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I am going deaf~

I am partially deaf.. and being in a job that needed every particle of concentration when a customer is talking is really really a strain. Probably thats why the doctor said my blood pressure is kinda low. Well.. if high blood pressure = stress, low blood pressure = you dont have enough stress in your life? You don't have excitement anymore? Granted my life is humdrum just for the moment.

And today... I was almost really going to lose my temper at a customer. Gimme a break la... She was shouting herself hoarse and typically me when somebody is angry or shouting at me, I just shut them out. My mind just went... kaput! Thats it. All I will hear is snippets of words. And from what we found out later on, it was her fault. She was using somebody else credit card and doesnt want that person to know.

I realized then how unattractive we are when we are rude. I meant the most cultured person that have 3 or 4 PhD hanging up at the wall of their office, and eat caviars like most of us ate roti canai monthly, but when they shouted and screamed obscenities at you, you realized there and then. How uncivilised. How illiterate this person looks. How ugly they sounded. How ignorant they seemed. What is the point you shouted yourself hoarse. Throw various profanities in the face of this earth to you. Does it proved your point? Does it make your hearer felt more inferior, demeaning? Don't you realized that you just sounded crude and stupid. In their heart they are amused by your imaginative hurl of words being thrown at you. Because to their eyes, you look smaller than them.

Then it got me to thinking to of all the pretty or 'unpretty' person I met. How at first when we see them,we think how lovely they are. But when we got to know them, and see their faults, we also began to find these flaws. On how sallow their skin are, how unpleasant they look at times, how sly their eyes are. Everything then was going minus minus and minus. Then what about the person that we don't see as attractive in the start. At first you will look at them, and see all these outer layers. But as time goes on, when we are grateful for their kindness, their heart,we started to notice on how lovely they seem. Their smiles seems brighter. The laugh is a delight to hear. And at the end of the day you are almost ready to announce they are the loveliest person you had met.

Our own personality and how we treat peoples make a difference on how peoples look at us. We may not at times be like these lovely peoples I described, or even be as crude as the profaniest person. But I guess, it is important that our own lovely points will not be substract day after day, and never adding up.

Comments

Taqiyuddin said…
and that makes me wonder.. how pretty am i too you?
Taqiyuddin said…
oh.. but i fear the answer
Dils said…
Now... wouldnt that best to remain a mystery
Anonymous said…
is that you up there? wonder what the guys at work would do if they knew about your little abode here on the net. nak cerita ke? hehehe

anyways, akum taqi..kenal aku daks? anak buah cekgu kamariah dulu masa skoloh rendah.
Dils said…
Now thats also a mystery.. Is that shadow looks like me?

Hahah.. probably they will be too malas to read it.
Anonymous said…
looks like you, cant say for sure about the hair tho.

tak keje ke arinih? tak nampak kat opis pon??
Dils said…
Haih kai ni.. hihihi as known by customer. Kan cuti sel rabu. Start bulan dpn cuti ahad isn tho.
Anonymous said…
dang! dah agak dah..mesti kenanyer satu ari nanti. apiz ler nih..

takpela..poyo AF pon, at least ada bunyi melayu lagi, drpd ko diapit oleh Zack, Carl, Sam and yang paling tak tahan kawan baik ko tuh...Jim.
Taqiyuddin said…
ooo... tidak kenal sgt la eskalator.. anak buah cikgu kamariah berkapal² banyak nyer.. tapi aku tak pernah jadik anak buah cikgu kamariah.. terlalu brutal untuk aku... dia pernah kasik penampar kat aku depan anak anak buah dia..

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