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Relearning old interest

Not sure who here from 10 years back still are reading my blog, but those who do maybe did read I used to take violin lessons. I took it for like 3 or 4 years? I was never good because I was lazy. I simply have no time to practice ( ini adalah alasan). During the PKP when I was going out of my mind I feel like I need to play music again. My organ had long kaput and now lying in dust. We enquired about fixing it ( which no one can confirm it can be fixed) but it was a 20 years old one and I am like it will probably cost as much as buying a new one. 

What I do have is my old violin, which need to be restring. That is a whole other thing where I was trying to buy it online but the shop sent a guitar stand instead which when they asked me to return and I asked for a confirmation of their shop address and fucking postage fees to be at least sent to me because that thing is huge (and i still havent got my violin strings!) they just went silent!!! I am banning that shop forever and it sucks more for them since that guitar stand is more expensive that my violin strings , but I have no use for a guitar stand. 

Then I thought it is easier to go to a physical store and buying it in Yamaha music shop instead (which is fooking expensive) and it broke and I gave up and went back online and ordering it from overseas since no one locals can be trusted! 

Thats the whole saga. 

Anywayyyy ... I am back learning the violin once again based on my memory and Youtube, and I am not sure if I got better, but I can shakily manage 2 notes of vibrato which I can't before so that's nice. Not sure how long does this self learning thing can keep up since playing the violin is HARD, so we'll see. 


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