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Its November

 I am feeling kinda tired all the time. 


Absolutely transfixed


Miraculously I havent manage to get one more cat into the house, but having 3 boys all the time at home, I feel like the house are filled to the brim already. 

The kids are going back to school now, but with sistem penggiliran in place. So it had been somewhat peaceful. Before this I feel like so tired sorting out their online classes, who needs to go where, which homework needs to be submitted, making sure they are engaged in classroom and not off somewhere playing Legos. 

This year, I think I might forego the annual sale BBW because I am broke, also my books are way too much, also it is held in somewhere I don't have the energy to drive to. 

Mostly here still watching kdramas, gaining weight and stroking cat furs at every opportune time. Been job searching too, but its been hard. HARD. Also countless interviews that goes nowhere can really break a human spirit. You feel like you are worthless to anyone and this kinda sabotage you more on the next interview. Hard to get out of this funk yo. 

I feel probably I need to start writing more. Just because. I may talk more on my progress on piano/violin playing here. Still playing. Little lagging on the piano part because I am on a hard page, need to push myself a bit more, I will , I will. I will try to get through that piece next week! 

Later, also did you guys went on a spree this 11.11?

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Fadhil Luqman said…
Going through my old blog and links and remembered you said you restarted yours already. Happy New Year !

Nuffnang

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