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This blogger is not in the mood

to be all around joyous.

I feel

... tired.
... disillusioned.
... angry. (for no apparent reason)
... useless.
... ronery.
... sick of it all.

But where's my mood to blog nowadays. I can cranked up a long post full of words easily back in the days. Now, it seems hard. Do not want to badmouth people I know in here. Do not feel like I need to tell people on how I feel. Do not have the energy to update what I do in the day to day basis, cause that would bored you and me both to death. Nothing interesting. Nothing I am passionate about. Nothing to keep MY world revolve in brightly coloured hue ( a metaphor I used loosely, so I have no idea what it even means).

Tah la kan. Maybe I am just feeling a tad blues. Hurmp. Maybe tomorrow is a better day since today is so grey.


Comments

Taqiyuddin said…
or! you can post pictures of your kids!
Anasfadilah said…
post pasal fasha..i like to read em :)

sini hujan

mesti jap lagi cerah balik :)
oh.. you'll be back. in a few days i bet suddenly you have literal diorhea or something

i'm in my on a roll phase now. i can update 3 times a day if i want to. ada backlogs of blog entries now! hahaha.. so if i stumbled on a writer's blog phase i can just press publish on them!
Dils said…
Taqi:
Which you haven't done in ages!


Dila:
Oh, bole jugak buat post pasal Fasha hari ni. Geram je.


Effi:
Heh... The thing is, I really don't have the ideas to crank up long post in twos and threes at one go. Even dari dulu lagi.

Unless meme. Huhu. Eh, did you notice that meme had gone out of fashion. Or it is just that I only know bloggers who don't do memes?

Nuffnang

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