Dils Stop .

Such a bland tasty topic.. Why why dila? I just feels like it. It is sometimes said, that you are turning crazier if you refer yourself as a 2nd person. You completely lost it if u refer urself as a third person. How you do it? I have no idea. I just have my late night snack of peanut butter sandwich. Damn, just typing the words gives me the urge to lather it again on the bread. Yum yum.. I liked peanut butter sandwich. Ever since I was little girl wearing shorts and skirts. I remembered when I was at school at Australia. I was in standard 2 at the time. Most of the little girls and boys there brought our own packed lunch in a paper bag. Only a few of them buy it from the cafeteria. But then, there is not much a cafeteria since all of the students eat our lunch outside under the trees or on a bench swinging our little legs happily or if it is too cold (winter) we ate in class. At brunch break, at about 10 a.m every morning, any students who is not happy on what their moms packed for t...

I doesnt feel like writing or typing (whichever way you chose to look at it). But I don't know.. I have to try to update right. As for the Bachelor stuff, Jesse havent pick yet either Tara or Jessica. Both of em are great. I will stands in my opinion that Jessica girl is way too young at 21 to get married. If a man no matter how handsome or rich would ask me to marry him at that particular time, I would decline. You will spend 40 or 50 years (if it lasts) with someone, the thought of spending it everyday with that same person can be choking.. even to me right now. Just enjoy being you, yourself and yours truly for a while. I had got back from a job interview. I dont pin high hopes for it.. since I fumbled a few times, yet the experience is worthwhile. But let just see aight? During the interview, met up with several hopeful jobless graduate too. And it is kinda nice to get to know and strike up acquantainces with peoples your own age again. The conversation that we had while waitin...

A time for me to write aimlessly again. Hurray for no points whatsoever! Oh yeah, the Bachelor updates. I felt myself feeling lonely and hopeless as I watch this sweet girls hearts being broken. I am getting MELLOW. This time all three (Mandy J, Jessica and Tara) have incredibly wonderful individual dates. But I have to say Tara is the loveliest of all the dates, and in only that date I can see something close to awe and adoration in our Bachelor guy's eye. Trish shows unexpectedly and hands down the key to her bedroom. Probably to prove to Jesse her prowess. But of course he deny. (I wouldnt be so sure he would deny if he is not in national tv). And the one he sent packing this time is Mandy J. It is to be expected. He is not as smitten to her as he is smitten with Tara. This time it is too obvious. But who knows right. It is of course a dating show. As for today, it rained! It felt so cooling, so nice, and I actually smell all the nice sweet smell of rain. My sekolah agama teach...

That is what keeps popping on the television nowadays. I don't see any love around here. Heck, I would just have to trust the news then. It is always fascinating about how we Malay Moslem treat Valentines day. Of course we get various emails saying.. " Do not celebrate Valentines day.. it is very un-Moslem like to do so ", Well.. you get my drift. Back in my state of non-single entity days , my bf never gave me any Valentines day. Not one of em. Zilch. They always quoted what they read on the emails.. saying it is not so great about celebrating it. I had got my only Valentines present from a Christian lesbian. And it is a great present. A really cute,fluffy,soft teddy bear. I will give them to my kids later on in life. Won't my kids find it hysterical to hear where I got it from? It just proves that girls are really good at buying presents. No matter what their preferences are. And what is really interesting or should I say ironic, when these guys are no longer togeth...

Today is like any other day.. only that I hear Tom and Jerry are playing at the tv. Herm.. That is not everyday occurences, tomorrow my siblings will come home. It will certainly make this medium sized house a bit merrier. Not that it is not merry now with my brother and I hurtling insults at each other every hour of the day. Perhaps this is our distorted way of showing that we care? My family had never been a sentimentalist. I can't remember when I ever heard the word LOVE actually being uttered here. Not that we are less loving. But perhaps we are less loving than some family. I cannot really know. I never been a part of another family. And if I ever would heard someone say I love you in this house, I swear I will go out of the house and try to acknowledge if I had enter a wrong house. I guess WORDS had never played a big part in this family. But perhaps I think action do this for us. Showing each other in our freaky way.. that we do care. I don't like talking about my fa...

snubnozze: blogging for ppl yg nak express diri die sbb die lonely.. herm....so are we all lonely? We cannot find consolation in other person therefore we turn our thoughts to this inanimate object?

The title along suggests I am a social outcast.. or pariah? Whut thats social pariah meant btw? Pray.. anyone tell.. Cast that aside.. Another week of The Bachelor - Jesse. Drama. Love. Tears. Guns. Thats what had been happening. Guns you see? Pretty unusual. Noo... none of the ladies had started shooting the Bachelor yet in frustration/revenge/fit of passion. It is just this week.. He is meeting with 4 of the girl's family. All of them are pretty nice. One of the family are kinda.. well.. obsessed. Mandy J (one of the eclipsed contestant) was Miss Teen USA Texas. And that is what they kept on talking about .. as if she doesnt have any other redeeming qualities. And to put pageant souvenirs and prizes and memorabilia at some sort of an altar.. is wrong. It just looks something to be worshipped at. And perhaps it is great and everything.. nonetheless.. she must find out what other quality she have other than winning a beauty pageant. And Tara's dad first impression is by hold...