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All my bags are packed I am ready to go..
Not quite pack I guess.. Most of clothes I had packed.
I thought my bags wont be enough to 'tampung' the abundance of my clothes.. But not only it is enough.. it is more than enough. Which I wondered. Do I need to buy new clothes?

Tonight is the last night I will be spending my life as a student in UTP. I had been feeling sad this past few weeks. Knowing I will be missing this life. But my tiredness in packing my stuffs is overriding my feeling of melancholia. But since I had promised myself to write a blog entry during my last night.. so here I am still hanging on even though my eyes is half closed.

It had been great living in UTP. 4 and half years back.. I thought I will never get to this stage, that I wont be matured enough, that I am not ready enough. I am now almost to this stage.. yet the maturity and the readiness.. is not quite there yet. A part of me will always be here.. With my memories of my loved ones and my friends. From the shabbiness of Propana to the modern and comfy hostel of Village 4, from living side by side with hostile USM students as lowly junior until becoming one of the kakak seniors frequenting the hi tech offices, labs and classes at the new academic block, from being a virtual unknown DaRn_sWeEt_tHiNg to become an obsessed chatter nicknamed elara in utp MIRC network... This is my life here. I had made friends, became enemies, made new friends, sworn lifetime loyalty to each others.. I had met wonderful wonderful guys who change my world, make my world spinned and quivered and crashed, and yet still taking this pieces with me even though some of em are painful, it is necessary for me to remember.... that behind the pain sometimes lies a sweet memory. And perhaps hope...

I cannot say convicingly that I known better or am wiser rather than 4 years back..but I know that I am a bit tembam.. have more clothes than 4 years back, laugh a little less, gain many invaluable friends, and have an abundance of memories that I know I can't recreate again.
Today.. I close a chapter in my life. Tomorrow.. I will looked back around me for the very last time.. and knows that I had loved, suffered, cried , laughed and lived here.

UTP Batch June 2000
A***** A** B****

Comments

Anonymous said…
am i something to u??

jiwang!! :P
Anonymous said…
hrm...someone? how lucky he is got you. i also want to be someone special for you. maybe as your "frenz". hehehe...
Dils said…
ah.. sapakah itu? for both of those comments above.. sape ek?? ah.. why shud i be thinking who.. why why..
Anonymous said…
i guess u still miss utp dont u?

I myself experience this feeling at least for 4 times. 4 times i guess.The 1st one was after the PMR,and then after SPM, and then after my friend graduated from UTP, leaving me alone with Taqi and I need to move into the hostel and then before going off from UTP.

Being so experience in this, i guess i learn something from it. Learn to let go.

It is a sweet memories though. When I met my frens back then, we laugh a lot telling old stories.

But the thing is, life must go on.
Anonymous said…
i guess u still miss utp dont u?

I myself experience this feeling at least for 4 times. 4 times i guess.The 1st one was after the PMR,and then after SPM, and then after my friend graduated from UTP, leaving me alone with Taqi and I need to move into the hostel and then before going off from UTP.

Being so experience in this, i guess i learn something from it. Learn to let go.

It is a sweet memories though. When I met my frens back then, we laugh a lot telling old stories.

But the thing is, life must go on.

Nuffnang

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