Cats and Mess

At first this photo was meant for my IG story, but the mess is too much. So I opted not to, and in a whim decided to just post it here. Because I don't think people are reading. Also there is a certain satisfaction posting in an IG story. You can who had clicked past your story. They don't have to interact or like your upload. They are just there briefly. 

For a moment then, you feel seen. Ah.. this person care or curious enough to view what ever picture of cats/ food/ randoms things I upload. My vanity then stroked, and I feel a little bit less lonely in an ever expanding world of content engagements. 

In a way, blogs really are  quite pure in their own way. 

I wanted to talk about mess. There's too much in my house. I need to get rid of it. Sometimes I manage to pack away some, but then it comes back again with a vengeance and I feel defeated. I now sympathize with chronic hoarders. They must be very tired. 

 

2026 first update

 Goddamn. 

So my last update was that I got a new job. 

My now update is I got no job currently. 

I am now living a tai-tai life. 

How do I feel about it? 

Sometimes I hated it, sometimes all I wanna do is doomscrolled job postings, sometimes I am tired. very rarely content. 

It is maybe the mid life crisis looming in, or had already settled in... but I felt alot of the time I am looking back on my life and feels regret. 

A lot of what ifs. 

But what load of good will that do to me? None. Nada. 

I am trying to snap myself out of this funk and charged forward.

 Then what is out there...  forward? 

2023 Recaps

 Actually I have memory of a goldfish. I can't remember much what is happening. The main thing is that I GOT A NEW JOB. 

The earlier year was a bit of haze. Oh yes, it started with me trying to rescue 4 cats abandoned by my neighbour but then the cats died one by one. And never had I feel so tired and incompetent. Only Mini survived. 

NOTES

( I put this in draft and gonna hit Publish. It is now 2025, end of 2025.... and a lot had happened. Just wanna say the 3 cats that died particularly one of em is still one of the cats I hold much love in my heart. I will do a separate post on my 2024 and 2025) 

Updating my hoard of books

As my blog here, is my means in getting my thousands ( because I think it is now thousand of books ) of books inventoried, I need to update my books for the past years. I think the one I bought from 2021 to 2022. 

2023 update of books will be done probably next year? lelz. 

I think this was 2022 BBW sale book. Couldnt be arsed to go to Mines and bought it online. I think I already have ZOM-B. That book is probably gonna be drop in some community shelf

The Shallow Seas - Dawn Farnham

A novel of intrigue and Romance - Michaela MacColl

Not The girls you are looking for - Aminah Mae Safi 

Song of the Sea Maid - Rebecca Mascull

The dust that falls from the dreams - Louis d Bernieres

Zom-B - Darren Shan 

The World Worst Explorer ,  Fintan Fedora

Marie Antoinette, Serial Killer 

Wishing for Tomorrow - Hillary McKay

Snowfall - KM Peyton

Girls Walk into a blind date 

The fantastic family whipple 

Love and Friendship - Whit Stillman

The Romance Reader's Guide to Life - Sharon Pywell 

Meet and Delete - Pauline Lawless

A History of Johore by RO Winstedt,  Bought this at a sale in Muzium Negara. I was also feverish at the time. I wonder bila aku nak baca buku ni because while I am interested, faced it.. it looks boring as hell. 

Bought this batch at the Kedai Buku. The manless second hand bookshops. They were selling it at RM5 apiece then

Roald Dahl - The Witches and Charlie and The chocolate Factory

Lisa Kleypas - Secrets of Summer Nights

Left Overs - Stella Newman

Memoirs of a DJ , Life in Progress - Vernetta Lopez

Wicked Angel - Julia London

Bollywood Night - Shobhaa De

Matthew Reilly - Hover Car Racer

The Two Lives of Miss Charlotte Merryweather

I think this one is the 2021 BBW sale. 

The invisible life of Euridice Gusmao

Freshers - Tom Ellen and Lucy Ivison

How to start a fire - Lisa Lutz ( i def had bought this one again )

Love and Friendship - Wait I also had bought this again?

Re Jane - Patricia Park 

The Woman Who Upped and Left - Fiona Gibson

As good as it gets - Fiona Gibson

Finding Colin Firth - Mia March

Incarnations - Susan Barker 

                             The Sum of All Kisses, The Make Believe Husband - Julia Quinn 

The Lady Most Willing - JQ , CB and Eloisa James.

Eloisa James - 4 Nights with the Duke 

Love in the Afternoon , Married by Morning - Lisa Kleypas

The Girl who played Go - Shan Sa

Miss Purdy's class - Annie Murray

And this batch is kinda bittersweet because I bought it from the closed Ampang Point's Reader's Paradise book shop during their closing down fire sale. I hope the owners are doing well again and having the nicest of time reading their books. 

I used to rent books there. Sigh. I used to dream of opening a rent sorta bookstore. But I think this fad had died now? Used to be popular in the 90s. 

From classical to not

One of the reason why I started working is money. I want more freedom to spend on myself. I had also discovered I really like classical music and now attending my classical music performances. Most of it I went alone. Because I don't think I found anyone who is content to just sit and listen to just classical music for 2 hours and more. And I dont really like inviting anyone to come with me, because I feel like I would be disappointed if they wont enjoy it as much as I do. But if you do, lets go be silent together and enjoy the music. 

Its not boring for me, in fact I am always captivated. Recently someone in Twitter shared that Istana Budaya will do one of those classical performances by their National Symphony at RM30 per ticket. As someone who usually bought the cheapest ticket at RM130 for MPO , these are CHEAP. 

So I went ahead and just book myself tickets and had already jotted down their setlist so to speak. I found that listening to the setlist first, will make my listening in during the performance more enjoyable.

I think this year , I already went twice or thrice?, The Rachmaninoff one which is magnificent, and also Brahms violin concerto which I also love because the playing was so energetic. The next MPO performance I will be going to is the Hans Zimmer one. 

Dewa concert in Axiata Arena last year

But I am not a music snob, I am fine with the non classical concert too. Since I love Dewa, went to the Dewa concert last year. I had gone to the Dewa concert in 2019, in Stadium Malawati. And I love it. ( I also have better seat ). The seat for this Dewa concert in Axiata Arena. I hated. Its not worse as in cheaper, but I dont know why but I hate it. Everything feel cramped and I cant move. But we did get Ahmad Dhani back, so thats a plus. 

Next month I am gonna see Muse. I don't know what to expect from that. And of course I had scored Coldplay tickets. Standing . We will see about that too. I had also registered myself for the Taylor Swift tickets, but I am not putting much hope into that and just hope I get a cheap ticket by sheer luck. 

Figuring out what

I am back to work now. Why? Why do I work? As the rains poured down hard this morning... I was also like ... WHY DID I GO BACK TO WORK. Money. More money. I am not sure how long should I be working... we will see. 

I am still working in the HR IT line, no longer doing SAP, but more to other system. It is interesting.  So far. 

I am finding I have less and less of things to say here. The thoughts bubble and froth but when I got to this page, its mostly a blank. Maybe I should just put it as a travel sorta diary. 

What else I am up to? Kids? The boys are usual. Getting on my nerves and everything. Growing up does that. They are very helpful though, especially the eldest. But once they got a phone in hand, a fiery hale might come down and it would not faze them. 

I actually find it hard to concentrate or get stuffs out when everyone is talking around me. I am used to a quiet office I guess. Not here. Good God WFH should be mandatory. 

Putting in Monkee as big ball of fuzz to offset the boringness of this post

Been a while

 In fact its heading somewhere half into 2022. What the heck. 

So many things happened. Yet I can't remember. Its this whats getting old is all about? 

I got covid on the 31st of Dec 2021, so thats one way to start the year. Then the next month it was my husband. Nowadays everyone seems to be getting it. But with post vaccinations , it is almost not scary. The after effects of covid fatigue is very real though. And I had some up to know some taste change. 

Then the kids started school again with my eldest now going for the morning sessions so it was tiring and hectic and I feel like how can I properly make sure these 3 boys gets all the right kind of educations. I feel I should have just stick with cats sometimes, but even the cats dont turned out well sometimes. 

Thats the kids pic otw to Niah Cave. Ye orang lain beraya, we went to Niah. It was scary and we weren't that well prepared but it was fun. It was an INTENSE WORKOUT post raya though. 

AND... So Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to those who still persist in blogging and reading their fellows bloggers. I seen some writings back again after a few years and that makes me fire up this old blogger again. 

Maybe at the very least update some holidays, because like I had said, memories fade and sometimes I look back on the old blog updates of my holidays and like "eh that happened" . 

Anyway. I am suppose to be showering and then putting the kids to sleep and the kids are screaming (probably playing beyblades and acting like someone who do not have to wake up at 6 am tomorrow. ).