Supposedly my EDD was today. ( To the uninformed, it is Expected Delivery Date).
You know that we should not really think about the "What If's", but it seems such a good activity to be doing while spacing out, especially when stuck in jam. Curses the jam!
I don't feel bitter that I lost the pregnancy. I think I took it pretty well. Something are just not meant to be.
But it feels weird nonetheless, sometimes I like to sound it out to my husband. Like, at this particular time, if "that" didn't happened, I will probably be bitching to him about how fat I look. ( Not that I still don't bitch about how I think I look fat). Or if "that" didn't happened, I would probably have a kid around the same age as this and this. Or how changed our life would be.
Dangerous, these "what if" is. Like I said, its a bit weird.
Anyway, I am not particularly sad , I am just feeling like today could turn out differently but it do not. Maybe a tad bit melancholy. .