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I am back to work now. Why? Why do I work? As the rains poured down hard this morning... I was also like ... WHY DID I GO BACK TO WORK. Money. More money. I am not sure how long should I be working... we will see. 

I am still working in the HR IT line, no longer doing SAP, but more to other system. It is interesting.  So far. 

I am finding I have less and less of things to say here. The thoughts bubble and froth but when I got to this page, its mostly a blank. Maybe I should just put it as a travel sorta diary. 

What else I am up to? Kids? The boys are usual. Getting on my nerves and everything. Growing up does that. They are very helpful though, especially the eldest. But once they got a phone in hand, a fiery hale might come down and it would not faze them. 

I actually find it hard to concentrate or get stuffs out when everyone is talking around me. I am used to a quiet office I guess. Not here. Good God WFH should be mandatory. 


Putting in Monkee as big ball of fuzz to offset the boringness of this post

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