Running ragged

My 4 soon to be 5 month old ... is really wearing me down this week. 

I am not gonna say acting up, because he don't really throw tantrums, but he do if I were to leave his side. So for the last week die sibuk nak jadi baby koala. Sampai ade sekali tu I was macam doing this and that and sambil tu tengah tie my Boba Wrap, then tup tup Saif jatuh katil. 

The sound of a baby jatuh is really macam a thud in your heart. Sampai hari ni ade lebam kat kepala. Poor thing. Stress. I letak all the bantal and built a 'fort' like , tapi he is a big boy so can roll over the bantal. Huhu. And that is not the first time, hence the 'fort'. Horror. Worst mother ever. So obvs the fort not working. 

So sekarang ni if I have to do stuffs and he is awake, I sometimes put him in the other room on the floor where he can roll around crying hysterically albeit safely because mommy isnt picking him up. 

So the house is a mess now is an understatement. I remembered reading about it in Baby MD on how the dishes and laundry may piled up, stuffs strewn about but sometimes it is worth it to just let it go. So yeah... takpeee.. setahun je lagi on this clinginess and before you knows it your children will slam the door to your face yelling "I hate you. You are the worst mother ever" because you refuse to buy them Iphone 15 Plus. 

Anywayy.. but its not so bad. If I forget the fact that they are chores needs to be done, meals to be cooked, he is contented to be just beside me, sucking on my kain batik. Kalau bagitahu my mom ni mesti die cakap "nak kena bagi makan dah kut". Yeah. I am not looking forward to the bagi makan part. The just milk part was nice. But hey gotta get the baby grows kan. And I don't want to be mother yang " I will give my child ONLY BM for 2 years because that is all he needs". 

Nasib baik jugak Aziz ni jenis senang jugak dijaga, though I have to say 2 3 hari ni banyak sikit throwdown tantrum die. But budak kecik senang dipujuk, unless baru bangun tido. Huhu. But again, Aziz is quite an easy toddler to manage. I let him play ke , watch TV ke to his heart content. Hehe. Kenkadang macam damn it, why I can't be like other mother yang duk duduk dengan anak die with flash card, but I did jugak la, but with a somewhat clingy baby yang you desperately tried to get to sleep, memang flash card dilupakan. Haha. Sigh. Poor baby. But then I got comforted when I read study that said early reading in child, does not affect the child IQ later in life. I am SURE if I search there are another that have the OPPOSITE view. BUT LET ME BELIEVE THAT VIEW! 

Oh and tadi we brought Saif again to the swim spa thingies tu. This time he macam malas nak paddle here and there. Die contented to angkat bontot and let the bubbles lead him the way. LOL. But had fun. We stopped halfway because he penat and nak susu. Then continue afterwards die lagi ceria. And at the very least manage to get him to sleep afterwards. Huhu. 

Best sangat. I pon rase nak masuk sekali. 

Can totally see his lebam. Ni masa die kat smaller pool dulu. Masuk sini dulu, bile dah comfy pegi bigger pool. 

Aziz excited nak main bola2 tu and campak kat adik die. LOL. I did asked him if he die nak mandi sama dengan adik, but he said . "Tanakkk,... takut".

Ok la. Harap esok Saif tido siang dengan jayanye!