I am just exaggerating the topic. I felt it is madness for me in my single state. Why? Oh Sheeshh... In a day.. I had turned down 2 dates. Not from lousy men that doesnt worth your time. No No.. One of them, is a very very very cute guy. I am still lamenting myself why I did not go out with him. Why dila? You obviously wanted to a few months back. He's cute. He's tall. He's funny. I know I will have a hell of a time with him.. But why? Maybe because of the wrong timing. I meant he asked me right out on the day when I was feeling crappy and wearing crappy clothes. No cute guys will see me at not my best.. No No No.. hahha. Blame the media for making women feeling they have to be at their ultimate superior best. So guys.. if a girl said not... It does not necessarily means "not interested", sometimes it is " ask me again.. pretty please". Such a waste... I am sure he won't ask me again.
And of them, is from a very very sweet guy. Why? I don't know. It just seems so.. well.. I will sure be tongue tied (me?), and it just seems...I don't know. It just seems like something that I wouldnt want to start. And I hope he doesnt mind much. I do like him.. just that.. well its all that is. I just like him.
So? Am I really feeling this? OR am I just just making xcuses to myself.. becoz I still wanna be treated invisible by HIM? Oh.. I hate this... Sometimes I hope we lived in the 19th century where our parents make the choices and we can blame them and society for that mistake.
So I now have work to bury my pretty head in. It is very useful to have a job and workloads that piled a waist high (literally, seriously). You can stop feeling sorry for yourself and not be so vain.