't get why some UI is so limiting. I mean, we bought the phone and own the phone, why are you developers so anal about letting users have more control over our phone?

I think after the inclusion of China made phones have changed the industry a lot, and their anal control issues gets a bit looser. Also most of them started to lose out the shitty heavy UI that is integrated into their phone, to differentiate their phone from others but just make me moan and sigh on why are my phone so laggy.

Ok. I did not mean to go on and on about how Android had evolved to the better nowadays.

Anyway back to the first sentence. Super excited. Listened to the Google execs drone on and on about their miraculous new phone during the launch and was like hopping and hoping when can I get it. They waxed on poetic compliments on how the great the phone is. Then it went live, or being sold to US markets and reviews started to come in. Most are gushing. I was like, when can I get this phone laahhh! But Google is being super laggy like Android of the past in releasing it to other countries. I mean the only Asian country they released it to, for now is India. Sheeesh.

My husband knows how much I want it, and after much protestations on my end on how much it cost bought me one nonetheless. Since it is not still available in Malaysia, he have to buy it in an airport during a layover in Dubai. A complete surprise , I might add. I was just sitting on my couch and he just handed the Pixel case like he bought me chocolates.

Unboxing the Pixel. LOL. ( I think unboxing video is the silliest invention men/women created) .

So been using more than a month now, and here goes my thoughts on it. I think it is only apt to review it my way. Not a tech writer so not gonna spend my time writing on how fast the processor is ( pretty fast ) but more on what I like and don't like about the phone.

Like

- Pretty fast like I said before

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- Pretty good camera. Got a lot of cool function . Esp like the panorama function, the 360 function and the blur function.

Trying out the blur function. Lapar pulak tengok bihun tomyam

Edited: A larger panorama view of my messy bookcase. A purge is needed soon

- I like how it is so pleasing to hold. I don't get carpal tunnel much, The phone also feels sleek, and don't feel cheap. (well, it better don't feel cheap. Mahal kut), Though I might add husband bought me the Pixel biasa, not the XL. Not sure how nice that feels.

- Battery while not phenomenal, is pretty damn good. It can last in a reasonable amount of time. Pokemon Go can be played without battery draining like running water.

- Since my old phone do not have the fingerprint function yet, I was very impressed with this fingerprint unlock phone thingy. The Pixel one places it at the back, which I like because it is so much more user friendly that way and , yes it is quite fast to unlock too.

The back of the Pixel is very distinctive. Fingerprint unlock at the back

- The unlimited photo and video storage offered by google when backed up into the google drive/space . I had run out of my Dropbox and was afraid the same is gonna happened to my Google drive so this. is. a . godsend.

- Does not overheat. All my previous phones have tendency to heat after playing games or while charging. Haven't experienced this yet with my Pixel.

Dislike

- Can't really handle too many apps being opened. I kept on forgetting to close. And if you open a really heavy app while there are a lot of apps running at the back, it can hang a bit or the app may crash.

- The ringtone being offered is very limited and soft sounding to my liking. I have to download another ringtone I guess. Havent try that out.

- The speaker is at the bottom and do not rock my world enough. It is reasonably loud, but I was used to my Oppo that have really loud volume.

Can't think of more to add. All in all, I am pretty satisfied and I love my new phone. 

Books I have read. Shorty short reviews.

I havent been reading as much as I like. I also found out my cat peed on the bottom part of my bookcase. So that is gonna be a hassle. I have to rethink what I am gonna place at the bottom of bookcase.

Anyway, despite that. I had been reading some. And also I like to keep my reading reviews updated because sometimes I forgot which book I had read.

Below are the shorty short reviews. I could not be arsed to provide a synopsis.

The Convenient Marriage by Georgette Heyer
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

It started off charming but then the heroine loses my goodwill after a while. She continues to be silly and it exasperates me.

An ok read. But not something I am gonna pick up again.

Sprig Muslin by Georgette Heyer
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

It is a delight that this time the plucky little girl did not catch the aging bachelor eyes. A bit better than the other book I had read ( A Convenient Marriage).

It is more of an adventure of one girl and her benevolent guardian who then inexplicably fallen for the slightly dowdy spinster ( 30 year old, but we lived in different time where there were no BB cream then).

Tolerable read, tolerable characters, manage to delight sometimes, and does not make me roll my eyes.

A Long, Long Time Ago and Essentially True by Brigid Pasulka
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

For this book, there is basically 2 era where the stories are told. I picked up the book because I liked the title, and thought it was a fairy tale sorta story. But it is a story of war, family, struggles and identity.

It does not dig into your mind, but somehow at the end you appreciate how the narrative is told, how love endures, how humanity somehow prevails.

A beautiful unexpected book. A good read.

Map of the Invisible World by Tash Aw
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

I had heard good things about the author and since he is a Malaysian writer, I am like, ok I am picking this up.

As for the book, it feels a little underwhelming. Basically told of an orphan being swept up during the politics of time during Sukarno era.

I found no fault of the writing. It draws you in, but when it comes to the character, I felt as readers we are kept at bay. Only Margaret seems to offer us a glimpse into her inner turmoil. Others are like canvas. Looked at, wondered at, but don't really understand. Not sure if that is the motive.

The pacing of the book is well thought of, and the ending while abrupt to me, seems somehow OK. It did feels like we are leaving a lot of other stories behind untell though.

Me Before You by Jojo Moyes
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

A lot of people roll their eyes at this story. I think people in my Twitter TL is calling it as a first world problem. Heh.

Hey, a first world problem is still a problem. I find that I like the book. I think it depict the characters nicely, everybody is layered even the shallow one. I did found the heroine eccentricities in clothes somewhat annoying. A bit too manic pixie girl, which Louisa did not need. However as story goes, it is unbelievable, but I am there for the ride and the good time was good. The sad part is somewhat clumsily conveyed to me. Ain't feeling it, but not bad lah.

Overall, a pretty good book. Not exactly a fun light read, but it is a light read and a page turner.

After You by Jojo Moyes
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

So ... this book picked up about a few months after Will died.

It was not a fun, nice feeling you will have as the first book. This book mainly deals with Louisa grief and how she coped with her grief. However I find this more believable. I find her more relatable in this book than the other.

Not as page turner-ish as the first, need to push self through, but then when Louisa is more sure of herself, I find myself liking to read the book more.

The Girl You Left Behind by Jojo Moyes
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

This book also told a story from 2 different time. One of a woman from a portrait who lived during the first world war and the present, a woman who owned a portrait of the first woman mentioned earlier.

I liked the first woman stories better, probably because it feels like there is a lot of stories to be told during Germany occupation of France during the first world war. The second woman, who lived in the now, seems colder to me. Maybe because she seems to be enveloped in the loss of her husband, but her story and she herself seems to be cold. But I feel like this is intentional.

Summary: A good book. Barely can put it down. Ending is a bit meh to me, but not unexpected.

The Urge to Jump by Trisha Ashley
My rating: 1 of 5 stars

I don't know if I can categorize it as romance, but it does seems to be the main plot, but the heroine, Sappho is so very into her world and her thoughts that there are barely enough for any other living thing, even a cat.

I like her matter of fact-ness and assured-ness attitude. Very refreshing. Though it seems like all of her friends, lover and even her place of living is eccentric. I can't stand the eccentricities. It also feels like there is barely a story contained in this book.

She maybe portrayed better as tv series perhaps, but a book, it feels a little stretchy.

The Red Queen by Philippa Gregory
My rating: 1 of 5 stars

Can I classify it as historical romance? Bah.

Anyway, it is now midnight, I am sleepy, and I don't feel like this book deserved a lengthy review.

The book is plodding.

The main character is piously stupid, calculating, devoid of any feelings. It makes it hard to read y'all.

No one seems to like Margaret Beaufort, and the absence of even a brief lover is not making her endearing to any one. Even her son seems to view her as a statue to be looked upon, but perhaps just made of stone, with nothing worthy in its filling.

Plodding, weird change of narrative voice at the end, I guess because the writer need to write the battles and can't easily put Margaret as narrator. Even at the end of her own book, she seems... undeserving.

2nd trimester now

.. but still feeling pukey. Sad indeed. However it is not so bad. It is no longer 24 hour agony session. More like it comes and goes at all hours. But it is not too bad compared to a few weeks ago. I can eat at least. Though still have to choke back down vomit a couple of times a day. Disgusting I know. But better than puking all out and crying afterwards. Vomit and crying goes hand in hand. 

Maybe need to give it a couple or more weeks before I can feel fully like myself. My sister is like, why are you not cooking, but the thing is even looking at the kitchen, I can feel bile coming up. Terrible. 

So to list out all of the things I feel pukey around -

• The smell of grass and fresh earth mixed around. Holy crap this is the worst. 
• Cat pee. (and the stray cats who keep spraying around not making this any easier)
• Detergent and soap smells except for precious few I can abide by. So I can't smell my freshly laundered clothes without feeling like tearing my clothes away. MaxKleen is cool so been using that now. 
• Air Freshener. Husband had given up on this. Scented candle is ok if not excessive. 
• Teh O. I can't drink it. If I did, then I will feel a major urge to puke. The aftertaste is blergh. 
• Sausage. Even the smells of sausage I can't stand. 
• The taste of ginger. So that tips the internet keep on giving that ginger can helps. Hah! 
• The usual strong smelling food being cooked itself. Bau food court anyone? Gah! 

The things I can abide/or make me feel better are: 

• Milk or anything milky drink. If I am feeling pukey, this makes it ok. Which is weird, because people usually avoid milk in fear of puking. 
• Very cold icey drinks. But this is normal kan. 
• Have to eat nasi consistently or the next day, I will get a massive puke feeling. Baby ni penuh demand. 
• Chewing gum consistently. 
• Minyak kapak FTW. I tried all sorts of oil, but minyak kapak is the best reliever so far. 
• Hearing music at loud volume. It kinda takes the mind away. Tgk movie pon tak sebegitu. 

Ok lahhh.. Itu aje. For the baby, nothing to update. I hope he or she is well, healthy in spite of my earlier unable to eat prenatal pills phase. Be strong baby. You need it to face your 2 abang. 

I should be writing something

I should. Maybe it should be of my trip to Siem Reap which was great. But I am much too blergh to write. 

Because I am now 10 weeks pregnant with the worst case of morning sickness I had ever experience. 

Warning: Just puke related complain ahead.

I had morning sickness when I was carrying the 2 boys before. But this one.... this one takes the cake. I hope this baby is the best baby who would grow up to be the best person ever because you are putting mommy through the wringer here. ( I want to say hell, but there are plenty of mothers who are going through difficult health problems while carrying their baby... so yes, not actual hell yet). However this is my space to complain so I shall complain. 

I was elated to find out I was pregnant because I really want a third and I feel like it is better 2 or 3 years apart among siblings. So Yeay. It also means I had put off finding jobs because going to interview while holding the need to puke is not exactly appealing to anyone. So saya berserah je la. I am glad that I did quit however and then got pregnant because the constant need to puke is incredible and the guys in office probably wouldnt like it hearing that. Also it would be unpleasant. 

Previousl pregnancies, morning sickness started during evening. Now it is all the freaking time. Immediately after I eat, immediately after I open my eyes. No smell is nice. I hate the smell of food. I hate the smell of my kitchen. I can't go near my kitchen without feeling like I have to puke now and there. 

Kesian to my husband who now have to pick up the slacks because I can't do anything much except sit or lie down. I am hoping when second trimester comes it would be easier. Please let it be easier!. And of course here's hoping the baby is healthy because momma can't seem to hold down much liquid. I loathe to skip folic acid, so I tried to take em even though most of the time I have to puke everything out before I can sleep. 

Well.. then. Maybe after the morning sickness over I can then post more. Here's hoping. 

Next update I hope I will be less complaining. 

Say something

It had been a while. Was I busy? I guess I was... anyway, keep trying to update but then there are other things to do.

What I had been up to? House chores I guess. Going to classes. Oh yeah, I quit my job. The commute is terrible. And I feel like it is too demanding a bit, especially those late night and frantic phone calls whenever my kids are sick. So I am kinda a housewife. I don't say I love it, but I don't hate it also. Been trying to find suitable job but it is hella difficult. Also I am a bit picky. LOL.

I have to be because I got some limitations. But I don't feel like explaining why I quit my job because holy hell aint people judgmental about that. I mean not like me not having a job is gonna affect these people with opinions, but that does not stop them from expressing it. So I dont feel like saying it in FB especially because you know how FB can be like. IGs is a place for my cats so that is not really applicable.

My friends knew, well some, but I am not exactly announcing it. I am announcing it here, because I feel like if I don't say it ..it kinda hold back on the things I want to babble about in a blog.

So what I had been doing... actually apart from housework, I had been doing something else, but I ain't feel like like say.

I will post again. Will be going to Siem Reap soon, so we got that to look forward to in a blog.Heh. 

Mini splurge at the Popular Warehouse Book Sale

This year instead of the BBW sale, I much more antcipated this Popular Warehouse Sale because it is cheaper. RM5 instead of RM8 the usual in BBW . Like the previous year it was held in Vivo Home Shopping Mall . 

Went there on Thursday night, spent about an hour. Dont get to browse much because I was tired . And the rows of books are like these. 

The Popular Warehouse Sale do not have such a wide range of bestsellers normally seen at BBW, but maybe I don't really have the time to dig through. However one thing I like about the Popular Warehouse sale, there is some pretty good stationery and some toys. 

Was thrilled to find the lapdesk, which is around RM24 I think, because I was looking for something similar since I am now using my husband old Surface and the Surface needs a pretty sturdy flat surface for me to use it properly with a keyboard, bought some toys for the kids. The Hot Wheels cost RM10.99 for 2. 

Also bought a magnetic board , not pictured. 

My books, counted about 17 minus a recipe book on biskut raya . Heh. I already have Mansfield Park, but this hardback edition is pretty nice. Most of these books are unknown to me, so finger crossed I find a gem.

Aziz books , which is all he chose for himself. He chose The Eating Monster book for Saif. Satu je buku untuk Saif. LOL. 

Oh and those wanting to go, it is still on till this Sunday. Don't expect the BBW range of books and cara susunan, but you may find what you want and the kids book and stationery is a steal. 

Harry Potter and the Misunderstood Child

Yes the title is different, but this feels more apt lah

Everyone was clamoring for this book when it first came out. But then silence. No gushes on how good it was or "shit..  so Ron/Harry/Snape/Hermione do whatevs". 

Now the summary is, it is set just before Albus Snape Potter started his Hogwarts year. He befriended Draco's son. And basically dark forces are still in play even though the good side had win, thus Harry as the Head of the Magical Law Enforcement had his hands full. He also have quite a strained relationship with Albus . So the story is mostly centered on Albus. 

As for the review... let just say, this is not a book. This is a screenplay because JK Rowling I guess feels like the other people who can't go to London to see their play also deserved to know the story. Which is kinda true. So the book feels bare-boned and without a soul. 

It delighted me that Albus went to Hogwarts but it also makes me yearn for all those description about Hogwarts which makes the Harry Potter book and world so engrossing. Which is why I finished it around 2 or 3 weeks. It just feels meh. I meant it was interesting to know what the characters that we love so much end up doing but it doesn't feel like the Harry Potter books that I know. Even the Hermione, Ron and Harry voice does not feels like their voice. I guess the screenplay kinda like stripped it down a bit. 

I wish we gets a book with more description on it, but I guess we have to keep on wishing because JK Rowling mentioned this is the last Harry Potter books she will write. 

Those who loves the little descriptions in the Harry Potter books will probably get this, because we are a little bit obsessed. But at the same time, maybe a Wikipedia summary of the book will suffice too , yeah, that is a little mean, but it does feels like it. 

We will just have to content ourselves with rereading the Harry Potter series then to immerse in the Harry Potter world. 

p/s : I am super excited for Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them. Feels like a Harry Potter for adult. 

Saif and Aziz update of sort

First of all I wanna start with the Raya of 2016 updates. What the eff la Dils, raya is like ages ago. Buttt... well, nothing special pon, though I manage to wake up late masa raya which pissed off my husband, huhu, stress tul. But no worries afterwards lepas tu ok je. 

I aint feeling like uploading one Raya pic because there is no decent ones except of the kids and those are in FB so biar lah. But masa raya ke 3 tu, we went to Kluang to visit some relatives and came back with these cute bicycle. 

Aziz is not thrilled that he have to kayuh beca for his baby brother. Anyway, the bicycle is safe enough but I was upstairs when it happened , it seems like around 10 pm after we finish beraya and the kids are still hyped up , they were playing downstairs and heard suddenly Saif cried like I never heard before. You know the difference la kan, if your kid nangis jatuh sebab sakit, or nangis sebab something is like seriously wrong.

So it seems like somehow when trying to get down from the bicycle he fell and hit his head on the sharp edge of the wall. And at first there seems to be a lot of blood which scared me because he is still a baby. 

Off we went to the clinic and then to the hospital. Left Aziz at my mom which Aziz was sad about, but cheered up when we opened his favorite show. So berkampung la us 3 at the emergency up til 3 am. The wound was cleaned up and options was given. Alhamdulillah nothing is wrong and the cut walaupon a bit deep but small so he don't need any stitches. Just let it heal naturally and not shower his head for 5 days. Masam betul la kan. 

He was crying piteously for mommy here. Kesian baby boy.

Also I just now realized I didnt do a "Hey Aziz is 4" post. This is why I am not a top mommy blogger, 

Anyway he is now 4. And I realized he is plenty of smart, kind and basically a very lovely boy. A bit loopy sometimes and have a tendency to tune people out if he is concentrating on something. Like his fav tv show. 

I decided to just send birthday cake to his school and make party packs to his class and nursery. 

I ordered his birthday cake from my sister friend. I like her cakes and I know she can do drawings so she did this. Maybe it is not so grammatically correct but eh.. ok je. I tanye Aziz sedap ke tak die jawab off topic. So who knows. Haha. But he was excited to see this cake sebab die cakap nak kek Iron Man so Iron Man la die dapat. I dont opt for the edible image because Aziz hated those edible image. I think Jaja ( the baker) did a pretty good job too. 

And the party packs, amongst the chocolates and raisins and candies, I also put in those cheap Marvel superhero coloring books with cheap color pencils, and printed an iron man mask for the kids for them to play around. 

Printed and pasted it onto the box , kekonon ikut theme.

Also buat some queen cakes or some might know as fairy cake. Kinda like a cupcake, but more lighter version .

I had just learned that making icing is hella easy. 

Party packs ke nursery. Class lain . 

This is the class sebab class punye ade buku kaler. Huhu. 

Anyway, majlis die pon time masa jamuan hari raya so that I don't have to do things twice and more kids get to enjoy cake. He was pretty happy about it and I don't ask for pics because eh.. I dont mind. He is tickled that he came also also with a bag and said somebody gave him coloring books and colour pencils. Which he lost immediately. Sigh. I hope the other kids enjoy the coloring books though. 

Whats in a name

I am checking the name list of past and present employees in my company currently.

There are 16k of them. This is a sucky job.

Anywayy.. it does gives me a glimpse on how we Malaysians name their kids..

1. So many A. So many name start with As .

2. Not enough C.

3. Someone name their son Awie. Peminat rock kapak.

4. There is also a someone who name their kid Erra Fazira ( a somewhat different spelling so I am being a p&c here to not divulge the full name). Maybe Erra and Awie should meet.

5. There are way too many Danial and its variantions in Malaysia. And Fariz. And Farah.

6. Short names are the best.

Also when Aziz need to be in a hospital before, I was very very thankful that I have a very short name. It gets so very tiring filling up so many forms. 

This had been too long

Will jot down more. Because will seriously have more time later on.

Now off being busy. Yeuch. 

A somewhat malas update.

Selamat Berpuasa. 

I may need to start taking vitamin. After the rotavirus, I am now down with flu/demam, who knows. 

Traffic is horrendous. 

Buka puasa yesterday was a feat in itself as I reached home near 7pm dan bile azan baru I masak dengan terketar2 because I am sick. 

Hence today no cooking. Beli lah ape2 kat bazaar. 

But not puasa-ing anyway because my period came early during the 3rd day of puasa. At 6.30 pm. 

We went to buka puasa at Thaba Village and they said this year is their last Ramadhan buffet. T_T 

Last weekend I was at the computer table next to the printer. Saif sidled up next to me, open up the printer output tray , take out a sliced bread I remember giving them the the previous weekend and start eating it. And I saw in the printer tray there is another bread. OMG. I can't stop laughing. 

There are currently A LOT of kittens pooping at my yard. The next door kittens. I just tak larat to clean or marah actually.

Rotavirus nightmare

It had been silent for a while because I had been tired.

My husband was out of town for about a month and a few days before he is due back, bile I nk pick up my kids from my sister's house she mentioned that Aziz keeps on puking everything.

Later that night, it was just not him, it was him and his brother. So on Thursday , took an EL and brought them to the hosp. Saif is cheerful even though with the puking and pooping but Aziz is wiped out. Their usual doctors is on leave so brought them to another doctor because I am concerned looking at Aziz who was actually puking at the hospital reception.

Perbezaan tenaga adik dan abang boleh nampak dari segi gaya. 

Doctor believed this might be a rotavirus going around because it seems like there is an epidemic going around at the moment, and have to watch Aziz closely. By the next day he was not any worse but not any better also. So I SMS his doctor and he asked me to bring him to the hospital. Leave Saif at my sister house with an overnight bag because I think Aziz is gonna be warded.

Another day of EL with various people asking when I am going to come back and solved their issue. No sympathy no nothing when I told I am right now admitting my son to the hospital. They just want to know when I am gonna come back and solve their issue. Last straw for me then.

I didn't bring any other stuffs for entertainment except for his dad Iphone which he is bored of in an hour time. Bought this cheap Lego at the hospital mart. He was happy for a couple of hours. Then nangis suh bukak balik iv drip die.

Anyway. He was warded due to rotavirus for a couple of days. Around Saturday evening he was looking very ok and alert so the doctor seems ok to let him go. It was a bit leceh when my husband was not around for a couple of days as they are some missing things, but got my sister to bring it and on Saturday afternoon my husband manage to reach the hospital and give me some respite.

So gi to my sister house kejab to ambik Saif who refused to look at me for about the first 10 minutes because I left him at my sister. Hehe. Comel je merajuk. So played with him for a while and feed him and took him to the hospital for my shift with Aziz pulak. So his father can go back and rest and bawak Saif sekali balik.

So Sunday afternoon la baru dapat discharged. Aziz was well behaved during his stay mostly. A little bit picky, but he always try to listed and ikut what I asked him to do. Masa nak bagi ubat yang tak sedap, I promised him a box of Lego. So he telan 2 syrine of yucky Smecta. By the 3rd syringe, he does not care of any Legos big and small. 

I was dead tired that weekend and not too keen to get back to work knowing all the work piled up. But masuk jugak lah kejer as I am 1 man team basically. Then start on Wednesday tu I was not feeling too well, and Thursday memang all out la cherry berry ( nama comelnye) , got to the doctor on Friday and she agreed that the symptons is consistent with rotavirus so, basically the house is a mess, because of the rotavirus and I am still not 100%. Husband also seems to be down with it but not too bad.

Still trying to puasa though today but I bring a bottle of water just in case if I feel a little faint later on. After all, I timbang myself yesterday, I lost around 4 kg in a couple of days. Gile lah. Imagine the amount of water lost, so yes, I believe this is one of those exception cases where if I really tak larat, it is not advisable to stay puasa.

The house is still a mess, and hopefully, next weekend rolling in , I might make it more live worthy.

Money can't buy everything

So I was ironing some clothes last night while Aziz is watching Phineas and Ferb. Last night episode was where the gangs were travelling to outer space in their rockets. 

So after the episode finished Aziz sidled up to me and said 

"Mommy, Aziz nak roket. Aziz nak naik roket". 

I asked him, " Mana nak cari roket." 

" Mommy pergi lah kedai roket." Ah. To his almost 4 year old brain, everything came ready made in a shop. 

" Tadek orang jual roket, Aziz kalau nak naik rocket kena belajar pandai2, pandai baca, pandai tulis.." 

Well.. couldn't really finish off extremely important life lesson to my first born because he had wandered off to watch tv because if you can't buy it, he is not interested anymore. 

Kami ke Langkawi sat

I was really hankering for a holiday, so we decided on a short one at Langkawi. I have to say it is much too short. Maybe I should have make it longer, but my leave is not that much so macam malas nak amik.

This time we flew to Langkawi by Malindo Air. We got a good deal at around RM500 for all. We decided for just a short 3 days 2 nights. Not enough!

Sobs.

Anyway.

We stay at Frangipani, because I love the Pantai Cenang and Tengah area. It would not bore me to death say if I were to stuck in a big resort and walkable.

We were fortunate that when we arrived, husband requested for Viva and we got an Alza, nasib baik sebab bag besar kut. Campor stroller lagi. Kalau tak terpaksa la kami meriba stroller.

Then we arrived at the hotel and got upgraded from a deluxe room to a garden villa. Soo happy! Because that means the kids can be loud and we don't have to worry so much on the noise. Heh.

We didn't do much. The first day I directly went shopping because I want to get over the shopping first. Kalau tak rase nak shopping je. So on the day we arrived ,  lepak jab kat hotel, then ke Kuah.

Memula macam nak beli Vision, then i pikir and pikir and pikir, I don't see what I want to use it for. I just like the idea that I can use it directly on the stove. So I tuka, kehendak Vision  ke Pyrex because I want an oven proof glassware for my baking needs. Pyrex is a bit too expensive and I found Arcuisine is really cheap and most of the one I seen for this brand is oven safe. I got the sets one where I have 3 rectangular ware with covered lids and one normal ware, at less than RM150. Am happy!

Yang lain2 tu biasa la, coklat and biscuits. Am regretting that I do not buy more of Jules Destrooper biscuits because it seems like.. macam tak banyak biscuits for moi! Sedih. I love that brand biscuits. Simply the best I ever tasted.

Then on the next day we brought the kids for the cable car ride and I am weak hearted and keep on thinking if we were to plunge to our deaths, people would need to pick us in pieces but at least we will die as family. Gile morbid. Haha. The only one yang tak muka pucat naik kabel car adalah Aziz je. Saif memula nak throw tantrum terus senyap peluk bapak die sepanjang in the cable car.

Aziz absolutely loves it up there. 

Budak cuak dalam kabel car. But at least he just stay quiet.

But the geopark at Langkawi was fun. It is gonna be my last time though. Dengan Saif trying to run around at the top of the viewing place , Aziz trying to climb all over the place. My heart just can't take it. I am assured of my own mortality, but when it comes to the kids , it is just so stressful.

After the cable car ride, we want to get on the Duck tour but alas, boat tu rosak lak. So we headed for the Skyrex, where it is a new ride, yang type 6D tu. It is ala if we are stranded in Jurassic World. Super fun! Yang tu Aziz tak suke plak. Heh. Ade one of this animatronic dino kat luar tu. Memula terkujat i , tetiba die gerak. Then bebudak ni campo this one middle eastern looking girl also refused to budge from there. Bile suruh bergambar taknak dekat pulak. 

As for other activities, just mandi manda di laut and swimming pool je. I rase macam I and the kids tak puas lagi main air and pasir at the beach. I also wished I had the time to take up mangrove kayak! Tah ade ke tak stamina. A girl can dream.

He was a bit unsure about all these sands at first.

Then they are having fun

Memula both are not happy being in the sea bile we try to persuade them to basahkan kaki amongst the waves, bile petang turun ke laut, they are ok with the idea, but still not a big fan of waves. Mungkin sebab bile petang ramai orang and the sea seems a bit calmer. Baru la tak ketakutan mandi laut. 

After mandi laut tu, we will let them in the kiddie pool for a while. 

I can't stand it . LOL

Kekonon nak belajar swimming.

Also went for a walk along the Chenang and Pantai Tengah area bile malam tu. And sekarang lagi modernized la situ. A bit too commercialized but a lot of people would like it. Tak boring la jalan situ.


As for tempat makan, I rase ade banyak gile people saying the same thing like Laksa Kaw Ikan Sekoq. As we didn't find anything quite noteworthy to add more, ( and most of it I uploaded in IG pon). Our dinner is a pretty ok seafood dinner. Just went to some random place. Not too bad and I have to say better than say dropping by on some random restaurant in KL. We were planning to go to Wan Thai, however bile sampai fully booked ok. We sampai awal, and there were a lot of empty tables, but all of them are reserved. Heh. So we singgah je mana2 kedai makan.

One of our dinner. Kami tak berapa nak buruk lantak sebab yang makannye 2 orang, perut 2 budak kecik takleh nak amik kira sangat. 

It was a good vacation. Everything went smoothly and no on is making a fuss. Kesian to my husband je la sebab tak boleh nak dine at a nicer place masa birthday die on that first nightat Langkawi, but I ordered a cake from the hotel and the cake is really nice so he ok je I think. Heh.

Anyway rase rugi pulak tak lagi lama. Macam still tak puas holiday la rasenye. Hehehe. 

The Kids

Felt like updating about the kids.

The pic above is taken when I took him for a gym class about a few weeks back. He was crying for a while then warm up when he realized he is having fun. Been meaning to blog about it, but nantilah. 

He is like 95% diaper free. He don't wear diapers in the day, and for about a week or two in the night too. But if the room is a bit cold, he would pee again. So the diaper is on again. 2 steps forward 1 step back. Thats ok. I think he will get there. He can go to the bathroom himself and wash himself too. I had seen how he wash himself and he washes his hands too. Only have to keep reminding him about flushing the toilet. LOL. Such a good boy. 

He is also a good helper. I can mostly count on him to fetch things and he is always wanting to help. And give suggestions freely too. I was thinking of baking cookies and asking him to sort maybe as a first step. I think he will like it. The hindrance of course is baby brother also mahu join kan.. tu disaster sikit la pulak. 

Oh he can also dress himself though he do have problems with buttons and zips. I think a lot of kids his age already can dress themselves but he also seems to enjoy it. 

Obsess on the color orange. He always lament why he doesn't have orange clothes. He used to have a lot tapi dah outgrew la kan, so that baju tu dah diturunkan to his brother. So setiap kali I pakaikan adik die baju oren, die akan bising2 .. "manaaa baju oren Azizz.. Aziz nak baju orennn". So have to start buying orange or yellowish baju again for him. Huhu. 

Bought this pink fat unicorn for him but it seems like it is too big for his tembam legs. Abang die yang pandai main. Rupanye you bounce it around. 

Crankypants ni. Always seems to be crying and being tantrumy around 7pm to 8pm. So I think even after nursery dah bagi makan , it is either not enough or he was distracted to eat much, so nowadays we had started to give him like a heavy supper to eat before his bedtime. Rice ke, or sandwich. Less crying and tantrum during bedtime then. So ok la. 

Like to play hide and seeks with our stuffs. We are constantly missing our stuffs because he likes to take things from the table and then put in various drawers or places or tong sampah. . I had found his keropok lekor in a drawer once.  Always have to look in tong sampah if he threw anything out. 

Can't really speak any discernible language, but he does like to speak his gibberish. Sometimes he does pronounce a clear word or somewhat a word macam "Nah!" or "Nak" I think that are his first words. With me he called "mamamamama". Last week while caressing Brownie yang tengah lounging on the sofa, he suddenly called him "Bobby." Hahaha. So he can call one of the cats name first before calling Mommy or Ayah. 

Brought him to a playground once ( Jumpa Zahid AF dengan wife and anak. Anak die very adorable). Abang die kalau dah jumpa kawan terus totally forgot die ade adik. So have to watch adik die who loves the slide ( who dont!) , Suke gile naik and turun slide. And I don't really hold him because he is now a pro. Another mother pon exclaim tanye " die gi nursery ke.. beraninye" LOL. It is true, but is a child only brave because he is in nursery? Macam kena hantar army training je kat nursery kan. Though then I think Saif got a little bored with sitting down and sliding down, and try to slide standing up. Gah. So have to constantly be on alert. 

One of the nicest part of the day ( or night) is watching these little beasts asleep. I never feel very mother like and I always wondered anew how could I have these 2 boys. 

Home bake (Picture not pinterest worthy!)

It is Friday, and compared to last week Friday, today is a much more mellower Friday. Thus. I like! 

Last Friday was insane. There was an issue of sorts, and then my boss started berating me in front of everybody basically saying I am not doing my jobs in updating stuffs ( which I did, he have selective memory is our running jokes in this office) . 

I was in the midst of updating ( and I am not really feeling to tell the whole story here about the issues, biasa la issues at work kan, lagi2 if dealing with payroll) and he basically stopped me halfway in doing my job, just to vent. All the while he is 'bla bla bla ing' I was thinking... this is not productive at all. So I just stopped him and go somewhere else to get updates. Honestly. Most of the time when he is berating, he just wants to vent. But last week, I just can't. Don't vent in the middle of the office boleh? 

Ok. So that is my vent. 

Anyway, I had been firing my up my oven recently. Maybe because stress just makes me wanna eat more. 

It was my mom birthday and I make lemon cake with frosting. This is an achievement of some sort because this is the second time I tried to make frosting, and it turned out, not bad. First time was a raging failure. Well, the second time it was kinda fail, but then I am the sort who hated to waste thing. Macam kalau tak jadi takkan nak buang all these butter and sugary concoctions kut! Butter and sugar mahal taw! 

So I read that if your frosting don't really fluffed up even if followed instructions to a T , it can be because the temp is really hot. So putting it in a fridge can help, so yeps, I put my frosting in a fridge and after about an hour or so, it begin to fluff up again. LOL . Dapur panas sangat kut. 

My frosting skills is still a lot lacking. Hahahaha. I don't really have cake stand or proper plate for cake so it is kinda hard to frost. Leceh betul. Nak tunjuk gamba atas pon mcm segan. Tapi ini adalah bukti! Saya masak kek. 

Probably will buy a cake stand next. Considering, selalu jugak la bake. And I think dengan bulan puasa tak lama lagi ni, I will again bake the usual date cake again because I want to use up the extra dates that we usually got. 

So last weekend to get away from the stress of that issue, I bake some brownies sebab I promised bebudak yang tolong solvekan issue tu 'belanja minum'. But we rarely go out anywhere and there is not any Starbucks or chatime nearby. Bake aje lah brownies senang and give to them. 

I used a previous recipe for brownies that I had also updated the link here in this blog. Brownies kali ni manis sikit, sebab instead of the usual cooking chocolate, I used some chocolate biasa that I have LOADS of in the fridge. My husband beli chocolate banyak gile last time he went to Turkmenistan. So it is a bit manis. Cut down the sugar in the recipe to just a quarter since there are also chocolate chips in them. 

This brownie recipe should have frosting, tapi aku tak kuasa. It feels too much like a cake plak kalau brownies ade frosting, to me. 

The people at the office likes it, so ok la. Mission accomplished. 

Next plan to bake is either, soft cookies for the kids or cupcakes. Probably cookies kut. Maybe next weekend lah.