A time for me to write aimlessly again. Hurray for no points whatsoever!
Oh yeah, the Bachelor updates. I felt myself feeling lonely and hopeless as I watch this sweet girls hearts being broken. I am getting MELLOW. This time all three (Mandy J, Jessica and Tara) have incredibly wonderful individual dates. But I have to say Tara is the loveliest of all the dates, and in only that date I can see something close to awe and adoration in our Bachelor guy's eye. Trish shows unexpectedly and hands down the key to her bedroom. Probably to prove to Jesse her prowess. But of course he deny. (I wouldnt be so sure he would deny if he is not in national tv). And the one he sent packing this time is Mandy J. It is to be expected. He is not as smitten to her as he is smitten with Tara. This time it is too obvious. But who knows right. It is of course a dating show.
As for today, it rained! It felt so cooling, so nice, and I actually smell all the nice sweet smell of rain. My sekolah agama teacher, who use to teach me Tauhid I think, used to tell us to smell the rain whenever it rains in one of her lessons. I always like her. She is quite hip and happening for a religious teacher. She always brought to school her colorful see-through bag and wears this big watch where teenagers my age dulu like to wear. She is one of my favorite religious teacher. Ok. Make it the only favorite religius teacher. The male religious teachers I encountered is somewhat perverse. I remembered there is one teacher who always call me away from lessons to his office or his classroom and try to talk to me about sex. I used to sneakily try to get past him. But if he can't find me anywhere else, he will ask some student to fetch me. I guess one of the teacher had a suspicion when she sees my pained face and obvious reluctance whenever a student came to fetch me saying this teacher wanted me. Ugh, I always blocked that conversation with him in my memory. I have becoming quite good in blocking memory. I can't remember any of it now. I do remember I always try to make sure that I was never completely alone with that perverted man. I hate men. I hate men using their authority to expand their lecherous behavior. I just hate them.
Oh yeah, the Bachelor updates. I felt myself feeling lonely and hopeless as I watch this sweet girls hearts being broken. I am getting MELLOW. This time all three (Mandy J, Jessica and Tara) have incredibly wonderful individual dates. But I have to say Tara is the loveliest of all the dates, and in only that date I can see something close to awe and adoration in our Bachelor guy's eye. Trish shows unexpectedly and hands down the key to her bedroom. Probably to prove to Jesse her prowess. But of course he deny. (I wouldnt be so sure he would deny if he is not in national tv). And the one he sent packing this time is Mandy J. It is to be expected. He is not as smitten to her as he is smitten with Tara. This time it is too obvious. But who knows right. It is of course a dating show.
As for today, it rained! It felt so cooling, so nice, and I actually smell all the nice sweet smell of rain. My sekolah agama teacher, who use to teach me Tauhid I think, used to tell us to smell the rain whenever it rains in one of her lessons. I always like her. She is quite hip and happening for a religious teacher. She always brought to school her colorful see-through bag and wears this big watch where teenagers my age dulu like to wear. She is one of my favorite religious teacher. Ok. Make it the only favorite religius teacher. The male religious teachers I encountered is somewhat perverse. I remembered there is one teacher who always call me away from lessons to his office or his classroom and try to talk to me about sex. I used to sneakily try to get past him. But if he can't find me anywhere else, he will ask some student to fetch me. I guess one of the teacher had a suspicion when she sees my pained face and obvious reluctance whenever a student came to fetch me saying this teacher wanted me. Ugh, I always blocked that conversation with him in my memory. I have becoming quite good in blocking memory. I can't remember any of it now. I do remember I always try to make sure that I was never completely alone with that perverted man. I hate men. I hate men using their authority to expand their lecherous behavior. I just hate them.
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i just hope u will not hate me, although im also a man.*sigh*
about bachelor, that's one thing in my mind. one single sentence.
"it's seem love can be commercialized". dunno if it's really true but it's make me think a lot. ok arr dilla-chan. keep posting. love to read your thought. viva dila elara.
hmm.. interesting..
the subject exhibits interesting behaviors
What types of behavior.. ??
hermm.. different things trigger different behavior.. and Im thirsty..