People are confused with the status of my socialness. Am I single? Yet why did I kept on seeing my ex?
I really hate talking about this. Because no matter how hard I try to explain it, peoples can't seems to make head nor tails about. I chose being single not because I want to see other peoples. I want to be free within myself. I do not have to answer to anyone on why did I do that. I don't have to invent a reason why I need to go out with other peoples.
The most confusing part about all these are.... I myself now do not want to meet other peoples. If peoples show an interest on me, I would feel almost... despise for them. And I do not want to feel that. And if the peoples who are interested, are interesting and I liked them, then after a while I just lost the feeling. The euphoria only lasted for a while. Then it felt the same. Humdrum.
I myself are not searching for any reason. And when peoples start questioning or gossiping... in the end I just could not care less. In the end, I myself would choose. Not them. They would not do anything but look. You might think what you want, but you do not know the beginning of it why I chose that choice. And I just let you think what you want because I know you never are interested in explanations. Yes, you. So let me choose in my own way, my own time and my own man. It can be anyone, but I kinda hope Orlando Bloom will be in the picture. Hahaha.
I really hate talking about this. Because no matter how hard I try to explain it, peoples can't seems to make head nor tails about. I chose being single not because I want to see other peoples. I want to be free within myself. I do not have to answer to anyone on why did I do that. I don't have to invent a reason why I need to go out with other peoples.
The most confusing part about all these are.... I myself now do not want to meet other peoples. If peoples show an interest on me, I would feel almost... despise for them. And I do not want to feel that. And if the peoples who are interested, are interesting and I liked them, then after a while I just lost the feeling. The euphoria only lasted for a while. Then it felt the same. Humdrum.
I myself are not searching for any reason. And when peoples start questioning or gossiping... in the end I just could not care less. In the end, I myself would choose. Not them. They would not do anything but look. You might think what you want, but you do not know the beginning of it why I chose that choice. And I just let you think what you want because I know you never are interested in explanations. Yes, you. So let me choose in my own way, my own time and my own man. It can be anyone, but I kinda hope Orlando Bloom will be in the picture. Hahaha.
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Other peoples have questions. Or worse some piece of shit that I do not want to get myself into or know of.
And you, should learnt to say something beside "I have a gossip of you".
That put peoples off. And pls dont explain, I do not want to hear any of it. Just forget it.
Phase 1: Lament, cried, cling
Phase 2: Be incredibly desctructive to oneself
Phase 3: Be angry at him
Phase 4: Less anger, more revenge, going out with lots of peoples
Note: All the above are not taken from any academic journal or research , mainly own boredom
Phase 5: Seeing it is pointless, because it takes 2 to tango.
Phase 6: Learning to accept it
Phase 7: Try to accept him back again in own life as so to keep up appearance. Muahaha
Phase 8: Be incredibly bored with all of it , marry a very boring guy, have kids and live a pointless life and desperately hope he will suffer the same fate.. Muahahha (now, which stage am I?)