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indeed.  First of all. Selamat menjalani ibadah di bulan Ramadhan. My ramadan is pretty low key. It is just me and the kids. Havent been to pasar ramadhan yet, though I want to. It is easier to cook because going to pasar ramadhan with kids is not something I can muster up the energy for. We will however look for baju raya probably tomorrow at Melawati Mall probably.  Senang je sekarang since Melawati Mall ni dah bukak. Before this if I wanna look for stuffs, there is KLCC or Jusco AU2. Which the former parking rate is getting ridiculous throughout the years and the latter don't offer a lot of choice but still I like going there for movies and treating the kids 'makan kedai'.  Anyway. Just because it was a historic moment for Malaysia, I feel like I have to put it down here. We voted BN off. And that feel good. The euphoria last for a week I tell you. For 3 days after the election, I am stupidly happy. It feel like a burden had been lifted. I never realized ...

I am updating blog like I used to do. Ramble and ramble. I think it is good. Well I did this because I have no work lor. Dulu ade juga keje. Tunggu kerja esok sampai! Kerja here ni bile time ade keje, busy tak menang tangan. Bile tadek, tadeekk langsung.  Sekarang ni Malaysians people are so engrossed at their phone reading up on the WSJ allegations regarding our PM. From my understanding, what is highlighted by WSJ was actually in the earlier AG reports which the higher up deemed classified and should not be released to public. That just showed the level of corruption in our country. Because after WSJ make light of this, then it seems like all sorts of actions and questions are being undertaken. There are many theories that can be thrown out, however bear in mind that the authorities had already warned we rakyat marhaen to not spread this. All I can say is that while all of us at the edge of our seat to see what unravels next, in my sinking heart, I feel like there can n...

Tuka gambar to dusk in Tokyo sebab epilepsy aku tengok gamba sebelom ni.  It had been an eventful year.  For the world. The Gaza terror ( war is too bias because only the Gazans suffered the most), the Sewol South Korea ferry where a lot of school teens are the major  casualty, the Peshawar school massacre where a lot of children died needlessly on some misguided ideas of revenge, also the year most of the world are introduced to Boko Haram and their despicable acts of kidnapping school girls, the Sydney cafe siege where Muslims every where despaired when one lone man tarnished the name of Islam and the death of two innocents.  And I am not getting to Malaysia yet. Of course MH370 and MH17. Even remembering it is painful, I can't imagine the pain of family and loved ones of the passengers.  The loss of Air Asia plane recently while it is an Indonesian plane, but it still hit too close to home. Cameron Highlands ravaged lands. The floo...

Right now people are reeling from the tragedy of the alleged shooting down of commercial flight MH17. And from what I can see in the news the Australia PM is especially furious. Very quick response from US which is no surprise since anything related with Putin they will interfere. UK are still cautious.The Ukraine and Russia conflict will now be rehashed. God only knows what will come out of this. I am pitying my country. I am pitying MAS. Most of all, pity is not the word I will describe my feelings towards the family and victim. Sadness is. And angry. As this should not happened. Al fatihah to the passengers and crews who lost their life in that flight.

Inundated with a neglect cases, as a mom it breaks the heart. Macam kes budak kena culik or rape or bunuh. There is a special kind of sadness and rage.  But when the perpetrator is own blood and kin, especially mak sendiri, rase macam tak masuk akal. There can only be sadness in this kind of case. Macam kes budak kena dera sampai mati and the latest neglected OKU boy. What kind of pressure does it took that you can do that to your own child and not feel pity to them? I am not a great mother, I am still learning to be a good mother. Especially sensorang jaga Aziz 2 3 minggu ni with morning sickness rase macam fuhhh. There was a low point yesterday when I realized I didn't take care of Aziz good enough these past weeks and that brings me down and I promised to do better.  Semoga Tuhan will always keep my conscience with me even when things get hard that I don't lose my way like these mothers did.  And sorry to say, walaupon I kinda get how they can get...

It had been rather slow at the office. Everyone is enjoying the downtime. Coming in late and going back early. Tapi semalam balik awal pon tadek guna. Jam gilerrr. Gosh. I hate jam.  Everyone is talking about the child who drowned after riding banana boat with her father. Sedih sangat rase. It was a piss poor decision by the parent. And I am gonna leave it at that because they are going to live the rest of their life knowing they made that decision that cost their daughter life. The banana operator tu pon salah gak. Nak untung je lebih, tak pikir panjang. Dan walaupon people keep on saying parents should be held responsible if things go wrong, unfortunately stupidity is not against the law. Moga-moga we parents will always have the presence of mind to make the right decision when it comes to our kids.  Husband is at last going back to work in KL after almost 3 years of him being an 'expat' in another country. Matilah kena masak tetiap malam. Well. Almost every night. ...

I think every mother yang baca kisah tragis of the kid left in car duk terngiang-ngiang. I am not gonna comment much about it except for a person who had locked Gollywolly in (!!!! Bad Owner!!!) for 3 hours di tengah har panas and Kurap for 4 hours dari petang ke malam.. I kinda understand how this can happened.  Yang Kurap tu happened a few months back. I balik dari kedai kut and groceries was at the car boot. I had opened the car door for a while and then open the boot. Then after I take the things from the carboot, I terus tutup the car door. Petang tu cari Kurap tak jumpa. Malam tu keluar lagi cari Kurap, tengok die tengah baring belakang kereta pandang I. Fuhhh. Cuak kejab. But I agak2 the time die terperangkap tu is not that hot tapi dalam kereta still panas gak.  Then minggu lepas I was down with flu. Amik MC, bought groceries then sampai rumah I let the cats roam free while I unload my groceries. On my second trip to the car dari rumah tu, ade tinggal cat food...

Mommy to be worries of cats .  I am crossing my fingers and jari kaki semua that my husband boleh balik next week. Ade orang boleh tolong cuci litterbox. It is such a back breaking chore for me. People keep on saying cats is not good for pregnant ladies that sometimes you macam takut. I berdoa je la everything is OK and after everything I read on toxaplasmosis (malas check if ejaan betul ke tak) , just take some precaution. Macam I wear disposable gloves and mask everytime cleaning out their litter and all. And make sure I thoroughly wash my hands before eating and after handling them. Aku rase my hands will aged prematurely given the amount of anti bacterial handwash I had been using setiap kali handle die orang.  As for babies and all that about allergies, studies shown that having pets at home reduced allergies in children, so aku berharap tiny tot will have to build considerable immunity against them. I have a vague plan on how to introduce the 2 creatures to each ...

That's seems to be the feeling I felt in my dream.  I kept on having recurring dreams where vampires are after me and taking hostage of my cats. Especially Kurap.  Gambar sekadar hiasan The other night  I dreamt of real people intending to do me harm, and it scared me witless. I found myself reluctant to sleep because in my dream the people came to me in my sleep and I was scared. Sleep of course came and I dreamt again of vampires and cats and all is right again in my world.  I rather much have vampires and zombies and aliens ( I dreamt of them quite often too) in my dreams than psychopath made of real flesh and blood.  Perhaps the state of the world scares me. The other night I was haunted by the face of the father who lost his 2 kids. Last night news reported there was a hit and run in Kelantan where a vehicle hit 2 kids on a bicycle. Seeing those poor kids still bloodied and still clad n school clothes while being watched silently by thei...

Hello! Selalu kut blogging sejak 2 menjak ni. Perasaan membuak2 so kena la cari outlet.  Btw, the supposedly illegal rally thing tomorrow is gonna be a hassle. Now I rarely comment on politics, but I do believe if people wants to make a political rally and are trying to go through the appropriate channels should be given a chance to do so. People are not stupid, but all these incredible precautions are making us nervous. Before this we are thinking this is just gonna be a normal-ish political rally and somehow it had turned out to be chaos. This does not look good all around. And somehow I think if the BN wants to have a fucking parade with fireworks in the middle of the day around KLCC, the government would give their blessings with confetti thrown in too but other body that clashes with the govt have to huddle miserably at the stadium where no one can access it. ( I somehow have mad image of someone in the govt giving money to bomoh hujan to make it rain only at the stadium tom...

I guess many knows about the commotions regarding the plan to build a mosque, nay! A prayer hall (surau) near the Ground Zero. I am not gonna comment on that. The comments and thoughts on blog Effi is enough to satisfy you (and I like that many commenters there are nice enough to not be an Internet asshole and agree to disagree). What I am thinking of the many comments saying religion is the cause of war.  Is it?  I am always on the thought that economy (power and money) is the main reason. Religion, is just an excuse they are throwing to rile the pious commoners up to fight the war that they are waging while the perpetrator who thought of war sat nicely on their plump cushion looking at maps while trying not to yawn and the commoners are the one with the blood on their hands . The Crusades? Yes it is waged by the Church and the kings in Europe. Yes, it is about conquering of Jerusalem. But all I see is a control on a much revered holy site where if won brings them control...

I was browsing through the videos of the Pasar Ramadhan Jasin tragedy, and I am positively angry at some comments that goes in the line of this - " mungkin ade pengajaran di sini, di mana dalam asyik meniaga jangan lupakan ibadah." The usual of maybe those poor people who's trying to make an honest living there deserved it. What a load of self righteous crap. Its the same like what Effi complaints on some people bullshits of the Bukit Antarabangsa tanah runtuh. Penduduk situ berjudi la, maksiat la. And now, orang yang berniaga pon kena tuduh tinggal ibadah. I wonder sometimes on the thoughts process of such people making silly accusations and assumptions. I think those who made comments like these had been reading too much Mastika. I wonder what kind of craps they are going to go with it to go with their so called 'pengajaran'. Peniaga2 di situ menjual mende tidak halal? Peniaga2 di situ main poker sebelum puting beliung? Grrr. Can't you just sympathize,...

One-ness I am feeling old because I am feeling sick and felt inclined to tell ALL people what ails me like old people tends to do. Then suddenly I remembered my arwah grandmother who had paranoia and used to think that every single noise in the dead of the night was created solely in purpose to annoy/frightened/drive her further into paranoia. I missed my grandmother. I reserved the right when I am old and cranky to spew out any nonsense I can, not (just) because I have paranoia, but just because I can. Two-ness My eyes caught a news item mentioning NUBE is collecting signatures to petition government in increasing the maternity leave from 60 days to 90 days. Anything that promotes holiday, I am all for it! Honestly, I was shocked to learn that Malaysia maternity leave (private sectors mostly), is only at 60 days. I really did thought before this that the maternity leave is 90 days minimum. (Nampak sangat tak baca employment contract betul-betul. Hehe). The thing is, I was browsing ...

So I read that Malaysian Film Producers Association is proposing to up the price of Hollywood movie at the cinema at double the price. Wow! That is just preposterous. First of all, I do understand they want to protect local filmmakers. But putting the price at RM20 per ticket is kinda ludicrous. It would seems like instead of protecting the local filmmakers, they are punishing moviegoers for not making the 'right' choice. There are all kinds of outrage, and some even avowed to avoid local movies altogether if this proposal is being made into reality. Maybe they just up it to a few ringgit, is a bit OK (not more than half!!). It would give local filmmakers an advantage. Or try to increase their screening time, meaning, usually it is around 2 to 4 weeks that a local movie got its screen time at the local cinema. Some I notice only 2 weeks or less! Words of mouth on how good a local movie is kinda a slow momentum around here... Like I heard about a movie that is good, pastu bile ...

Perbuatan Jerit cabul hak asasi kanak-kanak KUALA LUMPUR 21 Dis. – Tindakan pertubuhan tidak berdaftar, Jaringan Rakyat Tertindas (Jerit) menggunakan kanak-kanak dalam programnya di Bangunan Parlimen minggu lalu, mencabuli hak asasi golongan tersebut. Pengerusi Lembaga Penduduk dan Pembangunan Keluarga Negara (LPPKN), Tan Sri Zaleha Ismail berkata, ia bukan sahaja melanggar Akta Kanak-Kanak 2001 malah menyalahi Konvensyen Hak Kanak-Kanak yang diamalkan di seluruh dunia. Bekas Menteri Perpaduan Negara dan Pembangunan Masyarakat yang bertanggungjawab mencetuskan idea penggubalan Akta Kanak-Kanak 2001 berkata, hak yang digariskan di bawah undang-undang dan konvensyen itu tidak hanya tertakluk kepada kanak-kanak sekolah rendah tetapi meliputi bawah 18 tahun. “Kanak-kanak ada hak asasinya sendiri. Sesiapa sahaja termasuk ibu bapa atau mana-mana pertubuhan yang menggunakan kanak-kanak dengan membawa mereka ke majlis seperti yang dilakukan oleh Jerit adalah satu perbuatan mengeksploitasi kana...

Okay. I am a little woozy from gadding around town today... so maybe I am not making sense. So bear with me as I untangle my thoughts. There are some people that are talking about gay rights. These are the issue that the Americans face nowadays because of the Prop 8 thingies. Those who don't know, google je la ok. Malas nak explain. Its hard for me to comment on the gay rights thingies and of course in Malaysia the issue is almost non existent. But if we would be asked like generally regarding the gay rights on how we view it, it would be kinda difficult. First of all, I am a person who believe that people should have the right to choose their own happiness and way of living as long as they do not harm others. However, I am also brought up as a Muslim where Islam prohibit same sex relationship. I wondered if this question if being forwarded to me or you (my Muslim friends), by 2 different people of different faith, would your answer differs? Would you say, gay should have the right...

I like rain. But I like it less if I am drenched and spattered with mud by nearby cars dashing to the car park. BUSY again! Sumenye nak before lunch hour. Grrrr...... Tapi I blog. Well, just because of a need to vent on how angry I am everyday reading on the news about the food poisoning of the chemical melamine (malas nk cek ejaan) into baby formula in China. And this brand is a highly distributed brand in China. Mostly bought by middle - low income family. And their babies are terribly ill and dying. I hate these type of species. I understand greed. I don't understand greed where it comes to a harm of another person. I am even more angry at the world when the victims are innocent children. Well... sambung kerja balik. "The need to blog is strong in tis one"

Gile tak best tajuk. Well, didn't did anything particularly great this weekend. Sepatutnye have to continue to mengemas my room and the house, but I got distracted by THS Tyra Banks. LOL. Didn't start puasa today like everybody else for obvious reason as per usual every year. So jab lagi nak goreng corn beef ok. Hehe. Well.. merdeka come and goes. Almost every 31st August from the first year I started on this blog, I will write something. I was planning to, but of course that didn't happened. Honestly, there is nothing to say. This year I am not proud to be Malaysian. Oh, I am a Malaysian. I love Malaysia. There is no other place that smelt like home more than this country. However, with the political fiasco going all around for this year, and all the incredibly disgusting corruption news, stupid politicians giving stupid statements, inane parties forgetting ethics and sense itself... well. There is really nothing to be proud of this year. Yes, the people make their v...

Report: 'Batman' accused of assaulting mom, sis LONDON - Batman star Christian Bale was to be questioned by police over allegations he assaulted his mother and sister the night before the European premiere of his film, "The Dark Knight," British media reported Tuesday. [ More ] Well... this do not bode well for the dark knight? I understand the allegations of abuse of spouse (though still I condemn it), but if your own mother and sister make a report of you assaulting them at a police station, you must have a VERY nasty temper indeed. If its true, and I really hope it is NOT true as I had love Christian Bale ever since Little Women . (And I still maintained that Jo would do well with Laurie), well let's just say... sigh.

I read the story of this woman murder and was left feeling ... despair. It tells the story of a how a woman try her damnedest in all her physical and intelligence power to survive and ask for help, yet still doesn't come out alive. What saddened me more is how the case is also botched by a missed 911 call . The case of where dispatchers forgot to inform the police on the streets who is on the lookout for this girl, of the 911 tips they received and agents not following up. I don't know the stressful working environment of an emergency line call center (911, 999, whatever emergency line set up), so maybe people and me are judging them harshly. However, if an important call somehow get lost through, there is usual some kind of repercussion. And this call probably had indirectly caused a life lost. The agents should have at least follow up. They didn't. They should have logged it in the system, they didn't (in my previous job as a call center agent that is ground for dism...