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Hanging out.. Getting Bored

I am currently still in training, (right now) but peoples are laughing, surfing unnecessary wsites. SO hey. I do the same. I felt that these past months the muse in me had flown away. Perhaps my energy had dissipated. Or perhaps the lies had prove to much and it is eaten away inside me leaving me just an empty hollow of a human being. Woah.. that is too much. Aint it? But if you think about it... the more lies we build ourselves around to. We seems to get lost into it. As I am now. I am living in lies and so I will continue to do so in 10 or 20 years or even the whole of my life.
But hey.. I don't plan to talk about it. I just feel down down down. Maybe because my niece had completely destroyed my lipstick recently. I don't intend to type mushy stuff or something degradable since I am of course in the office and ANYONE can see (which meant that ANYONE I sooooo want to bash).
So just keep it light and easy. Thus... I ran out of idea already. What ? Where's my muse??
Muse muse come to me. Nope she's not coming. She must have gone into vacation to Pompeii or something.
Hey.. I seen Pompeii on the documentary recently. Nice huh. Peoples seems to take more interest in Pompeii recently. Dunno why.
It gets me to thinking.. we daydreams right? Some more than others. Especially me. Especially when I know I can't get THE guy. So why waste our dreams on em right? Such a lousy way to depress oneself. So don't any of us fabricate this fantastic person who knows our every need, accept all our weaknesses, think we are the most perfect person in the world.. bla bla bla. I had already laid out many of my characters spuns across the century. Herm.. and come to think of it.. all my lovely dream guy character ended tragically. Drown, war, self sacrifice and those shits. Since I seems to be agreeing that true love is probably love that you can't get. Maybe thats why all my character died. Herm. Even in my wildest fantasy my dream guy(s) died/ran away/being a quitter/married someone else. I'm beginning to see a pattern here. But i havent fabricated a character in Pompeii yet. Maybe I will! Yeay.. And yeah.. you can all guess how MY character gonna end up here.

Yeah.. I know this post is pathetic. I think my muse must be disgusted with me. And its raining. And my head hurts. And I want to watch TV. I miss being a jobless bum. Uh.. my trainer seems to be ignoring us. Continue blogging.

I see a sad lack of commitment in bloggers nowadays. Maybe all of em are happily being in a relationship , so they are in a world of their own where the sun shines even when it rains at night, flowers bloomed even at the dirties longkang and car honking at rush hour traffic heard like a nightingale singing. So maybe they don't have much to rant of instead of we Singletons.

But not many peoples know my blog. I am somewhat reluctant to let some peoples know since I may want to bash em. But I didn't bash anyone. Yet. Soo.. I am a nice person. Guddy.

Comments

dueng said…
so, from this post, i can see that you're really obsess on Pompeii. someday, hope your dream may come true.

true love? seem hard to find, lucky to have even one. nuff said.

hahaha...good metaphor, dils. i think all the sick-lover into that kind of metaphor you said. ppl when get someone to grip, just forget anything else. piff...what a pity. maybe love give the best day-dream a human being can have. never feel it before so never know how it's really feel. hehehe. eh..btw, i'm still single. hurray to me. still have the widest view for girl...sexy girl, alim girl, so-so girl, bitchy girl, cute girl...hehehe.

p/s: sorry for my repek2 thing. just being bored of doing lots of thing. *sigh*
Taqiyuddin said…
yeah... like what snub says.. blogging is for lonely hearts. hehehe

no i don't believe that. And since i don't believe that, i'll update my blog NOW!
Dils said…
i think it is true.. love kinda give u the best day dream. Wait till 3 mths.. probs came along.. hehe
(someone even said my theory is right on that one)

Haha,, update ur blog! We lone lorn ppls have nothin to do

Nuffnang

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