2019!

I didn't make a recap of my 2018. 

Not much to recap. I did mean to blog about my trip to Kyoto and Tokyo. It would be a shame to leave that out. Maybe later when the house is less a mess? 

But the HOUSE IS ALWAYS MESSY!

Also not helping Netflix adding a whole lot of Korean dramas in their selection. Korean dramas I tell you. Don't start or you will plunge into an abyss of fantastical tale of justice and stupid romance. I can't get enough of it. 

Also Aziz started is Year 1 at the sek keb. Yeay! So far he is loving it but he is kinda adapting to having a full schedule. He have Islamic school in the morning then home for an hour and get ready for the sek kebangsaan. I am also adapting to the new schedule. 

See what I tell you the house is a mess!

Sarip also wants to be in the pic.

This is Aziz on his second day being nosey and wanting to see his friends desk. 

I was planning to not give him pocket money yet, but the he informed me all of his friends have pocket money and he tried to get his new friends to 'belanja' him to no avail. He also said he tried to pinjam his friends wallet to no avail too! The horrors!

So rather than having him asking his friends for money he got pocket money now and a new wallet with strict instructions to not ask stuff from his new friends! 

Sigh, I guess this is what parenting really is. Later. There is nasi lemak awaiting. 

BBW 2018

So I got the preview pass to this year BBW and decided on the preview day to not bring the kids. Which is a good decision. I can easily browse for my books without worrying or attending fussy kids. 

There were a lot of people in the preview day, but it was ok lah. I found it disappointing that adult books gotten a whole lot lesser year by year. I also found out that the Vivo Popular Warehouse Sale was held end of last Nov , I had missed those. Bummer. That book warehouse sale have a whole lot more books for adult, more current and interesting choices. Need to make sure I didn't miss it next year then. 

On the preview day manage to snag this. 

Pompeii sticker book tu untuk aku. LOL. The kids like my choices. Haven't opened the cat toy book tu lagi, but most of the books for the kids dah bukak dah. Didn't let em to open semua books at once. Each day boleh bukak satu je. Hehe. 

So on another day brought them on Thursday for them to choose own books. 

The kids and most of the books they chose. 

Some of the books yang I also ambik. BBW will restocked different books every few days during their sales and most of this in the pic was not there in the preview day. 

Overall it was a good haul. The price gotten more expensive but kinda understandable as buku mcm kat Kino pon harga tak masuk akal.  

We'll see next year macam mana pulak. 

Also... I checked and could not remember... where the heck did I buy this book? Last bbw? Perhaps. Blergh. 

Books forgotten

BBW is coming soon. I think I scored the preview pass, and will need to take the preview pass first at BookXcess. The annoying thing is , it is kinda hard to drive to the nearest BookXcess with 3 kids in tow. We'll see. 

Also, I think I didn't put up the last 2 sales? Because I was busy and also another time I was too out of it from morning sickness. 

Like I said before I like putting up here books I had bought so I can always refer which I haven't read yet. You might think it is impossible to not remember which book you had read, but my bird brain can't retain too much info it seems as I had twice read a book about 20 to 30 pages before noticing this seems very familiar. 

I think this I bought last year?

Cant remember this one. Probably masa I was very into my morning sickness.

Anyway the latest book I had read is the Billion Dollar Whale. It was very straightforward. Can't read it too long because it is enraging how greedy some people are. And how vulgar the way they live and party.

Also it makes me find Leonardo Dicaprio as distasteful, and Pharrell as a loser who hang on to people for their money Never gonna enjoy anything brought forward from them again.

Need to update my Goodreads alsolah.

Its my birthday

Yeay me.

I am feeling so tired nowadays. Harumph.

Anyway. Yeay me? Nothing special plan for tomorrow. Need to buy my 2nd kid present for his birthday which falls on the 22nd and other stuffs.

Memula I malas nak buat party pack and food and all that. Sekolah dont really encourage birthday bash, but mak2 biasa la. So I will be just sending cake and a boxful of those Kinder eggs. Let em go crazy and choose themselves.

For moi? Maybe I will buy myself a cake. A slice of cake. My berat is OTT kenot control all those eating urges. Damn. I need to start my intermittent fasting again. But fasting time cuti sekolah is dead tiring.

Feels good writing again. Almost free when blog is dead so my audience is probably me and meself. 

To Osaka or Not

We were scheduled to go to Osaka and Kyoto end of this month, but then Typhoon Jebi happened. It seems really tasteless to moan about the typhoon when people actually died, but the typhoon also caused major damage to the airport we are planning to arrive and embark at. Current news report

So now with a lot of international flights yet to resume and status of our flight is still unclear ( saw today flight to Kansai was cancelled ) , it put a damper on my plan a bit. We can still refund the flight and have time a bit to cancel the hotel booking, but I am not sure if I should or want to.

I was really hyping to go to Osaka and Kyoto. Maybe this is a sign not to go until things are a bit calmer. But the Japanese are renowned for their quick fix of problems. Even so, how quick? 

Sigh. 

And I don't even have the heart to go anywhere else partly because booking another flight and hotel in such a short time is gonna be so costly. 

We will see if we get to go. 

Maybe the next update?

Lets just put July here and I rambled about Kdrama I love

Its July. Bulan puasa come and gone. Raya come and gone. And still I haven't blogged. I am a little ashamed if I must say. I used to say that I can't imagine not writing.

And here I am not writing. I have no idea what I do with my time. I also found that I have no time. My obsession with Kdrama nowadays certainly does not help. Tho if the kdrama I watched is a bit of a drag, or the heroine keeps on crying, that puts me off. I hate heroines who cry.

So because I have time, ( even though the house is a disaster), the absolute top list of Kdrama I love and love and love.

Top 10

1.  Reply 1988 ( Solely for the reason of Park Bo Gum) ... and this is at the top even though every eps is so goddamn long, because this drama is why I have now started to watch Kdrama. It spurs the love.
2. Queen In Hyun Man ( Most kdrama flounders midway, this one have the story well thought out of and the chemistry is amazing). 
3.  Black ( this would be the top if not for the god awful ending. wtf kinda ending is that)
4.  My Love from The Star. ( Helloo Kim Soo Hyun )
5.  Dream High ( It is soooo addictive. And the story does not disappoint even if its cliche) 
6.  Reply 1997 ( It have a laidback sorta feel to it and the zaman is closer to what we were experiencing ).
7.  Oh My Ghost ( My favorite actress . She reminded me a lot of Inoue Mao). I was torn between Strong Woman Do Bong Soon, but Oh My Ghost have a better mystery and tied it up quite nicely even though I don't really like Park Bo Young timid character in there. 
8.  Moon Lovers Scarlet Heart Ryeo, I think that what it called sebab aku malas tengok balik. I love IU. She is so sweet. She did pretty well, holding her own alongside the many cast of hotties. It was pretty good and people hated the ending, but I am ok with it. 
9.  Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joon. This drama is so sweet and cute. 
10.  Let's Eat series. Season 3 is coming soon. And I can't wait to watch Yoon Doo Joon stuff his face and I wishing that I can also eat Korean barbecue without the fear my kids are gonna scald their hand. 

A New Malaysia

indeed. 

First of all. Selamat menjalani ibadah di bulan Ramadhan. My ramadan is pretty low key. It is just me and the kids. Havent been to pasar ramadhan yet, though I want to. It is easier to cook because going to pasar ramadhan with kids is not something I can muster up the energy for. We will however look for baju raya probably tomorrow at Melawati Mall probably. 

Senang je sekarang since Melawati Mall ni dah bukak. Before this if I wanna look for stuffs, there is KLCC or Jusco AU2. Which the former parking rate is getting ridiculous throughout the years and the latter don't offer a lot of choice but still I like going there for movies and treating the kids 'makan kedai'. 

Anyway. Just because it was a historic moment for Malaysia, I feel like I have to put it down here. We voted BN off. And that feel good. The euphoria last for a week I tell you. For 3 days after the election, I am stupidly happy. It feel like a burden had been lifted. I never realized before that I feel this hopeless, this suffocated with the previous govt. 

Now I feel a little bit lighter. Like I can hope for a better Malaysia for my kids. Have you been reading about Venezuela? I can't. Well I did for a little bit, but then I can't. Venezuela is in chaos and turmoil due to economic failure and this boggles the mind because Venezuela is rich with natural resources mainly oil. But oil prices dropped. Then the people don't have anything to eat. They have to go to another country because they ran out of food. I see a lot of parallels between Malaysia and Venezuela. Our reluctance to change. Our over reliance on oil output. The corruption.  And when I see Venezuela news I stiffened and found I can't breathe. I feel like if we continue in this path, this is our future. 

So when the EC announced the date, I went back to JB with 3 small kids. Naik bas. Alone. People tell me semangat betul. Isn't it. But with all these corruption news and my fear on our state of economy, I feel like even 1 vote should help. So I went out to vote. And we won. I am so happy. 

However that happiness soon is replaced with anxiety. But I am trying to remain positive. The new government is barely a month old. They are not taking baby steps. Which I appreciate. People expectations are also crazy. And I wish they would reigned it a little bit because you are putting your expectations on a bunch of leaders who are either too new or too old. But anything is better than what BN did. So in PH we trust, because currently there is not much we can do. 

But. More but. An important but. If they fail us, we will vote again. They will do better. And that is our hope. 

Gone to Singapore the last school hol

We stayed at Village Hotel Bugis

The stay at the hotel was pretty great. Clean spacious with good amenities. And most importantly near to good eating location.

Because of that we ate

Excellent delish briyani

Delicious murtabak. 

We also ate McDonalds because it is easy and also why not.. 

We were not long in  SG. The main trip was going to Science Centre which is actually pretty cool. Almost like Petrosains but with more diverse range of topics presented 

We were outside the science centre here. We also went to Snow City which Aziz had a blast. But that place basically a scam to buy photos so no phone photos! 

Went to the Gardens by the Bay and we didn't manage to get tickets to get inside since ticket counter closed at 8pm. BUMMER.

Went shopping a bit. Just trying to get some LUSH product because I like their body cream and added in a soap and a foot scrubber.

We only stay for 2  nights. Singapore is too expensive for a lengthy stay so we got back to JB to stay in my mom's house and spent a couple of night there pulak. 

March!

I had been coasting along 2018 without knowing what I had done. Actually I do.

It had been busy. Kids had been sick. Then I had been sick. Kids sick again. I felt like only last week I have a semblance of normalcy.

I had also been an ardent fan of Kdrama. Never scoffs at a thing I say. You might turn out to be a diehard fan. Which I am now. KDRAMA is fabulous. They have excellent camerawork and cinematography, the scripts can be a hit and miss but even if its a miss, it hugely entertaining.

I may do some reviews of sorts because I have no life. Later. I have some sewing to do. I have boys. They ripped stuffs up. I feel like I constantly sewing . 

2017

Gonna be 2018 soon.

Haven't been updating here too much. So I am gonna list down what 2017 had been for me


From January til June basically had been pregnant and most of that time had been battling morning sickness and basically lazing around the bed.

Around March or April, found a kitten at the middle of the road and brought her back and nursed her.

Was not planning on keeping her, but then Brownie had run off to live with another family, and I am lazy in finding responsible adopters, I decided to keep her.



Gave birth to a baby boy.

Hired a daily maid to take care of house. The maid quit after 3 months.


Went to Ipoh and Penang for holiday. Finally stay at Hard Rock Hotel. It was below my expectations honestly.

Doing absolutely nothing but still busy as a housewife. The kids mostly ok. Trying to teach Aziz to read with some good improvements. I am not sure how to tackle teaching him maths yet.

Saif decided his name is Baba.

The baby or Sarip Dol as we called him, is a very fussy sleeper. My back is hurting .

We just got back from Bintulu staying there for a week due to my husband brother getting married. That is the last of the sibling married off now. Uneventful except for the initial touchdown , where instead of the plane landing in Bintulu, we were flying into a storm and the plane could not land, so we ended up staying overnight in Miri instead.

Husband had taken up a position in Turkmenistan again.

Huh. I can't think of anymore. Pretty sure a lot of stuffs happened, and of course the big one is the birth of my third son. So yups. It was a big year indeed.

Let's see what 2018 brings. Hope for a less messier house.

Bye November, Hello December

From my new laptop. 

Hahaha. Eh I wish I could insert emoticons here. Who knows maybe in 10 years time, emoticons are included even in staid news article. 

I dont think I have raved about my baby. Terrible. I should have update more about him, but maybe I should start now. 

He is gonna be 6 months soon. I had already fed him solid. Eh I know lah. I saw that he is ready and I am only starting once a day baru. He hated avocado, but love the store bought rice cereal for baby. So whatever works! 

Anyway. I think I had mentioned that I had someone who came in during the day to help out with the kids and the chores. She quit after 3 months. I don't think I am that hard of a person to work with, but whatever. I think she found a better paying job and I hope she can keep at it because she is kinda terrible at my work. 

I hate relying on helper or maid. It is just something that I don't like. I don't like strangers in my house. So that means my house is messy and sticky and greasy sometimes. Sigh. With 3 kids I don't know what I am doing because the second after I mopped the floor it is sticky again after the kids had their food and snacks. Sigh. 

Anyway, I was planning to talk about my baby Sarip. He is not a cuddly baby. Meaning that he loves to be carried but hugged when sleeping, not so much. I miss that. Aziz when he was a baby especially loves that. I think he still loves it now because he always seems to be at someone armpit when he sleeps. Now it is brother. 

Sarip also love the new buai. I was thinking that perhaps this time my baby don't need no stinking buai. But how the hell other mother manage to put down their baby to sleep without it, I don't know. My kid will quickly wakes up once we put him down or stop patting him. And once my helper decided to quit, I will waste 2 or 3 hours I can spend cleaning just trying to put him to sleep. Buai it is! 

Other than that, he is the sunniest cheerful baby ever. He loves to smile. He have a hint of a dimple coming in, but not quite come through when he is smiling. In  16 years time girls would go gaga over that. LOL. ( Perasan anak akan jadi idola ramai)

It is now cuti sekolah and I had lost 3 freaking kgs, for I don't know what reason because I keep on reaching for chocolate when I am stressed out. My kids decided to help on one of my sanity chocolates and I almost lost my mind. I totally now I understand what the mother in "Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup" now feels like. 

Stopping now because I have my eye on a book I wanna buy at Betterworldbook. I have no idea why I keep on buying books when I have hardly time to shampoo my hair. 

Here's a picture of Sarip feeling disgusted at the idea of me shoving avocado in his mouth. Your loss Sarip! Mommy totally gonna make herself jus alpukat using your stock of avocados now! 

And hello... I am typing I this from my brand new HP laptop courtesy of my husband gift to me for my 35th birthday. I am 35 right, I am in denial of my age after 33. I am so excited to own a laptop that is my own. Not a loan, and not from work. But my own whatever the hell I am gonna do/install laptop. I wish I can put up a rude wallpaper but I have kids to think about now. 

Its November!

That means birthday month!

For me and Saif. And also our anniversary. Which this year is our 9th anniversary. Which happened to be Saif birthday too.

I am asking for a laptop because I don't spend much time at the computer table. I hope I make good use of the laptop.

Also you know, I should typed a lot more about my darling baby Sharif Dol. His name is Sharif, but we called him Sarip Dol because.. P Ramlee movie la kan.

I had not been typing a lot in a keyboard that I am losing my fast typing skills. Damn. Gotten lazy with smartphone since I used text predictor a lot. Nak spells pon dah lose skills. Damn.

I guess it is true people say that the advent of smartphone is not necessarily a good thing. We depended too much on technology that a lot of our brain left unused or consumed by inane things like reading about how Megan Markle gonna marry Prince Harry for instance.

Anyway. Later!

October comes in ...

and no update in Sept? 

I wonder what I had been doing. ( Eh I know la. Absolutely nothing). 

Anyway, last week we did a sorta belated birthday party for Aziz. 

He was lamenting he wants a party and since he had been a huge help to me and also he is a very nice kid, he deserved a party even if his birthday is 2 months past. 

We invited his classmates and a few of my friends only lah. Decided to do it at my sister clubhouse. A pool party! Because I couldn't be bothered to make up activity for kid. The only activity is main dalam pool je okeh. 

My siblings as usual is a great help with everyone contributing everything from chicken wings to cakes and desserts and main courses. Heh. 

The major thing should be is the kids had fun... and judging from 1 kid shouting " I am having so much fun!!" I guess it wasn't so shabby. 

Though I am not keen in repeating this again. I even pulled my muscle the day before and that hampers my enjoyment and preparation a bit. 

A video and I took only 2 photos kut! LOL!

Aziz very much enjoyed it and he was overjoyed on the presents he received. He was even nice enough to give one or two present to his brother. 

Just some update. Nothing much

Feels like rambling abit. Kesian this blog is hidup segan mati tak mahu. With Twitter, IG and FB where 'micro blogging' is easier, trying to typed out few paragraphs is like a major efforts. But I should write more.

Day to day.
I feel like meh. I was typing the previous words and got distracted by cat videos. That is my life now. With the occasional giving foods to my kids.

And I started this about a week ago and havent yet finish. Like what!

Anyway I really should not have any reason to procrastinate. I have a helper around the house. She came in from 8 and goes back at 5 or 6. So I don't have to clean or mop and somebody is around to look after the kids during the afternoon which let me have a lying in session with the baby. I want to say nap, but like I said before. I don't sleep during the daytime unless very very tired or sick.

Then start from 6pm things get a little hectic. Feed the kids and wash the dishes. Easy on paper, but sometimes the baby refuse to cooperate. Used to be he will be asleep, but nowadays the littlest one would throw the most tantrumest tantrum from 6.30pm til 8pm. I think I am slightly losing weight due to his particular hour only.

After the kids are all asleep then I have 1 hour to myself. Ah yes. I don't think so I can cope with the housework if I am working, but who knows. Many had make it worked, and if people ask like before how I can cope with 3 kids, you will find a way lah to make it work. It is not like I can give the kids away. D'oh.


I honestly have no ideas what to type more. Eh I will get back to it lah. Also am planning for a holiday in Penang soon. Yeay!

Big Little Lies

Have you watched the series? It was magnificent. Anyway I feel like I am gonna do away doing reviews in this blog because I feel like I have to ramble long and it is a bother to find image and synopsis. I am lazy. However maybe some exceptional books I will make an exception.

And since I feel like I wanna talk about Big Little Lies both the series and book, so there it is.

Also now Emmy nominated series.

The synopsis of the book which almost the same can be described of the series:

Big Little Lies follows three women, each at a crossroads (taken from Goodreads below):

Madeline is a force to be reckoned with. She’s funny and biting, passionate, she remembers everything and forgives no one. Her ex-husband and his yogi new wife have moved into her beloved beachside community, and their daughter is in the same kindergarten class as Madeline’s youngest (how is this possible?). And to top it all off, Madeline’s teenage daughter seems to be choosing Madeline’s ex-husband over her. (How. Is. This. Possible?) 

Celeste is the kind of beautiful woman who makes the world stop and stare. While she may seem a bit flustered at times, who wouldn’t be, with those rambunctious twin boys? Now that the boys are starting school, Celeste and her husband look set to become the king and queen of the school parent body. But royalty often comes at a price, and Celeste is grappling with how much more she is willing to pay. 

New to town, single mom Jane is so young that another mother mistakes her for the nanny. Jane is sad beyond her years and harbors secret doubts about her son. But why? While Madeline and Celeste soon take Jane under their wing, none of them realizes how the arrival of Jane and her inscrutable little boy will affect them all.

I will say of the series because I watched it first before deciding to read the book, the series was incredibly scripted and nuanced.

Madeline played by Reese Witherspoon is a fiery little thing and whose embodiment of Madeline is maddeningly incredible and feisty and funny. Celeste is played by perfection by Nicole Kidman. Nicole Kidman can always play frail but strong minded woman hiding a secret. There can be no other actress can do Celeste justice. She can play layers beautifully. And Shailene Woodley whom I was not a fan of, certainly hold her own against the 2 leading lady.

Every actor and actress even the children are cast perfectly. And the visual is mesmerizing. Who doesn't want to live there. The music of the series , I played constantly on my Spotify. You should look it up. It is a gem.

The series pacing is well thought of. It builds the suspense and momentum and up the tension week by week. The only complain people have of it, is it is a story of "white people problem".

But when we takes away the privilege and the settings, a story of domestic abuse and sexual assault is never simple. It is everywhere. And that one scene between Celeste and her therapist was ... groundbreaking. It breaks my wall of thinking on why does women find it so hard to point finger to a domestic abuser.

As for the book, I can see why Reese Witherspoon picked it up to be made as a series. It was well written, well thought out of. However I have to say the series far surpassed the book, in term of nuances and direction of the story.

In the book it is more direct, more enlightening but if you compared it to the series, you will find the series have the creative edge more and of course a play on visual and music can set the mood. The director Jean Marc-Vallee takes on how he played out the character and the settings is incredible. Almost genius. You can see a lot of thought are being put in each scen. But the book does provide a wee bit explanation. Madeline story is given more to do in the series than in the books, but neither story is better than the other. The book is a bit forgettable I have to say, rather than the louder voice of Jane can be heard in the book. And also the detective and reporter makes more sense in the book.

Other than that, it was great. Both in the series and the book the gossip account given by the people living the area is abit unnecessary. It does not bring out anything. Maybe it does set it apart from other story, but if it is taken out altogether, will not be missed.

My summary. Watch the series, you can forget the book. However the book does provide a quicker insight into the character and it is quite enjoyable.

Selamat Hari Raya

I am still berpantang guys. Tapi mcm tak pantang. 

We celebrated Raya at JB this year cause I baru bersalin kan. Tak boleh makan sambal sotong di pagi raya is stressing me out gais. Dan kena tolak lemang Rembau. Stresss! Takpe. My pantang habes in 2 weeks pastu I nak beli lemang satu.

First gambar raya of all family members.

My husband decided on pink, and shockingly I don't have any baju kurung pink. I bought a jubah, tapi ketat. kahkah. I must learn my lesson and not to buy jubah online. Susah gile nak measure. 

Anyway raya I celebrated ok la, cuma ade few mende je tak makan. Pergi gak rumah sedara, sedara yg I close. Siap ke Kluang lagi. The baby during the stay at JB was ok. Ada time2 fussy. Mostly ok je. He loves sleeping tetengah ruang tamu. He can sleep there amidst all the chaos and noise. 

Anyway. I kept on getting interrupted while doing this short post so I am gonna end now. Will write more about baby later. 

3rd boy born

Alhamdulillah selamat lahirkan my 3rd boy. 

So on the 5th of June checked myself into PCMC around 10pm. My surgery is scheduled for 7 am the next day. We put Saif at my sister and Aziz and his father stay with me. 

Since it is confirmed that I am undergoing c-section, not much hassle and bother. CTG machine was only put on me once at 11pm and another at 5 am the next day, to make sure I do not have any contractions. Malam tu boleh pulak la aku sakit kepala and berak2, but not too bad. 

So by 7 am dah kena tolak to dewan bedah. Not sure if I mentioned it before, but my gynae for this pregnancy is Datuk Dr Aziz. And I am glad for this pregnancy amik die because he is excellent. But I am getting ahead of myself. Anyway, husband cannot come into dewan bedah because Aziz is with him. So it is just me. 

The last 2 full pregnancy, I had been put into epidural. This time, they gave me a spinal tap, so it was given dekat OT. And boy was my head spinning, manage to puke myself. Ahhh... I always puke during surgery. Confirmed dah ni. 

Anyway it didn't take long at all. I think we started around 7.19 am and then by 7.53 baby dah keluar. Kali ni I don't feel drowsy. More curious at what's going on. Can hear when they slice my stomach and smells something like burning flesh jugak. Horrifying. I am glad I can't see. 

When they finally pulled out the baby, I can hear immediately his gurgling cries. He won't stop crying and when they cleared out the liquid , lagi lah bergema OT dengan nangis die. Even the anesthetist remarked "Semangatnye yang ni " . 

After that it was pretty standard, stitched me up, baby taken to nursery, then post recovery. Last time I was in post recovery, I just got a blanket, and I was shivering so bad, right until several hours after c-section. This time I think ade new procedure, so they put some kind of hot air blower in between the blanket, and my shivering subside and no shivers after they wheeled in me in my room! Yeay! 

The baby is wheeled after 2 3 hours. Sedap tido gamaknye dalam nursery. He had problem latching on the first day but afterwards drink like a little trooper. 

Oh the baby? 

Fresh from oven gitu. Gambar amik sendiri sebab still stuck onto bed. He looked so much like Aziz that when the paeds first shown me the baby, I immediately said "sebijik aziz". 

Anyway, I stay at the hospital until Friday. This time post op recovery is kinda great. By the 2nd day can get out of bed and out of the urine tube. This time, the c section wound does not hurt so much. The cramping / post contractions is a bitch though. I swear I cried once. 

Datuk Aziz said since this is my c-section, I needed stitches rather than glue like the last 2. Also he mentioned, if I decided on the next child, the next c-section have to be my last. My ovary is kinda messed up from the last surgeries, seems like it is sticking with the stomach lining and other things. Datuk Aziz said to not eat any herbal supplements or anything that promote speedy recovery. The recovery should happen naturally. Huh. If only I knew this on my first kan. Heh. 

2 weeks after my c section, the stitches is healing great. Better than the previous one. I can move freely pain free ( if I do not push myself) and I don't feel as bloated as before either. Anyway, we will see how post recovery gonna be. 

As for the baby himself, he is doing great. We did his circumcision on the 2nd day, and the ring had just come off yesterday. Pusat masih lagi ade. It is a bit weird sebab the clamp fell off but some bits of tali pusat tu ade lagi. Have to continue to see. And if it bugs me too much, I can always ask my sis. 

I think dah cukup panjang kut. Will continue to write about the baby later. He is breastfeeding well and sleeping well. I am still trying to juggle the kids, the baby and the house. 

Later. Also selamat berpuasa and menjalani ibadah di malam2 terakhir ni. 

Selamat Beribadah di Ramadhan

I think I do it well enough if its a short burts sorta entry. 

- Tomorrow Ramadhan, and sahur pon aku taknak masak. Hey... I had never been a sahur type of person before but also realized am like 37 weeks pregnant so have to have sustenance. Also I can't move around too much without feeling like my water gonna broke and I am going to go into labor. 

- My surgery is scheduled around next week. I am nervous. 

- Still have a lot of things to be prepared. At least baju dah basuh. Tomorrow basuh mittens and booties and towel. Then sterilize bottle and breast pump. Then kemas barang. Need to also kemas baju for my kids. So many stuffs still need to be done. 

- I am tired all the time. 

- I don't know how I am gonna handle 3 kids without my husband being around most of the time. Don't know, don't know pon... kena lah get through it. LOL. 

- Baby is active and kicking around now. Probably happy her mom is drinking horlicks. Funny how when I was little I hate horlicks with all my might, up to my 20s. Then kids came and pregnancy and breastfeeding came, it is either Milo ( which I can get sick of quite easily) or Horlicks for my hot drinks. Horlicks win most of the time, and bile this pregnancy almost a daily thing. 

- Realized ever since I quit I haven't been updating much. Pity. I haven't even blogged about my trip to Cambodia though to be fair, I went pretty much the same route as the last visit. Probably will do like a short update... tahun depan? LOL. 

- Most probably I am gonna be updating after I got my baby. Kalau rajin maybe I pop in just a little earlier just to gloat I got everything ready. 

- And yes, this Ramadhan is gonna be tough, what with the kids not schooling, me going into czer operation soon and being listless most of the time. Maybe it is a good time to reflect on why I am feeling like this and what I can do to be better spiritually. 

- Tadek mood nak masak, tadek mood nak usha sgt pasar Ramadhan also. How now? Mesti price pasar Ramadhan gile saiko what with everything going up nowadays. 

Selamat berpuasa to my readers. 

Bersiaran dari Gleneagles

This time it is Aziz again who have to be warded due to lymphadenitis.

Gambar on the first day at the ward before Saif kena shipped off to my sis.

He mentioned it to me last Friday he said his tengkuk sakit and the right side of his face I then noticed looks a bit swollen. Bawak to klinik biasa but the doctor have no idea and probably suggested might be mumps.

By Monday it had become more swollen looking and decided a visit to the paeds is necessary. Just to make sure if its really. So it is not mumps though it look like it and the paeds want to be cautious and decided to ward him so a steady course of antibiotics can be given using iv. A bit relief not mumps too because I never had mumps and not looking forward having the risk of it infecting others and pregnant me.

A bit harried gak because husband not around. Have to send Saif to my sister. Poor boy. And hVe to ask someone to come the first and third day to look after Aziz while I have to dash home to take care of stuffa. Today is day 4 at the hosp. But we can be discharged tomorrow so yeay! My poor cats jugak kesian. Asked my sis maid to bagi makan and already send a big basket of laundry to dobi. Maybe I will ask someone to come in next week to clean the house.

Anyway.. it is not so bad this hospital stay. Bored je la. Finish 2 books and reading the third one. Aziz is non stop asking for stuffs to buy at the kedai bawah hospital ni. Though I miss Saif but so far he is doing fine. Aziz also dah besar and he is not stuck to an iv drip so his mood is mostly jovial. Mcm holiday at hotel. Except for the cramped hospital bed and waking up every 3 4 hrs when temp needed to be taken. Lol.


Oklah. Need to wipe my kid down. 

Kids and baby

Hola. 

Masa ni adik buli abang, abang cry, so we asked him to mintak maaf and hug. See Aziz tear stained face.

Let's start with the littlest baby update first. He is OK. Insya Allah. Currently 26 weeks. Baru lepas jumpa gynae and my weight shot up 3 kg, terus kena warning kena cut down makan sikit. LOL. (tapi i tak rase i makan banyak pon).....

Anyway oh I did update the baby in the womb is a he. We are gonna have 3 boys! Husband picit kepala je la. I have to admit I was a little disappointed but to be honest, not too disappointed. I was prepared for a life of all boys in the family if it comes to that, so I am happy either way. There is a little longing to shop for cute things but I have nieces for that. 

As for Saif, he is becoming a handful. I don't know if it is the middle child syndrome ke ape but he not as easy to handle as Aziz. If we open Youtube for him ( if he found one of our old functioning phone we keep on to keep the kids entertained if needs be), he will be so transfixed and addicted. If we took it away he become so tantrumy and shouty and needy that we decided to just hide all the gadgets. Thank God the kids already know their own parent phones are off limit so we don't have that hurdle yet. Other than that, he is also a little bit more messy, a little more selective hearing and a little more destructive than his brother. 

I also think because he is so cute, he can get away with so much at school. We are still finding ways how to punish him effectively, so there are a lot of trial and error to see what works. Also my husband found out that Saif called himself 'Baba'. We have no idea where he gets it from, maybe at school or if he likes Puffin Rock that much or he likes Babar the Elephant story. Who knows. But he refers to himself Baba. Sometimes outright refused to acknowledge his own name. Kecik kecik dah make own stand. I asked Aziz why his little brother called himself Baba , Aziz said " Sebab Adik suke jadi baby." Maybe jugak. Who knows. Aziz the only one who can translate what his brother wants bile Saif cakap tak clear. 

As for Aziz, well we had just settled the pendaftaran and pengesahan sekolah for the darjah 1 intake in 2019. Sometimes when he consoled his brother I felt like he is really big, and bile daftar tu, I still can't believe it he is gonna start school. Not soon , but imminent! He is really excited because his cousins all goes to that school so we will see how that day goes, in 2019. 

As for the now, he is very interested in his littlest brother. Always asking when doctor is gonna cut open mommy punye perut. I was a bit relieved I akan kena czer just for the small mercy, I don't have to explain yet baby come out from 'down there'. To him the logical way for now is for doctor to cut his mother open. 

Apart from that, perangai wise, he is a dream most of the time. A bit lazy when it comes to study, but I malas push. I seen that he knows his number and jawi, but alphabet still a bit weak. Haih. Let's see how la kan. Mostly interested nak main or tengok Netflix. 

Oklah nak tido. Main candy crush dulu. Dan sedikit wordament. Then tido.